My Sugar (Jenifer Alexander)
Chapters 70. Should I open my heart?

If in the past I could cry with tears because of a misunderstanding about the relationship between Kenzo and Fely's brother.

My tears are now dry. Since then my eyes were glazed - glass and sore, but no tears dripped from my eyes.

I cried in silence, crying in my heart.

It's more painful, it can't reduce my heart ache, it makes my chest feel squeezed and it's hard to breathe.

The sweet promises and love words she used to say, kept echoing in my ears. Why am I so stupid.! Just believe in his words. Why should I pin my hopes on a lying man like him.

All this time I was only made a comfort woman by her.! But I kept expecting genuine love from him.

I was too confident, thinking that I meant a lot to him. But in reality, I was dumped and dumped after she got what she wanted.

If I may choose, I want to hate him and bury him deeply - in my feelings for him.

I won't let there be a shred of love in my heart for her.

Not long after I told Brother Fely, Kenzo immediately called me. I was still silent, just staring at the phone screen in my hand. I was so hurt and disappointed. Can I talk to her like I'm okay.? Can I pretend that I don't know her engagement yet.

I doubt I'm not sure I can talk to him calmly.

It's the third time Kenzo's contacted me.

If she's worried about me, then why would she break my heart in this way. Why would he lie and have an engagement with another woman without my knowledge. Why not be honest from the beginning.! So I don't get this sick.

The longer I endured the pain, the more hate started to appear in my heart.

I'm starting to not accept Kenzo's treatment of me. I felt like trash in his eyes, thrown away after what I had given him.

I answered her phone call, when she called me for the 5th time.

"Je, are you sick.? Fely said you didn't come because you were sick. You're not papa.?"

The panicked voice of Kenzo was heard from across the street. I smiled snidely hearing it. Either he's really worried about me, or he's just pretending.

"My answer is Je, what are you sick with.?"

"Come on, don't worry me, don't,,,"

I can only clench my hands, it feels like I want to slap her mouth which always says sweet to me.

And yell at him as a liar.!

"I'm fine - om. Just not feeling well, and needing a break," I said flatly.

I tried hard in the midst of this pain and the fragility of this heart.

"You sure.?"

"Will I go to the doctor.? Let me pick it up now,,,"

"No need to om. I just want to rest. I'll close the phone first, byee,,"

After turning off the phone, I slammed my phone. The phone was destroyed, but it was much more heartbroken at the moment.

I try to strengthen my heart. Trying to no longer be a stupid woman just because of bad men like her.

I went to the bathroom, washed my face red because it started to get emotional.

I have to look strong in front of him. I'll show you if I'm okay without him.

I went downstairs to see my mom. I have to go to the engagement tonight. Anyway, I'll persuade my mom to take me there.

"Kok hasn't left yet Je.?" Mom asked as I approached her in the back garden.

Mama was busy watering one by one her expensive plants.

"Cancel mah. Celina has a sudden need out of town." I sit on the park bench. Staring at the rows of blooming flowers that look very beautiful. Slowly my eyes began to look far away.

I used to feel my heart was always filled with flowers when I got a sweet treatment from Kenzo om. Flowers that seemed to continue to bloom in my heart, but now the flower turned withered.

"Pantes your face bete so," said Mama while smiling wryly.

It seems like a good time to tell Mom.

"Can Jeje come to Andreas mah's om show.? Jeje is bored at home, "I beg you. I no longer need to put on a pathetic face so that my mother would invite me, because at this time my face must have been very sad.

Mama put a pot of watering plants in place, then came up to me and sat down next to me. Mom's look never left my face. Can you guess again that I am currently heartbroken.?

A few months ago, my mom found out that I was in love. Will he also know that I'm hurt by love.

"Of course you can,,,"

I breathe a sigh of relief. I thought my mom would ask me a question about the look on my face.

Hufft, why does it have to be like this eventually.

"It's a pity that Kenzo's son is getting married. Mama wanted you two to mate." Mama said a little regretfully.

"Son Kenzo looks very kind and loving. It must be able to compensate for your nature, "Next with a smile.

Mama's words only made the wound in my heart grow more open.

If only Kenzo did not have another woman, our relationship would easily have the blessing of his mother. He even had the intention to match me.

But right now, I'm reluctant to reason - if only.! This love story is over, it will not be possible to carry rhymes.

"You sure.?" Ask mom full of questions. I get suspicious, don't don't you know that me and Kenzo have a relationship. Has your mom been spying on my eyes all this time.?

Suddenly I started to get scared.

"What does mama mean,,?"

The smile that rose from his lips, made me even more afraid and tremble. What if my mom knew everything.

"You don't think you knew at dinner that time, you kept glancing at it." He said with a smile. I was so embarrassed because it turns out that my mother noticed my movements at that time.

"Mama is sure you have an interest in her. If Kenzo's son is no good, then what has made him attract your attention..?"

Mama's words only make me flashback, memories for the sake of my good memories with om Kenzo continue to appear alternately.

"Melirik is not necessarily interested mah. She's getting married anyway, ma'am,,"

What a taste it is. All this time I dreamed of getting married to Kenzo, but he would instead marry another woman.

To be honest Kenzo and I have a lot of attachments in life past problems.

Papa om Kenzo who turned out to be papa's best friend, then brother Fely who turned out to be Kenzo's brother. The meeting between me and Kenzo seemed to have been outlined in our respective lives, and with different goals.

Om Kenzo was born in my life just to make me fall in love with him, but then I was just thrown away.

I returned to my room after finishing my conversation with my mother.

Even though I really wanted to come to the engagement, I honestly hid the worries in my heart.

Somehow I'll be able to stand up to see Kenzo with another woman.

Somehow I was able to endure the pain that would probably be more painful than just reading the invitation.

But if it wasn't me alone who strengthened my heart, then who else.?

...***...

I was picking clothes to come to my lover's engagement.

The lover.? I smiled cynically with a scar on my heart.

Yeah, that's the truth. Our relationship is still in the status of lovers.

But not for another 2 hours. At that time he was no longer my lover, but another female fiancee.

Today I will give her a special gift. I'm going to be perfect on our farewell day that I never imagined.

I thought we'd get married after the promise came out of her mouth. But the promise is a lie.!

After picking out a shirt and wearing it, I started putting on my makeup. The face that looks so sad even though it has been covered with make up.

It didn't feel ready to see my loved ones put a ring on another woman's finger.

Somehow this heart will accept it.

"Mommy's son is so beautiful," praised him.

I don't know when Mom's been standing behind me.

I looked at my mother from the mirror, then smiled at her.

"But my fate is not as pretty as my face, mah," I said softly. Mom seemed surprised to hear it.

"Why say it like that.?" Tanya gently while rubbing my shoulder.

"It's this big I'm still single," Selorohku, then laugh. I laughed at my stupid self, plunging myself into deep wounds.

"Mama's son is a grown man."

"Your permission to date, as long as you can take care of yourself,,,"

"Serious mom.? I can date.?" Ask enthusiastically. Mama nodded.

"But remember mom's message, you have to take care of yourself."

I just nodded. What should I look after anyway.? Om Kenzo took what I was supposed to take care of.

It was also my fault for letting that happen.

Do I have to treat my wounds by opening my heart to others.? I don't want to keep getting hurt, but Kenzo will be happy with his fiancee. Isn't that unfair to me.?

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