Post-divorce
The Part 19
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"Mom, I'm in love."
"Wahh glad you heard, who shook your heart Rama? I'm going to ask for the woman you love."
"That's Ma'am, who was carrying a sample of Ummik Rahma's material, beautiful, simple, soft he said." My mother smiled happily at me.
A week later, Mother told me that the woman I wanted to make a wife had been proposed to by a man, at that time could only accept it sincerely maybe not my soul mate even though I kept thinking about it.
I'm not the kind of guy to fall in love with, even a little friend named Tasya who's close to me can't shake this heart to be able to love her, even though I know she loves me.
One day the mother called, she asked me to donate blood to a baby who was going to have surgery and the blood type needed was not available because it included the rare blood type O Rhesus negative blood type, hearing that I immediately came to the hospital to donate blood immediately, while in the process of blood transfusion, a beautiful woman I knew entered the room with a smile that nourished my heart,
"Assalamualaikum Ma'am, Mas introduce my name Amanda, the mother of a child you helped by donating your blood, I came to say thank you." he said gently, my heart trembled again when he saw it, I came to say thank you, like four years ago, she still looks beautiful even though she has children now, although I am happy to meet her again does not make my cold attitude and speech do not throw, this is my attitude, this is my attitude, since a friend who knows me called the refrigerator running, let them assume what, obviously I have difficulty behaving and saying sweet words to someone.
I've learned from Mom that Amanda just got divorced a few months ago from her husband for not accepting a baby that was considered disabled by her husband and family, hearing that I feel happy, I'm happy, not because he was happy to see his sadness. However, I am happy to have a second chance to get it, especially when holding Amanda's baby named Atma, I feel happy and immediately fall in love with the child, a handsome and adorable child.
When I saw Amanda close to another man my heart was always filled with jealousy, never felt this heat on the chest when Amanda talked to a man I knew not too long ago named Janu until I accused him of playing with the heart of a Man with his beauty, obviously that's very wrong, maybe this is called blind jealousy. Once upon a time I endured the heat that enveloped my heart as Amanda was embraced by her ex-husband, but at that moment I held back my emotions to be able to take a recording of the image I used to be evidence of violence against Amanda by her ex-husband, the incident reminded Me of the sudden embrace she made of me.
"Just explain to you this is called a forced hug, it's just that I rebelled not enjoying it like you are today" whispered in my ear, rightly what Amanda said, I'm enjoying it because I've loved her for a long time without her knowing.
From Atma six months old and living in Mom's house, I play with her every day, not meeting her every day, I feel like something is missing inside me, Me and Atma are like we're one with each other. Every day Amanda would prepare food for Mother, Atma and Me with her own hands, even though she was busy in college, she did not forget her responsibilities as a Mother, that's what made me fall in love with him. However, I can only be stiff and cold, it is done to control the pounding of my heart while being near it.
My heart was so broken that with my own eyes watching Amanda accept Janu's marriage proposal, I could only hold Atma's body over my lap to neutralize the pain I was feeling, at least that time Atma strengthened me. I harbored all this love because I was afraid Atma and Amanda would walk away from my life if Amanda refused my love, by being with them at least I felt the happiness of a small family, I've considered Atma my biological child, a part of my life, I love her so much ....
One night, Tasya came to meet the Mother I occupied, in a drunken condition, I immediately helped her and brought her into the room. The clothes that Tasya wore were already out of shape, very messy.
"Touch Me Rama." The sensation when drunk "I love you so much, I'm willing to give my honor to you, you can do it again for the second time, touch I'm Rama, come on!!!" Waving his body on the bed.
My eyes widened in shock at Tasya's words, touching for the second time? Even if I never touched her, even if I wanted to, I would never have married someone who wasn't my wife. The question arises in my mind, who touched it first?
Mentari had said hello, Tasya had woken up from his sleep in my room,
"What are you doing Rama? You've taken my chastity, you must take responsibility."
"You misunderstood Tasya, I didn't do anything to you."
"In the club I feel your touch,"
"You're affected by alcohol."
"You evil Rama, you don't admit it, you don't want to take responsibility, huhhh???" Tasya shouted out with emotion.
"What are you guys doing?" Mother was already standing on the doorstep of the room, Tasya immediately hugged Mom.
"Rama has taken away my chastity, ma'am."
"WHAT???" Mother was shocked by Tasya's words "explain to Mother Rama!" Pinta Mama, I also became confused as to what to answer because I did not know the truth.
