My Sugar (Jenifer Alexander)
Chapter 71. Engagement

I've been trying to strengthen my heart. Trying not to continue to be trapped in wounds that are increasingly painful. I realized, continuing to feel sad and down will not change anything. Everything has happened before my eyes, I just have to wait until I really lose it.

But no matter how hard I tried to strengthen my heart, I still could not hide the pain I felt.

With a sagging pace, a squeezed heart, and a fastening heartbeat, I entered the ballroom of the luxury hotel with a broken feeling. Never imagined I would be present in the engagement of the man I love so much.

A man who can take my first love.

It is still very clear in the memory, how the beginning of our meeting was so impressive. Maybe I've had a heart since I first met him.

His charm and kindness caught my attention. It makes me very comfortable and I want to always be around him. Spending time with her was a priceless joy to me.

I so glorified her, longed for her and loved her as sincerely and with all my heart.

I gave all the love I had just for her. Without thinking long, without thinking about the risks I would get if he let me down. And this is how it ends.

When my whole heart was held by him, yet he went with another woman. I must feel the pain that never ends. The pain that kept on piercing my heart.

When all the guests showed me their happy faces, I was alone and unable to cover up the pain. I continued walking beside my mother, following her footsteps who would definitely approach the owner of the show to congratulate her. I held tightness in my chest, it felt like I wanted to shout as loud as possible to remove this tightness.

From a distance I could see that handsome face, that handsome face that was getting ripped apart. I felt unable to get to him. I haven't seen the woman who's going to be my lover's fiancee.

There were only three men I knew, including a middle-aged man called papa by Kenzo at the restaurant.

"Well, uh, Jeje wants to go to the toilet first, yeah,,"

Unable to see it any closer, I chose to dodge.

"Yes, but not for long. The show's about to start,,,"

I just nodded. Mama and papa stepped back, while I was still quietly sculpting here. Shut up in the crowd to the guests who were talking.

This event was held very luxurious, the media crew even flocked to be present here.

Nadine is a famous model, it is only natural that her engagement event was attended by news hunters.

The boisterous atmosphere inside the ballroom, slowly began to quiet down as the host started to make a sound.

All eyes were on that grand stage. They were waiting for Nadine, the owner of the show.

The sound of a standing ovation, welcoming the presence of Nadine who looks so beautiful like a queen in the kingdom. Long dress in white, looks shiny.

It's fair that Kenzo prefers it, I'm not worth it.

I'm getting more and more troubled to breathe, as the ring exchange event is about to begin. I put my foot down, getting closer to them. I want Kenzo to see me before he puts a ring on Nadine's finger.

Somehow this heart still continues to hope, I want om Kenzo to cancel his engagement when I see me here. I wish he would prefer to stay with me.

I stood at the very front row watching the two of them exchange rings.

Don't ask me how I feel right now. No words can describe this heartache.

The blasphemy sharp object stuck in my heart, as Nadine put the ring on Kenzo's ring finger. The man is still unaware of my existence.

Now it's Kenzo's turn to grab Nadine's hand and put the ring in his search.

At that moment my world collapsed. The whole world is moving away from me. I was alone in the dark. My light went away, along with the pain that kept raining down on my heart. I lost my way, didn't know where to go.

Clear circles started to escape my eyes, I thought my tears had dried up.

Immediately I wiped it, and held back my tears from spilling back.

When Kenzo's eyes were straight, that's when he saw me. No need to ask again how he reacted. Kenzo was obviously very surprised. Maybe she didn't think I knew about her engagement.

I smiled at him in the midst of breaking my heart.

I want to show you that I'm okay.

Om Kenzo looked confused, as if he wanted to come to me but he couldn't possibly do it under these circumstances.

I'm still sitting here, staring at him. I wanted to make her guilty for breaking her promise to me.

The atmosphere began to get crowded again, the ring exchange and congratulation event was over. The guests started to get noisy again. I choose to leave. It turned out that I couldn't come up to him and say goodbye to him.

Right now I just want to go home and calm down.

"Follow me,,,"

I was shocked by the presence of Kenzo om who arrived - suddenly blocked my hand from the side. Without waiting for my answer, Kenzo pulled me into an empty room and locked the door.

