My name is Ayu
Chapter 37

Dio was already sound asleep beside me. I don't know why these eyes seem dry and don't want to be closed. My body feels very tired with the activity today but why not sleep?

I sat down and opened the nightstand drawer beside my bed. I took the pill I used to take. My eyes continued to stare at the new pill granules 2 pieces I consumed. There are 26 more. Whole and well sealed.

I remember Mama saying that Dio wanted a child from me. My contract will expire next month and if I get pregnant it is no problem. Did I follow my mother's advice?

If I'm pregnant and Dio comes back with Sheila how? What will be the fate of me and my son?

"You haven't slept, Yu?"

I was surprised that Dio woke up. I quickly put the Pill in the nightstand drawer.

"Can't sleep." I answered honestly.

"Udah night. Tomorrow you work sleepy. Here sleep." Dio patted his arm.

Like a kitten I followed and put my head on Dio's arm.

"Bobo yes. I'll pat her back." Dio rubbed my hair gently and then did as he said patting my back like I was a little kid to go to bed.

His sturdy arms felt like a protective wall that I would always be able to use as a shelter. Dio's eyes closed but his hands did not stop patting my back.

I kept staring at my handsome husband. Would my son be as handsome as he was if he were born a man? Or if it would be so beautiful if women?

I think I need more than his sturdy arm to overcome this turmoil of my heart. Pretending to be asleep, I tightly hugged Dio's body. I could hear his regular heartbeat. And the smell of his body that smells typical of men with perfume that blends with the aroma makes my eyes start to sleepy. Plus Dio who is now hugging me tightly. Without feeling I've entered the dream realm.

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"Yu, wakeup. It's noon." Dio's voice woke me up this morning.

"Still sleepy, io"

"It's 6 o'clock, Yu. If you don't shower now we'll be late for the office."

I sat down immediately. "What's? 6 Hours? Poor dong? What is your breakfast and lunch? I'm not ready yet."

"Sst. Drink water after waking up." I take a glass of water that I used to prepare before going to bed. "You take a shower. Breakfast and lunch I've prepared."

"Uh. thank goodness. I took a shower." I immediately grabbed the towel on the towel clothesline and took a shower.

When I came out of the bathroom, Dio was wearing his shirt and looking in the mirror to make sure his makeup was tidy. I took a shirt and pants material with matching motifs, stripes.

Dio was still struggling in front of the mirror. "Yu, put me on a tie, can't you? I have been very difficult."

Oh it turns out from earlier put a tie. Kirain has been doing it for a long time.

"Yes. I can." I walked over to Dio and put on a tie. I forgot that my shirt wasn't even bagged and I saw the tanktop I was wearing.

I was shocked when Dio buttoned my shirt. "Why what?" I pulled my body away from him and took off the tie I was wearing to Dio.

"Your shirt's not on the button yet. I'm not going to macem-macem. You put me on a tie so that your shirt I buttoned. We almost got bad." I put a tie back on Dio and Dio buttoned my shirt. If it wasn't for bad luck I would have worn it myself.

Dio brought his motor with speed. But when it came to the protocol road the speed of the vehicle slowed down because the road began to be congested.

"Tumben's wearing a tie today?" I started a conversation with him.

"There was a meeting with Papa. All interested people must come. No exception to me. If I'm not neat, I'll get scolded. Very males." Dio drove his bike to overtake with agility between Jakarta traffic jams. I finally got to my office safely not late. Stay Dio fend for himself hopefully not late until his office.

I waited for the arrival of Dio who usually picked up at 5 o'clock in 15 minutes but it was 6 pm still not visible stem nose. I've been sending him messages since then but he hasn't read them, let alone reply to them. It seems like he's very busy.

Tin. The sound of a car horn was directed at me. God's Car. What's he doing here?

"Hi Yu's. Why are you standing on the side of the road at this hour? Waiting for the bus?" greet the Gods kindly. His eyes never changed in the past. Look at the loving eyes that He only directs to me. Although I once made this look disappointed in me, but now the look back again looked at me lovingly.

"Wait to be picked up."

"Waiting at the cafe in front. We'll have dinner first yuk?" I considered the invocation of the Gods. There are a lot of mosquitoes here and since then there have been buses that have stopped offering me to ride. Not to mention whistles teasing me.

"Jude, please." God got out of his car and opened the door for me. The gods always treated me like a queen, little things like opening the door. This is what I like.

God also put his seat belt on me. A happy smile was painted from his face.

I sent Dio a message. Told him I was waiting at the cafe near the office. Dio knows the place.

God's car entered the cafe parking lot where we broke up. God opened the car door for me. The gods wanted to embrace me but I tried to avoid. God knows that I'm not his anymore and doesn't try to embrace him anymore. I also kept Dio's position as my husband. I don't want to be considered as a cheating wife.

The Lord ordered our order to the servant.

"What are you doing after Yu's marriage?"

"Good."

"happy?"

I scrunched my forehead. "Why do you want to know?"

"Because I don't want to see that you're not being blessed by your husband. I'm the one who at least sincerely accepts that you've been hurt by someone else."

"Dio is no one else, Wa. Dio my husband."

"Yes I know. Don't you have to be firm anymore. Are you happy not living with your husband right now? How does he treat you?"

"Dio is good to me. The matter of being happy and how Dio treats me, I don't think it's any of your business. There are limits between us that we cannot cross. Like our own household problems. I want you to respect my privacy." I said firmly before God interfered in my household affairs.

"Sorry, Yu. I.just haven't been able to move on from you." The gods are ashamed.

"Wa.. please. You're married too, Wa." I remind God of his status as the husband of people.

"I'm divorced, Yu." I looked at God as if I could not believe his words.

"Don't lie to me. You've only been married for 2 months, Wa."

"I'm not lying, Yu. I've filed for divorce with my wife. I can't have this wedding anymore."

"But why? your wife is cheating?"

"No. Because the woman I married wasn't you, Yu. I can't marry you but you."

It felt like lightning was grabbing my chest. God divorced because it wasn't me he married?

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