My name is Ayu
Chapter 21

"Already, Wa. The relationship between us is over. Although my marriage and Dio had to, but the marriage is still a marriage. Stay in God's eyes. So is your marriage and your wife's. The sacred promise you made when you were married please be kept. That's a big responsibility in front of God."

Only advice I can give. We used to love each other, even now. But now we both have a life partner.

"When you are, Yu. If at that time you hold your deeds accountable that night with me, I will surely marry you Yu." said the Lord desperately.

"You could probably say it's like me now. But 3 months ago? I remember your disappointed face when I met you and I said I was married. Do you think that when I had that cursed night I didn't think of staying with you? I'm ashamed, Wa. I was dirty. It's not holy anymore." I rubbed the tears that were dripping down my cheek.

I continued my words again. "I'm sure, even if you accept me at that time, surely someday this problem will be revealed again and will hinder our marriage later. I don't want that, Wa. That's why I let Dio take responsibility for what he did to me. Our relationship is over, Wa. But I still want to be friends with you. And our friendship may be more lasting than our love affair."

The gods are silent. There was a tear in his black eye which he had been resistant not to spill.

We looked at each other but with different thoughts. I felt guilty and regretted my foolish actions while the God seemed to think of something I had just learned after He finally said it.

"Yu, I have one request with you."

The Lord looked at me very seriously.

"What?"

The god breathes deeply and exhales it.

"Second with Dio. I am also getting divorced from my wife. Then we both got married. You want to, right?"

"Don't be crazy, Wa. What kind of request is that? You are over-exerting our relationship that is over. Awake, Wa. Our relationship is over. Finish. We're over Wa."

"But I still love you Yu. You're the only one I love. The one and only."

"I still love you, too, Wa. But we can't be together. Be aware. There are too many obstacles to face. We've got this conversation. I'll assume what you're talking about never happened, okay?"

The gods are silent again.

"Wa."

"Yes. Alright. If that's what you want. Remember one thing, I will always be there for you. If one day Dio hurts you, there I will always be faithful waiting for you."

"Yes, Wa. I'll remember. Live your marriage as well as possible. Just like me, I will also live my marriage as best I can. Maybe this is God's destiny for us. Let's eat it in the cold. I also have to go back to the office again." I directly devoured my food and tried to shift the subject so that the Gods could move on and not discuss our relationship. Honestly, I also hurt to remember the agony of our relationship that has been established for many years.

The gods also realized that I did not want to discuss our relationship anymore. He started a conversation so we would get back to being familiar.

"Yes, have you ever loved cooking?"

"Like dong. Being able to cook me is getting better at dong." show me off.

"Ah time? Was it good before, now is it getting better? I was curious. Make me macaroni schotel your flagship dong. I'm really excited."

"Do you really want me to cook? Yaudah tomorrow I bring you. But you're here again tomorrow?"

"If you bring me the macaroni schotel, I will come. Really happy with your cooking. Same with you too." The gods smile at me. We were finally able to chat without being awkward again.

"OKAY. I'll bring you tomorrow."

"Gazy."

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The streets today, as usual, are jammed everywhere. I feel so tired every day I have to believe it. It's good to have an apartment in the middle of the city. The Dio Apartment was not far from my office, but since marriage all facilities were revoked by Papa.

"Yes."

"Hm."

"Eat first yuk. I'm hungry." Yeah."

"Yes. It's up to you."

After getting my approval, Dio covered his bike to a roadside meatball stall. He ordered 2 portions for both of us.

Before long our meatball order came. I gave half my share to Dio.

"Well, how did you eat it so much?" ask Dio astonished.

"Still full."

"That's tumben. Usually if eating meatballs never refuse." Dio poured the chili sauce, chili sauce and soy sauce in his bowl of meatballs and stirred it evenly.

"So late at noon I ate Korean food." I did what Dio did to pour the chilli sauce and chili sauce and stir it.

Dio furrowed his brows. As if I had a feeling for something. "Who's the guy?"

"Sama De-" I immediately shut my sloppy mouth.

Dio put down his spoon and fork and then looked at me sharply. "God? You meet the gods?"

While looking down I nodded too. "Yes, I accidentally met and then took me to lunch together" I said timidly.

"You want that? Don't you think?" this time Dio folded both his hands on his chest. It seemed like his anger level was increasing.

"Well, even if I'm an ex, I should still be good friends with him." I said defensively.

"What is the same as Him?" Dio's meatballs have not been touched at all. He's still interrogating me.

"Whether I like to cook, I answer still."

"Continue?"

"You will eat the meat cold first." I stopped our conversation. There's no point in continuing.

"Continue talking about what else? I have no appetite now." Dio drank the sweet iced tea he ordered.

"Not saying anything. No need to discuss. It doesn't matter either." I then ate my meatballs in the hope that Dio would eat his meatballs like I did.

I continued to eat regardless of Dio's sharp gaze asking for an answer from me. Dio ate without asking any more. The legality of my heart.

I thought the problem was over. Case close's. But it's not over yet. After paying Dio straight to the bike and all the way he just kept quiet until we got home.

Even at home he doesn't talk to me. He continued his office work and I watched my favorite Korean drama. The difference is usually Dio doing his work while accompanying me to watch drakor but now he is working on it in the backyard, where he makes mini furniture.

I know Dio is angry, but after knowing what I and the Gods are talking about, he will be even more angry. I let Dio go with his anger and we didn't say hello for a week or so. Our selfish nature makes us like this. No one's gonna give up.