"Please om,,!" I pulled my hand out of his grip. I stared intently at Kenzo who looked panicked.

"I'll clear it all up,,"

I smiled cynically. Does he think I'm so stupid, that he'll explain what I've seen before my eyes.

"Don't waste time just explaining what I already know. I'd better get back, before anyone sees us here,,"

I walked towards the door, but Kenzo held him by leaning against the door.

"It's not what you see. This engagement is not my wish."

I was so angry to hear that senseless remark.

"Want to or not, I don't care. That's none of my business. Move, I want to go home, "I tried to push Kenzo's body aside, but it didn't work.

I shook off Kenzo's hand that touched my cheek, he looked at me with a pus.

"Stay believing even if you are engaged and getting married.?!!" My atonement.

"So I have to be a mistress om.?! Don't dream om.!!"

"I didn't come here to ask for an explanation. I'm not a kid who doesn't know what I see.!"

"Today our relationship is over.! Ah no, more precisely this moment.! I just came to end our relationship and say good-bye."

Om Kenzo looks dumb looking at me. He couldn't believe that I could say in such a high tone to him.

"Everytime our relationship will not end. Don't try - try to end it.

I'll take responsibility for what I've done, so don't expect to leave.!"

Rigorously.

Apparently om Kenzo took my chastity just to hold me back so I wouldn't go away from him. He thinks I'm gonna stick around to get some accountability from him.

"I don't need responsibility, nor do I ask for it. Forget it if we've ever done it,,!"

"Why are you so stubborn.! Just trust me this time, and don't ever end our relationship whatever else goes from my side."

"Wait for me until I can cancel this wedding, so please, stay by my side,,"

Om Kenzo took me in his arms, he hugged me very tightly.

"I'm sorry I hurt you. I don't mean to hide this engagement from you. I'm just not ready to see you disappointed. But in the end I let you down."

"Darling, please don't go. I'm definitely gonna call off this wedding, trust me,,"

I was drifting in her arms which felt so comfortable and made my pain less.

"I want to hug you one last time" I said softly. I wrapped my hands around her waist, hugging her so tightly as if reluctant to let go.

"Please don't talk like that. We'll stick together."

I pushed Kenzo's body.

"Don't force it, it's over. Please let me go now."

"Why are you so stubborn.!! How many times have I told you.! Trust me and never try to leave.!! This marriage will never happen. Wait until I can get proof to undo it.!"

Om Kenzo continued to speak in a high tone. He seems to have run out of patience.

"Do not force it. I never forced her to stay with me and marry me. So it's best that this relationship is supposed to end,,"

"So you're still going.? You don't want to wait.? Then let's just unload our relationship in front of everyone, I'll say that I've already impregnated you. I'm ready to accept the risks including loss, ", Om Kenzo doesn't go on, he pulls my hand to take me out.

"Stop om.! Don't crazy.! What in this way om think after this our relationship will be sanctioned by our people.!"

"i don't need their blessing, as long as you stay by my side.!" Rigorously.

I can't just shut up and let this happen. Mama and papa will definitely be disappointed in me, including anyone who might insult me for messing up the engagement.

"All right, I'm not leaving. You'll wait until you've successfully canceled the wedding. But please, don't break up our relationship with anyone before it's over,,"

In the end I had to pretend to stay by his side. It's the only way I can get away from him.

Om Kenzo seems silent, he doesn't seem to just believe my words.

I immediately hugged Kenzo to convince him.

"I promise to stay by Ken's side. But please, don't make me hurt any more by keeping me in this exact spot. I can't see you both."

"Do you know how I feel right now, I'm so broken and hurt. I feel like I want to run as far as possible to forget this incident."

"I'm sorry. I promise I will marry you as soon as I can annul this marriage. You have to trust me,,"

I nodded weakly.

"My permission to go home om, I can no longer continue to be in this place." My love after releasing my embrace.

"Okay.heart," Om Kenzo kissed my forehead, long enough to land his lips there.

"We'll meet tomorrow,,"

I tried to smile at her, before I finally walked out of the room and quickly left the ballroom area.

I'm sorry, I'll keep going. How can I stay by your side when you let me down and make me start to hate you.!

I won't believe that shit anymore.!

It's been enough all this time that I've been so stupid to be your entertainer.!

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