
"we must immediately perform surgery, VSD is a heart disorder characterized by a hole in the bulkhead between the chambers of the heart. The hole causes the heart to leak into the left and right chambers of the heart, so that some of the oxygen-rich blood returns to the lungs if left unchecked will cause heart failure, irregular heart rhythms, or pulmonary hypertension, which is a condition that occurs when the pressure inside the blood vessels that come from the heart to the lungs is too high, is very dangerous if not to take quick action." the doctor who handled Atma gave me a detailed explanation
"Do your best for my child, I agree to whatever action the doctor will take for the health and safety of Atma" said Lirih, actually there is pain when saying it because at the same time the shadow of Atma through the process for the operation he will undergo must be painful at the age of six months
"But we have a blood supply problem with Rhesus O negative, does the mother have Type O Rhesus negative blood? Or her father?"
"I'm Rhesus positive, the one with Rhesus negative blood type docks." Atma has a rare blood type, Rhesus negative.
"Thank God we can ask Papa of this baby to donate blood immediately, so that the operation can be done immediately." the doctor's request to present Mas Denis as a donor makes me confused because it is not that easy to do so, and is Mas Denis willing to donate his blood to the child he has thrown away?
"I'll try Doc."
I walked out of the doctor's office with a shaky step, it had not been thought that I would meet my ex-husband in this situation, but I have to keep seeing him so that the operation process can be done immediately without caring about my feelings at this time who is still injured.
"Unfortunately Atma, Amanda wants to see Denis in order to donate his blood that has a negative Rhesus type."
"Dear, trust Ummik."
"Sir, Gita will accompany Brother to meet him, Gita is worried if Brother himself is there." Gita's expression looked anxious, I nodded my head in agreement to his request.
"Abi will also try to get donors with Rhesus O negative Amanda, we are both efforts" said Abi
Rhesus negative blood type, especially group O, can only accept donors from O Rhesus negative, can not accept blood type A or B even though both Rhesus negative, and can not accept blood type A, inevitably I have to see Denis as his biological father who has the same blood type as Atma. Now that I have arrived at the home of Mas Denis' family in the hope of meeting him in person, Gita clasped my hand with strength and vigor. I knocked on the door of the house that seemed closed, after it was opened by one of the household assistants ....
"Bik, can you meet Denis?"
"Sir Amanda, please come in first" made Marni welcome me and Gita, I look at the entire house that looks the same as the last time I visited.
"Who's coming, Bik?" I saw Mother coming down the stairs closer to me, her appearance was very neat, wearing a very elegant kebaya dress.
"Amanda???" My former mother-in-law looks shocked by my current arrival.
"want you come here? Or are you trying to thwart Denis' marriage?" Said, mother's questions in a row make me confused what to answer.
"Wedding? Mean mother?"
"Amanda really didn't know Mom about the wedding."
"We came here just to ask Denis to be a blood donor for their child who currently needs his papa blood" said Gita
"What's wrong mom? From inside the room there was a commotion." Mas Denis came out of his room, wearing a very neat black tuxedo and looking handsome, his face reminded me of Atma who is currently struggling to live.
"Sorry, if we make a scene in this house" I said to him when we met, Mas Denis was surprised to see me at this time in his house.
"Nrank ...."
"Amanda didn't come to this house to thwart the marriage that Mother said, I just came here to ask you to donate blood for our son."
"What happened to Danish?"
"He had to have heart surgery immediately, but the rare blood type of surgery was delayed until he got the blood supply, the doctor requested that I present his biological father who has the same blood type, the doctor said, that's why I came here."
"It's just your wits that Amanda, to ruin Denis' wedding, you don't take it if your ex-husband remarries?" Hearing Mom's words made my emotions run high.
"Since you dumped us, we've been indifferent to your lives, Amanda came to this house even begging Mas Denis to be willing to donate her blood just because of my son, for the safety and health of my son, for my son!!!"
"I'll come to the hospital."
"No, I won't let you leave your wedding just because of that handicapped child, we won't admit it as part of our family, dare you leave this wedding, anyway, you will see Mother's body without life .." said Mother half-cried, Gita clasped my hand tighter because she knew this was the toughest thing I faced, like a wound doused in vinegar, like a wound, the wound came again to remind me of the time they threw me and Atma away.
"Right now the decision is in your hands mas." I looked at Mas Denis' face waiting for the decision he would take, he ruffled his hair, rubbed his face with his hands many times.
"Amanda, sorry I can't donate blood, my wedding will be held in a few hours, I can't help you, sorry ...." Increasingly this heartache heard Mas Denis' decision, not because he was going to get married but Atma was indeed really meaningless to him and probably would never be recognized by them.
"May you have no regrets about your decision, I appreciate your decision, and make Me realize that our child is meaningless to your life." I looked up at Mas Denis and turned my gaze toward my former mother-in-law, "Mother, my son is not deformed, I will prove my son a perfect son, if you don't admit it won't even help us, at least don't insult us, may you be happy for our suffering, but Amanda is sure God isn't sleeping, sooner or later you will get a fair reply to what you did, when it will surely come, just wait for the time!"
Rushing I left the house, headed for the hospital, on the way I was confused thinking about how I could get a blood donor for the surgery Atma was going to undergo, without the blood stock, the operation would not be done because it would endanger Atma's life. Oh God, what should I do? Gita hugged me without a word, she was crying, but my tears were completely draining, I had no idea what was going on inside me, the pain felt in my heart but my tears did not come out of this eye patch. Does the pain I've been through make me strong now?