Only I Love
Chapter 41

On that night, after recovering from the previous incident, Rafatar tried to keep in touch with Ala. However, darling. The call did not come in. He said Ala had deliberately blocked his contact so that he could not be contacted again by him.

All night Rafatar waited on the porch of the house, but because it was too late, he decided not to make a sound so as not to disturb the rest of the people sleeping in this house. The night moved to a cold temperature that night. Rafatar overslept until the dawn of the azan echo he could not hear defeated feeling tired.

The next morning, when Ala after the dawn prayer, he wanted to relax the body for a moment inhaling the scent of dew that was able to cool the heart. However, he was struck by an elongated body on the covered terrace floor from end to end.

"Kyaaaaakh ..." cried Ala made the body move and the hand pulled the face cover mengguka jacket down. He immediately sat down.

"Astaghfirullah, what's wrong?" tanya Ummi moved out of her room.

"U-Uda? Why, Uda? What's Uda doing here so early?" cetus Ala panicked.

Rafatar rubbed his eyes a few times. He looked at Ala and Ummi had just arrived. Not only that, a pair of newlyweds also came out of their room curious about what was going on.

"Bang Fatar?" rizky asked very surprised to see his cousin.

"Why sleep on the porch?" Ala repeated her question.

Ryzki helps his cousin wake up by pulling Rafatar's hand. "dude? Why come here? Does Makwo know you're here?" ryzki asked to pull the bench to let Rafatar sleep. (Makwo/Mak Uwo is the same as Bude in Java. Or Wawak/Tante/Aunt)

"Ah, I haven't prayed at dawn yet" he murmured.

"If so, pray inside first" Ryzki bargained.

"No, I'm going to the mosque that's in deket here." Rafatar looked at Ala who was staring at him silently a thousand languages.

"Alah, I want to talk to you. But later! I want a sub first." With quick steps, he walked out of the courtyard towards the mushola which was not too far from this house.

Alya and Ryzki went back into her room. Ummi lives with Ala.

"Did something happen to you? Wasn't yesterday afternoon still okay?" ask Ummi.

"Hmmmff ...." Ala breathed a heavy sigh.

"If asked between the two of us, of course everything is fine" added Ala.

"Then why do you guys look like you have a problem? Until he sleeps on the porch?"

"Always confused, Mi. It looks like our relationship plan has to be cancelled" Ala said.

"Why? Looks like he loves you so much? Why even try to cancel the relationship with him?" Ummi looked astonished by the statement of his eldest daughter.

"It turns out that is not enough, Ummi," said Ala memijit his fingers.

"Why? Tell me! You always do this when there is a problem. If you always share happiness, why when your problems do not say anything to Ummi?"

"Sorry, Mi. Ala just didn't want to burden Ummi's mind. What is clear, the relationship between the two of us can not be continued—"

"I don't want to!" rafatar is back.

Ala and Ummi are shocked by Rafatar's sudden presence in the room. His face looked full of vigor and determination.

"I don't want our relationship to end, Ala. I love you with all my heart, and I'm ready to face any obstacle to be with you" Rafatar said with confidence.

Ala was silent for a moment, surprised by Rafatar's statement. He saw sincerity and perseverance in the man's eyes, and his heart began to be moved.

"But, Uda, you know what happened. Like what your mother said, this me is inappropriate and cannot be with you" Ala said in a trembling voice.

Rafatar's approaching Ala. His face was saddened to see the sadness of the woman who had been hurt by his mother. "Alas, I don't care about your past or your status. I love you for who you are, with all your virtues and weaknesses. I am ready to fight for this love, to be together through every obstacle that comes. I want us to support each other, strengthen each other, and grow together."

Ala smiled bitterly at Rafatar's words. However, the reality was not in line with what had been expected.

"But, Uda, however, it will be difficult if we force a step together. The stumbling block between us is huge. If your mother isn't willing to accept me, what is my day. I don't want to force you to marry without your blessing, either with you or whoever it is" Ala said sadly.

Ummi who witnessed this moment felt haru. He looked at Ala and Rafatar in turn.

"Maybe Ummi doesn't fully understand what you're going through, but Ummi certainly expects the best for both of you. Continue this conversation first, it seems you need a moment for both of you to be able to find a bright spot," said Ummi and left.

"Ala, I promise, will try to melt Ama's heart, as long as you are also willing to wait for me, Ala." Rafatar looked at the mislimah woman wrapped in the veil, her face constantly bowed.

"Sorry, Uda, I can't. Sorry if it makes you uncomfortable. You better go back home, apologize to your mother. How, marriage would never have been if the trip had not been accompanied by the blessing of parents, let alone your mother."

