Post-divorce
The Part 33
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This morning I began my usual activities with eyes that look puffy, last night I cried nonstop, hoping with tears to reduce all the burden that stifles the chest, all night I was stuck prostrating to calm down, to calm down, get closer to the Khalik, ask for help from Him so that I can face all the trials in my life.
Today I felt something different about myself, not being next to him, not seeing a warm smile, not getting hugs and kisses when I opened my eyes, it was sad to have my heart covered, this morning I missed my husband.
[Don't forget to eat, I love you.] The message from Rama this morning is enough to make the curve of the lips pulled upwards, but not necessarily make me reply to the message.
As I passed through Gita's room, I heard a sobbing sound, I'm sure Gita is crying right now, and sure enough when I opened the door I saw her crying.
"Dec, what's wrong with you?" Without answering he hugged me while continuing to cry, I could only stroke his back channeling tranquility.
"Sister Janu returned to Australia, he was angry with Gita. What should Gita do?"
"What's really going on? Does Gita still doubt Kak Janu's promise?" He also nodded.
"Sister Janu loves Big Brother so much, Gita hesitates and is afraid after marriage the feeling of love is fixed for Big Brother."
"What makes you so sure, Dek?"
"I don't know what to do, brother. It hurts to know that Janu still loves Brother." I can only take heavy breaths.
"Sister and Brother Janu knew each other when we were both residents of the orphanage, loving each other and protecting each other. It's not easy to erase that love, Dek. At the beginning Kak Janu chose Mas Rama to replace him as a groom, honestly Brother only used to love Mas Rama, but after marriage Brother loved him more and more. The love comes from getting used to, needing each other, filling each other, sharing, gradually after marriage you will be the priority of happiness for Kak Janu." I wiped Gita's tears. "Believe Brother Janu will love you, because you deserve to be loved. You must be happy, because you are also the happiness of Brother. You are very dear brother, even though we are not born of the same womb." Gita's tears were getting broken, my clothes were already soaked by her tears.
"Thank you Brother. I'll chase him to the airport, the plane's leaving in an hour." Gita immediately stood up and prepared herself after calming down.
'whatever I will do to make you happy, as Brother Janu chose happiness for me and Rama.' I whispered in my heart.
When I came down the stairs I saw, Mother, Ummik and Atma were chatting in the living room. I went up to him and kissed the back of his hand.
"Mas Rama is okay, isn't Mom?" I was worried because of my sudden arrival.
"His wealth of children and daughter-in-law Mother miss each other," Mother and Ummik chuckled amusedly at my attitude. "You know not this morning when I was cooking, Rama thought that Mom was you, but he knew you and Atma were gone because of him. Oh yes, I will invite Atma to stay at home to accompany Mom, if you still need time to calm down no problem, the important thing is that I have friends while at home. You're lonely not home."
"Amanda it's up to Atma, ma'am, Atma will stay with Omma and Papa?"
"Mama's okay?"
"Don't worry, Mama can take care of herself, 'mama's grown up." Atma smiled her smile after hearing my words. Finally I brought Atma to live with him at home.
After Mom and Atma died, I was ready to go to the hospital for my usual duties. Dina approached me who was checking some of the results of the medical records of the patients in the room.
"Amanda, you know what?"
"No." I quickly answered his question.
"It's a bitchy answer."
"I don't know what you want to say?"
"You and I are assigned to a hospital branch that will be opened in the Semarang area, we will settle a few days there, a week maybe."
"really?"
"Of course, we'll be representatives there."
And sure enough what Dina said, the assignment letter has come down, tomorrow we will leave for Semarang as representatives of the central hospital for eight days. Think of this task as an entertainer and tranquilizer when problems hit, but that does not mean I avoid or run from problems because this is my job responsibility.
Today I went through without passion, my body was in the hospital but my mind and soul thought of Rama, it feels like I miss him a lot but I have not been able to accept the harsh reality, I have not, my fear right now is when the photo really shows Rama's bad behavior when he's not with me.
[Assalamualaikum, Ma ... I asked for permission to go to Semarang to serve as a representative for eight days, take care of your health.] Message sent to my husband's contact number.
[Cangels ... Go home first to the new house I will let you go on duty, remember this time you are my wife and forever be my wife, His Ridho is with your husband.] I could only sigh deeply, well I will be a godly wife to her by following her wishes, although there is still a sense of not being ready to meet Rama because the photo was recorded clearly in my brain.
"You didn't bring a car, Doctor Amanda?"
"Hmm .. no, Doc. I was driven to my sister's car."
"No need to book a taxi, let me take you later."
"No bother?"
"Let's just relax, I'm worried that you're being kidnapped by an online taxi driver." We both laughed together at Dr. Stanley's car in the hospital parking lot.
Just opening the door to Stanley's car, my arm held by someone, my heart racing at his cold gaze, the expressionless face he often showed at the beginning of our meeting.
"Go home with me."
"Doctor Stanley, it looks like my husband picked me up, thanks for the offer." Doctor Stanley just formed his finger O in response, smiling and leaving Me and Rama still standing.
After the death of the doctor Stanley's car, Rama turned my body and hugged this body tightly until the roar of his breath was felt when he drowned his face in the niche of my neck.
"Mas, shame on seeing so many." He still did not change his position, "jeez, my God. It's a public place, I'm ashamed ...." Despite the embarrassment, I enjoyed this hug, the hug I missed.
"Go back home or I'll stay like this until tomorrow, hmm?"
"Maas ...."
"Yes or not?"
"Yes yes ...." After answering that, he immediately let go of his embrace, looking at my face fixed with a hopeful look. Without a word he clasped my hand gently and pulled me to follow in his footsteps.
"Is it calmer?" rama asked behind his wheel.
"Little."
"Just a little, hmm?"
"Yes, at least I'm not crying like yesterday."
"I'm sorry, I've made the wife I love the most cry. Do you still doubt your husband?"
"I just need proof, that's it."
"Didn't you feel like our first night, that was my first experience?" Hearing Rama's words, I widened my eyes, turning towards him. He increased the speed of the car, scared me, until I grabbed my seatbelt and closed my eyes.
"Well, lower your speed, it's dangerous."
"No, if you still doubt my loyalty."
"Mas, I'm afraid, please stop, it's endangering both of us. There's Atma and Mom waiting for us."
"Whatever happens to you I'll be happy." I was made even more panicked after hearing the answer from Rama, he really wanted to risk his life and do recklessly.
'what if there's an accident with us?' whispered in my heart. Rama entered the toll road outside Jakarta, not heading home with high speed.
"Mas, I beg you to lower the speed of our car, well I'll try to believe you, but please give me time, I'm afraid, Mas ...." I don't feel my tears flowing from my eyes, yes I'm afraid, in addition to the high speed of the car, my fear is if the photo really shows the original habits of Rama when outside the house with his friend. "I'm afraid you'll let me down later, I'm afraid our marriage ends in divorce, I'm afraid that the habit of changing women is really your habit as the photo shows, I'm afraid, I'm afraid I can't accept the harsh reality" I said, sinking my face into my palm and crying, a cry strong enough to relieve the chest that felt squeezed at this moment.
Rama clutched the steering wheel firmly, he slowly lowered his speed and let me cry, she said,
"Trust me, I love you so much Amanda Ayudya Prameswari. We will face this problem together, never try to leave or avoid me" Rama said in between sobs, pulling my head to lean on his shoulder, and kissed my forehead many times while continuing to drive his car slowly cleaving the way to Bandung.
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