Post-divorce
The Part 35

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After the conversation with Mom was over, Atma asked me for permission to sleep with Mom. Since marriage Atma, Mother, and Rama are very close, the affection of Mother and Rama is very sincere that makes Atma feel comfort and happiness while with them. I set foot into the room, and I saw Rama laying his body on the bed.

"Mas, are you asleep?" I hesitate because his eyes closed but the position of the body half upright leaning on the pillow.

"No, not yet" he answered briefly.

"My plane will leave at eight in the morning, tomorrow Dina will come home to pick me up," I said as I packed the clothes I would bring while in Semarang. 

After finishing packing clothes, I laid down beside Rama who seemed to have fallen asleep with a slanted position, I slept on his back and began to close my eyes. Haven't had this eye closed, I felt a heavy hand coiled up in the stomach until I was shocked. He pulled away my unraveled hair, so that my neckline was visible, he put his face over my neck until the roar of his breath felt.

"Sleep, don't change positions, let it stay like this, I love you my wife, love you so much." I closed my eyes, enjoying the warmth and comfort provided in his touch. The thing I always miss about being with him.

There was the sound of water faucets flowing, opened my eyes slowly and saw the clock, time showed at two in the morning, reflexes my hand felt the bed, Rama was not there beside me.

Hoekkk ... Hoekkk

Rama's voice was vomiting from the bathroom, I went straight to him, massaged and patted his neck, but not a single bit came out of his mouth.

"Mas, your stomach acid goes up like that. You didn't eat yesterday." He washed his face with water after that straightened his body and just passed from me without saying anything. "Mas, I'm getting food ready, okay?"

"Food will not be swallowed when the wife asks the husband to stay away from her, let it hurt like this."

"Mas, don't be like that. Don't hurt yourself this way. I told you it only takes time to accept everything not really want to be away from you, don't be childish." He just kept quiet hearing my words. "I'm just a woman who's failed in her household, and when it comes to being happy with you, the photo shakes my trust in you, can't I be disappointed? Can't I feel sad? It took me a while to accept this situation, do you know how devastated I felt when I saw those photos? Seeing my husband sleeping with so many women was devastated, Mas ..."

"And do you know what it's like not to be trusted by your wife? Do I not feel the sadness you feel? Am I indifferent to you? When I am away from you do I not feel loss? We're both devastated Amanda, are you gonna let us both crumble and fall like this?" These tears again burst out and soaked my cheeks. "We're going to face it with Amanda, when we're far away it's just going to hurt ourselves. I understand your feelings, I've tried my best to prove everything, but my efforts are in vain, om Herman is playing a role with you, please open yourself, trust in your husband, this is, don't be cooped up by the fear and trauma of your previous marriage failure, I won't betray you just for the sake of a paid woman who changes partners every day" Rama said slightly opening my mind, saying, that this matter is hard for him too, not just me.

"I'm sorry, Mas ..." I hit Rama's body crying in the chest of his field, channeling all my sadness to feel calm, Rama hugged me tightly, he kissed the whole side of my face gently, but still did not make me stop this cry.

KreKK ....

The open door saw the figure of Mother and Atma on the doorstep.

"Mrs ...." Atma hugged me. "Mama why are you crying? Mama's cry was heard in Omma's room."

"Honey, let Mama alone first yes, let's go to bed again let Papa accompany."

"Why mom, then? Papa's mad at mommy?" atma asked Rama

"Where might papa scold Mama."

"Why are you crying?"

"Atma has yuk, back to Omma's room we rest again," said Mother.

"Atma wants to sleep with Mama and Papa."

"Yes Omma went back to the room, Omma was still sleepy." Mother left us three. I lay down my body first on the bed, followed by Atma and Rama. Atma is in the middle position between Me and Rama. Atma hugged my body, wiping away the tears that were still shed.

"Don't cry Mama, Atma dear Mama."

"Mama's okay baby, just tired so feel a little pain, so cry."