"If the status of this widow makes your mother defy our plans and expectations, then we cannot oppose. Until whenever I can't erase my status that of a widow. And, I've never seen anyone based on his treasure. Because, I alone can support my entire family without having to find a rich man to marry me."

Ala took a deep breath. "Sorry, Uda ... I'm going in first. I need to get ready for work. Assalamualaikum." Ala went in and shut the door of her house.

Disappointed look on Rafatar's face was inevitable. "Did you hate me?"

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Time continued to move, as Ala and Ummi began to enter the preparation procedure for Umrah. Prepare some important documents during the trip, such as: passport, plane ticket, visa if needed, and personal identity for him and Ummi.

They were both delivered by an increasingly friendly couple after two months of their marriage. Plus, the news of the sister's pregnancy makes this family mourn.

Once there was envy in Ala's heart, seeing the sister happy with the husband, even though they were not too established. Alya sees and witnesses for himself the romantic atmosphere between them, which was once only him who was trying to be romantic to Syauqi.

Ala shook her head. 'I must focus on this Umrah worship, ' his inner self.

"Union and Ummi be careful on the road huh?" Alya waved to him.

"Yes, be careful too. Take care of Aulia too huh? Gotta get along when we're far away" Ala said.

"Tell your Union, don't fight while we're staying. Later Ummi pray that your thesis is smooth, and your pregnancy is healthy," added Ummi.

"Amoru ..." Alya waved her hand. Aulia did not come to deliver because she was still busy with a busy lecture schedule.

Alya and Ryzki deliver them. However, Ryzki's eyes caught a figure he was so familiar with. None other than his cousin.

"So, Uni Ala signed up at Bang Fatar's travel agency?" ryzki chuckled.

"Huh? Any timing? So, your cousin has a travel agency?" alya asked in amazement.

"That's how it is, his father's startup too. But when it was in his hands it became more and more developed. It looks like Bang Fatar is dead in love with Uni Ala" Ryzki said, capturing Rafatar's eyes.

"I think so, too, but why don't they get into a more serious relationship? I feel sorry for Uni, but how else. Fate for her is more complicated," said Alya embracing her husband's arm spoiled.

After checking in, Ala raised her hands. "O Allah, I intend to practice Umrah sincerely and wholeheartedly. Give instructions, blessings, and success in carrying out Umrah worship to the holy land, amen."

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While on the plane, Rafatar as team leader explained in detail the steps and designs during the trip during the holy land to all team members, including Ala. He explained about the schedule of departure and arrival, places to be visited, and procedures for the implementation of Umrah worship.

Ala chooses to listen silently, giving full attention to Rafatar's explanation. He realized the importance of understanding every step and rule that would be followed during the Umrah journey. Ala carefully recorded the important information and made it as a personal guide while in the holy land.

In the Grand Mosque, they went around the Kaaba with hearts full of longing and hope. As they surround the Kaaba in Tawaf, they hold hands, feel a sacred presence and experience moments of strengthening togetherness.

They also carried out Sai, which was a small run between the hills of Safa and Marwah. As they traversed these seven trips, they encouraged each other and shared a heartwarming moment of togetherness.

When they arrived in Mina, they were in a camping spot with thousands of other worshippers. There, they feel togetherness and unity in the same worship. They prayed together, read the Qur'an, and encouraged each other in their spiritual journey.

When they arrived at Arafah, the peak place during the Hajj, they stood in the Arafat Field with hearts full of hope and regret. They prayed sincerely, begging for forgiveness and sharing the desire for a better life.

After performing all the Umrah worship, they returned to the Grand Mosque to carry out the last stage, Tawaf Wada. While circling the Kaaba for the last time before returning home, they exuded infinite gratitude and happiness for the opportunity to perform this service together.

Ala also invited Ummi to find a comfortable and quiet place around the Grand Mosque, facing Kabah he raised both hands with full service.

On the other hand, Rafatar also used this opportunity to pray. Rafatar in his prayer: "O Allah, You are the Materer and the Owner of all sustenance. I kneel before You with hope and confidence. I ask Thee, O Allah, open the doors of the heart of Amah to Ala. Grant Thy grace to soften Amah's heart, so that she may see Ala's goodness and earnestness."

"Bring our hearts together in a holy and blessed bond. Make Ala the only spouse of the world and the Hereafter for me. Give us abundant sustenance, so that we can build a sakinah family, mawaddah, wa rahmah. Protect our health, that we may be Your strong servants and worship sincerely. Accept my prayer, O Allah, according to Your will, the Most Good."