Post-divorce
Part 12's

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"how can Amanda believe what I'm saying? If Mas Rama had been silent and did not confess his feelings, and what does this have to do with Tasya, Mom?" I saw Mother sighing heavily, I asked about Tasya not for no reason, I just don't want to be considered negative especially with the status of the widow that I bear, however I have to keep the good name of the family, I just don't want to be considered negative especially with the status of the widow that I bear, moreover, Tasya personally asked me to stay away from Mas Rama and Mother on the grounds that he objected to us being among them.

"Too much fear and consideration for Rama, who I know Tasya is just a little friend, I just want you to know how Rama feels about you, and hope that Rama does not regret his attitude that has covered all his feelings," I hugged Mother, did not feel tears flowing, I have considered Ratri's mother like Ummik for me. "I have given everything to God, your soul mate and your life, I pray only the best for you, Rama and Atma." 

"Omma and Mama why are you hugging?" Atma came to our kitchen, we just answered her question with a smile. Mother led Atma out of the kitchen, and I brought family drinks where we used to gather together like this.

"Let's not let me take a snack in the kitchen, brother just sit here." I also obey Gita's request, take a sitting position next to Abi and Ummik beside Mother, I'll take a seat, Rama with Atma and Juna. Kak Janu and mas Rama already know each other, once met in the game area of a mall when invited Atma to play a few months ago.

"I immediately convey my good intentions that I have intended to even express to Amanda, Ummik and Abi a few years ago. I intend to propose and make Amanda the wife who will accompany my days and become the Mother of my future descendants, and make Atma my son." Said Kak Janu firmly without hesitation, I glanced towards Mas Rama he was seen holding Atma in his lap and occasionally stroking the soft head of Atma but his facial expression looked flat, so that I doubted what Mom said to me in the kitchen, I misjudged it? Or is Mas Rama really good at controlling his emotions and feelings of love for me? Ah I'm confused thinking about it....

"Let's leave all the decisions to Amanda" Abi said.

"How son, what's your answer?" Ummik asked me, I was silent for a while to neutralize all my feelings and thoughts that are raging right now.

"God willing Amanda accepted Kak Janu's proposal." I finally decided on that big thing in my life, I saw Mom's face look sad, but I can not do anything because there is absolutely no expression of certainty thrown from Mas Rama about his feelings, while there is Kak Janu who gives certainty of feeling by directly proposing to me. If I reject Brother Janu who has waited a long time to wait for this opportunity, it is very unfair for him, I hope that the decision taken is right. Brother Janu looks very happy to hear the answer I gave, making this heart a little relieved, at least I did not disappoint him just because of an uncertainty and dishonesty of someone. What a woman needs is certainty.

"Thank God, thank you Amanda. I'll plan our wedding as soon as possible." I could only smile faintly, because after giving the answer I felt uneasy, I don't know what I feel right now, shouldn't I be happy?

"Well, Nak Janu is impatient like that."

"I've waited a long time for this opportunity Ummik" Janu took out a red heart-shaped velvet box, then he opened it, I saw a simple ring inside, Brother Janu asked for my hand to be paired with a ring by him. "this is our engagement ring, this ring has been waiting for a long time to be attached to your sweet day, actually four years ago I have prepared this ring." Brother Janu put the ring together, and smiled happily at me. His gaze of love and happiness moved Me, although this decision caused a little doubt in my heart, but I might not be able to see him disappointed because he had been patient and faithful waiting for me until now.

"I'm here only two weeks Amanda, after that I'll be back in Australia, but we'll take care of our wedding preparations together so that everything goes according to plan, you will meet my adoptive parents when the marriage contract is done because of their physical condition that is already weak due to age."

"Yes Brother, I will patiently wait like Janu Brother who patiently waited for me all this time." I smiled as I looked at her sparkling eyes.