"I've ruined Rama, you must take responsibility, I don't accept any excuses you give," Tasya continued to cry "you must marry Me Rama! Or I'll tell my parents and sue you." he threatened
"Well I'm going to marry you, not out of fear of your threats because it's not my fault, I'm doing this because you're my childhood friend, I'm not going to let you feel broken and humiliated."
The marriage proposal and event was arranged all by Tasya, he sped up our wedding plans until one day Amanda and Atma took care of me when I was sick, Tasya scolded Atma and Amanda. I don't accept Tasya's treatment, especially I feel my love for Amanda getting stronger, when I'm sick I can't resist my desire to get a touch of comfort from Amanda, out of control I hugged her when this body felt a fever.
My heart became hesitant to continue the marriage with Tasya, when one day Amanda learned of my feelings for her. I feel that he loves me too, the love in my heart for him has really taken root, I am tormented by it. It turns out that Amanda and Atma were also tormented while away from me, I'm so selfish not to think about their feelings, I guess I'm the only one who feels pain. Amanda asked me to stay away from Atma.
"Amanda, don't do that, I beg you!!! Atma I've considered my own son." I said, refusing Amanda's request.
"You need not consider Atma your son, for soon you will have a son from Tasya, you will be a husband and a father of the seed that Tasya contains." I saw him wipe away the trail of tears, "Honestly, right now I'm disappointed in you, not because of the love you're secretly feeling for me, but I didn't expect your relationship with Tasya to be husband-and-wife, I thought you were a good man who valued a woman's honor."
The truth Amanda said about Tasya's pregnancy surprised me, pregnant? Even Amanda's accusing the non-nothing of me. However, I'm only silent because if she were to directly refute Amanda's words without any evidence, she wouldn't believe it, let him dissolve in his own thoughts and conclusions until I can prove that I am not who he thought I was.
After Amanda passed away, I immediately contacted a friend who used to accompany Tasya, he was a friend of our college days, he said, from her I got information that Tasya was discharged from X nightclub on the night of the incident when Tasya was drunk and came to the boutique, they left together but my friend was dating her boyfriend so left Tasya alone.
Based on the information that has been obtained, I rushed to the X nightclub in Bandung, I also invited Tasya to prove everything, where maybe I am responsible for Tasya's pregnancy, she said, pregnant women should not be married religiously. Tasya refused to prove everything, but I did not accept rejection from her any more she had covered her pregnancy from me.
This club is no stranger to me, most of my business associates love this kind of nightlife, I follow them, but I don't fall for their lifestyle, in a desperate situation sometimes I accompany them in the nightclub just to sit and relax, I always put on a stiff face while here to avoid the night woman approaching me.
"I'd like to request CCTV footage at this club" I asked the manager of this place,
"But it's not free sir,"
"I'll pay anything to see the nightclub CCTV, my best friend needs it."
"All right." No matter how long the manager took me to the room containing the entire CCTV monitor screen of this club, I asked him to repeat all the recordings at all corners of this club on the night of the incident, and my efforts are not in vain. I asked for a copy of the image file where Tasya was drunk and went into the rented room of this club with a man I didn't recognize. Tasya saw that it was all very surprised, his body was on the floor, crying hysterically.
Tasya just kept crying, just silence I did. I drove her to her parents' house and gave her a decision, I will not marry Tasya, I will not take responsibility for something I did not do.
My marriage with Tasya was eventually annulled, Tasya was depressed, actually did not have the heart to see it like that, but I could not do anything, I did not want to make things worse later after the baby was born, I don't want to tarnish my family's good name by thinking I impregnated Tasya before the wedding.
I heard from Mom, in a few days Amanda's going to do the wedding and Mom's taking care of her wedding dress,
"Had you been honest from the beginning, maybe Amanda would have been with us" said Mother, looking sad and disappointed "When are you going to get married? Your age has already passed the number of heads of three Rama"
"I won't get married until I completely forget Amanda, Mom."
"When is Nak? You need a life partner."
"Come on Ma'am, it's hard to forget Amanda, I love her so much."
"Hahhh why smart mom son career and set up a company, but stupid love affairs." mom sighed rudely, I can only smile, maybe true what Mom said, I'm stupid ....
That day akyu work as usual, came to the office that was built to complete the design of the building of a shopping center, and, the secretary came to my room and told me there was a man who wanted to see me but did not give me a clear name, I also received the guest.
Tok.shock.
"Come in"
"How are you? Do you know me?" His words were firm and short, I raised my head to look at the person who was currently in front of me.
"Don Januzaj?" muttered.
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