Prison of Love
The road in place
#13
When I came to, I found myself in bed.
The first person I caught with my eyes was Hengky.
He was right next to me.
His head bowed while holding my hand.
As I called out his name, he quickly raised his head. From his facial expression it looked as if a burden had just been lifted from him.
“Naya... Oh my... I'm sorry, Naya.” His words were full of regret as he put my hand on his cheek, he looked at me worriedly.
Hengky's mother was suddenly already near me, holding onto Hengky's shoulder, asking him to calm down.
“Drink this first, Naya..” He gave me a glass of warm water.
I smell the honey. I spent half a glass then handed it to Hengky, “I'll finish it later huh?”
Hengky nodded then handed the glass back to his mother who left after taking the glass from Hengky.
“How are you doing now?”
I'm trying to smile, “I'm not papa, honey.”.
“I panicked earlier, Nay. I'm too emotional until I'm not aware that your face is already very shoots earlier.”
“You're not wrong, honey. I'm too weak.”.
Suddenly I remembered Andy. The shadow of his face just made me shiver.
I didn't think that the effects of this trauma had such an effect on my life.
I thought my life was fine, but as soon as I saw her, the defense I had desperately built, collapsed instantly.
“Don't thinkin Andy, Naya. He doesn't pantes called a man. His behavior is like a sissy! Coward!”
Hengky voice tone growled. Jaw hardens.
I hold Hengky's hand, “Where is he now?”
“Naya... never see her again!”
If I may choose, even to death I do not want to see his face again.
But there were a lot of fears running rampant over my mind.
What if he told Hengky everything?
What if Hengky knew the real facts?
Will he still love me?
Will it stay the same with me?
No. gabe. That can't happen.
I have to meet her.
But, what am I going to tell him? Should I beg to kneel at his feet?
“He's still ahead. Waiting for news about you.”
Hengky looked at me with a look I could hardly understand.
“Honey, I..”.
“No, Naya. As long as you're with me, you can't see Andy again!
He's a jerk, Naya! I've never wanted to tell you guys that he's my Cousin Brother because I'm disgusted to see him myself.
You wanna know? He once I beat it all out because he was caught almost harassing my friend in High School first. Pretending to be in love, pretending to bend his knees at his feet, having successfully taken his heart, he intends to take everything that is left. Including sanctity.
I was lucky to catch him at the time. Basic lowly! He even dared to do it in the car?!
Huh!! I'm still feeling great when I remember that incident!”
I was slapped by Hengky's words. I know that the sentence has absolutely no intention of insinuating let alone hurting my heart.
But it hurts so much.
Fortunately, the woman was rescued by Hengky.
If only he had been there to save me.
If I were as lucky as that woman...
Without my tears flowing.
I cried without being able to stand it.
Oh my God, I thought I was running, but I've been walking all this time.
Without progress, without a future.
“Naya... I’am so sorry. I don't mean to bring up your past.
Oh my... Sorry, Darling...”.
Hengky grabbed my body, wanted to hug me but the instant his hand stopped, he hurriedly pulled his hand, and,
"Sorry.sorry .. I just meant to hug so you're calmer... Sorry, I forgot..”.
Without caring about his words. I pulled Hengky's hand, hugged her, cried as I could.
I was stuck in the same place. After painstakingly crawling up, it suddenly slipped and fell back to the bottom of the same hole.
Very dark. I can't even see anything from here.
My life is back and broken.
Hengky only knew I was traumatized by Andy's slander and speech.
Until now, that was all he believed in. It made my heart hurt even more.
He appreciated me so much all this time, how about when he knew the facts about me?
For almost three days I locked myself in Kosan's room.
Shinta or even Hengky who came did not make me flinch.
I still don't want to go out of the room.
I punished myself by reawakening the facts that had happened.
How can I forget that I can't get a man's love?
I don't deserve it.
I'm too dirty, I'm so disgusting.
While lamenting myself, I found someone who should be responsible for the circumstances that happened to me.
Andy Widiyanto's.
He should have taken all this.
Why am I the only one who is broken?
Why am I the only one?
While he looks very fine. His life is very well.
Anger has surrounded my heart.
Emotionally I pressed the number of someone I memorized out of my head.
When the call was connected, I immediately regained my senses.
What the hell am I doing?
Be late.
Someone picked up the phone while laughing.
"How are you, Naya? Wh why? You miss me?”
I quickly turned off the phone call and then turned off my HP.
My hands tremble. My heart is beating irregularly. My whole body felt cold for a moment.
Just hearing her voice scared me so much.
What am I supposed to do?
What am I supposed to say?
I HAVE TO HOW, HUHAANN........
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Right now there's nothing I can do but clear my mind.
If I make a decision when my emotions are controlling me, then I will regret it to death.
Yep. Whatever decision I make, it has a huge impact on my life.
It is like a matter of life and death.
Wouldn't I die if Abah and Mom found out?
And even if I am still living in the reality of a wrong decision, then I am only walking on my feet, moving with my body but without a soul.
Okay.
Let's take a deep breath, exhale slowly.
I need to calm down...
“Naya!! Open the door or I'll destroy it now!”
I was shocked by the sound of a door blow.
The typical baritone sound. A voice I will never forget in my entire life.
Half terrified, like hypnotized, I dragged my steps closer to the door.
When the door opens, Andy smiles widely, “Smart girl.
He forced his way in and closed the door with his hands turned back to him.
I'm stuck in my place.
My whole body was stiff as if it was hard to move. Fear rules me.
“You know, Naya? It's been a long time since I've missed an atmosphere like this..”.
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