"Oh, Atma thought Papa beat Mama to tears."

"Hey, you think Papa is evil, hmm?" Rama pinched Atma's cheek.

"Look at tuh ma' I pinched Papa."

"Alright, Papa knows how to punish you." Soon Rama tickled Atma's body and they laughed together until Atma asked Ramah for forgiveness. Their behavior made me forget the sadness, and after that we went back to sleep until the sun greeted me.

"Me and Atma will take you to the airport" Rama said as we ate breakfast, feeling better this morning, but I was still reluctant to talk to Rama.

"Eight days baby, you're the same Omma and Papa."

"Don't worry about Atma, let it be the business of Mother and Rama" said the mother.

"Thank you, Mom ...." 

"Let me drive."

"Don't you, Mas, Dina will be picking me up soon." I looked at him, Rama seemed to dislike my answer that refused to be ushered in by him, "you're mourning my departure this time, right, Mas?" He stopped the mouthful of food into his mouth with a smile that seemed to force the smile.

"Don't worry about it, I understand with your duty, just think of it as God's way that we introspect each other, you can calm the mind while doing the task entrusted to you. Me and Atma are waiting here, I won't bother you as long as you're there, take good care of yourself. May time restore your trust in me." He stood up and approached Atma. "Yuk, we're driving around on bikes, handsome boy. Pamit to Mama, let Mama go on duty, Papa does not want Papa's child to cry when Mom left later."

"Asik, I won't cry pa' unlike my mother last night who was crying, very crybaby when it was big." Rama and Mother laughed at Atma's words, while I went up to her and pinched her cheeks, forming a V on her finger and running in Rama's footsteps.

Moments later, Dina came to pick me up,

"Who is the Doctor?" ask Dina, before telling the driver to drive the car.

"Of course."

"You will surely miss your beloved husband and dear child while you are there." Dina's words made me realize, I will definitely miss them very much.

"Surely, that's why you're getting married fast."

"Ehhh you don't know yet? after I get home on duty I'll have the wedding."

"really?"

"Mkk ...I'm not kidding Amanda, even my future husband will follow to Semarang and we will return to Jakarta together."

"Well if that's true, I'll be a mosquito repellent for you guys, ishh must be boring."

"Say you're envious, it's easy to get your husband to follow him there." 

'how could I have sent Rama to Semarang, while I was in need of some time to calm down.' I whispered in my heart, and did not answer Dina's words.

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For three days I was in Semarang, Rama really did not send me a message at all, he proved his words not to disturb me. However, the thing that Rama did actually made me unsettled, and felt a sense of loss.

Every day Atma and Mother called me through video calls and voice calls, but I did not find Rama beside Atma, wanted to ask the whereabouts of Rama to Mother, I felt ashamed, I felt ashamed, I am worried that Mother learned that during her service in Semarang did not communicate with Rama. To start communication is hard, but I always think about it, it seems like the ego is ruling me right now. Only able to take a deep breath as the shadow of Rama crossed my mind and offered prayers for all of us to be in His protection.

"Nrank ...." Dina broke my daydream, we were already at the hotel after doing activities in the hospital all day.

"Yes, what's wrong?"

"Mkk ... Too late answer."

"What's my beautiful friend?" Dina developed a smile when she heard my words.

"Well that's dong, take me yuk!"

"Where?"

"Walking to my future husband, he just arrived and wanted to see me, he misses it like it's me." 

"Duh duh .. pink virus seems to be hitting you." I chuckled amusedly at Dina's flowery expression and a smile could not be separated from her face.

I also accompanied Dina to meet her future husband in a cafe near the hotel, I was busy with a cell phone that was in my grasp, without me realizing that Dina's future husband was already at our table, when I lifted my face and saw Dina's future husband, my eyes widened to see who was Dina's future husband, she ....

"Mother boss?" He also widened his eyes to make sure what he saw was the true wife of his boss and his college friend, Rama.

"Rio?" He nodded his head while smiling with relief because his vision was not wrong.