"I love you and Amanda, it feels like today is a dream, the promise I made when we lived together in the orphanage will soon be realized, soon I will have you all, I will have you all, I'm so happy, thank you." My heart warms to Kak Janu's words, my memory remembers our childhood together, the one who was always there for me, comforting me when I missed my parents, and I always waited for him to come to see me after he was adopted and left the orphanage, rightly what Kak Janu said, everything was like a dream.

After we talked about the planning and preparation of the wedding that we will carry out, Janu said he came home because it was getting dark. Just now I waved at the car Kak Janu who was gradually invisible, heard the voice of someone who had disturbed my mind

"Welcome may you find happiness with him" said Mas Rama

"Mas, are you happy?"

"Of course."

"Did you really find happiness?"

"Yes." Yeah."

"With Tasya?"

"Hmm."

"You sure? Is there nothing hidden from me?"

"What do you have to hide from Amanda?"

"Hmmm no, it's nothing, thanks for the congratulations, may Mas Rama find happiness also with Tasya." Hearing all the answers that Mas Rama said made my heart disappointed, but why should I be disappointed? Did I expect it? No, no. I can't expect anything from her, I'll brush up on all the thoughts in my brain and get away from her who's standing looking at me.

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"I'm on my way to pick you up with Atma, we've been playing in a mall, sorry baby I didn't ask permission before." I read Kak Janu's message on the green application on my phone with a smile. A few minutes later they arrived at the hospital parking lot, when I saw Kak Janu's car, I saw Atma open the car glass door and waved his hand cheerfully, I also entered the car that Janu brother drove.

"Mama we played ice skating in the mall, Om Janu great loh ma' play, Atma was taught by him"

"Why you're not invited, you're cheating ...." I pretended to sulk at Atma

"Mommy can play ice skating Om?"

"Of course it can be darling, later we play again yes Mama, how?"

"Hmm no need Om, Atma wants to invite Papa Rama, later on let Mama who taught Papa Rama alone, will be fun" I widen my eyes to hear Atma's answer, there is a bad taste towards Kak Janu, but what can I do? Atma is still very innocent of his thoughts, psychologically he is very close to Rama, whatever surely Rama remembered not the other.

"Sorry brother, do not put the heart of Atma's words."

"Yes." Brother Janu smiled bitterly, I can only take a deep breath and try to neutralize the situation with another chatter, but it turns out that Atma's speech made anxiety in Kak Janu's heart, it was visible in his expression at this moment.

"Amanda tomorrow night I'm back in Australia, you and Atma can't take me to the airport? It's hard leaving you guys."

"Work is still preferred Brother, do not worry about us, I will try to deliver the airport, besides what is Kak Janu worried about?"

"I'm afraid of losing you and Atma, I'm afraid Atma can't accept Me as a papa to keep her on."

"I will try to keep the trust that Brother Janu gives, so don't be afraid I leave brother, for Atma later he will get used to your presence if we are married, believe me." but the sentence I said did not relieve Kak Janu's anxiety.

"Om Janu wants dong to be called papa also by Atma, can you? Atma can't, can it?" He glanced at Atma who I was holding in the car late next to the driver's seat.

"No ...no ... no.. no.. papa's special call to Papa Rama" Atma refused spontaneously at the request of Kak Janu.

"Sister, don't force it, Atma takes time, believe me over time he will call you Papa." I smiled and stroked Kak Juna's arm so that he was patient and would understand the situation of Atma very close to Mas Rama. Hearing the name of Mas Rama reminded me that these two Weeks I have not seen him since Kak Janu's proposal event, how are you Mas Rama? Which I could only speak in my heart, and his figure appeared instantly in my mind. Did I miss him? Remembering all this time every day I always see it even if only for a moment.

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Sorry for Rama's team if disappointed with Amanda's decision in this part, just a reminder, the woman needs certainty not just attention. Women also need an expression of feelings not just silence and harboring feelings....

This part will only start the core problem later.

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