Prison of Love
Terrified
#5
Andy immediately hugged me as soon as he saw me out the gate, he grabbed my face, forcing me to look at him.
“Yes God, Nayaa. You can't be like a little girl, Naayy?!”
“So what do you expect me to do? I have to be begging Brother Trus begging while saying, ‘Don't stay with me, I can't live without Kakan’, so?”
“Please don't torture me like gini dong, Naayy! You think you're the only one who's tormented??”
“You know me, which part of it tormented Brother? Obviously this is what Big Brother wants, right??”
“Ya Lord..” Andy pulled his hair in frustration then stomped his hands violently.
“Can we chat slowly, Nay? Don't use emotions..”.
I smiled cynically, though,
Don't use emotions he said? He spoke very easily....
“You want me to marry you? I don't mind, Nay! We meet your parents now.”
“Oh yes, then what after that? You think we're married and then it's all over? Marriage isn't that easy, brother! My parents would also disagree.”
“Don't agree with me?”
“Iyaa..!”
“Oh so from the beginning you already know your family will not agree but you still want to date me? So all this time you were just messing with me?!”
I looked at Andy in disbelief. Making sure that the words were right out of his mouth, “Kakak is kidding again huh? Why so behave as if Brother is a victim?”
“I'm confused, Naya! Tell me how I should be!”
“We walk each other. I can't keep going with Brother. Even looking at Big Brother's face alone gave me goosebumps half to death.”
“Nayaaa... everywhere if a woman has lost her chastity she will not be foolish to let go of the person who did it! You can't be alone, Naya! You need me...!
And also, just information, once you have felt the pleasure, then you will continue to want it back.”.
My hands tremble. I want to feel like I'm slapping his face right now. I clenched my hands tightly, trying to dampen the mounting emotions.
“Listen to me carefully. I don't need a man who's a coward by taking away a woman's honor as a chain to tie her neck.
The pleasure that Big Brother said, if it is called pleasure, then it is the gate for me to destruction!
I need Brother's presence? No, Brother! The presence of Big Brother actually makes everything more messy!”
“I will never forget, Naya... We enjoyed it that afternoon, why don't you admit it? Don't be so holy!”
The deg!
My blood flow stopped.
I gulped, realizing the fact that what he said was true.
But. I don't want to go back. I don't want to repeat something that is clearly forbidden by norms and religion.
“I don't care what you think of me. I also don't care how my brother looks at me right now.
One thing you should know, I want our relationship to end right now.
Don't ever look for me again, don't ever call me again and never show up in front of me again!”
Andy smiled cynically, he turned to me while frowning his forehead,
“You sure you won't regret this?”
“I think Big Brother heard clearly what I said earlier.”
“OK! There is no harm to me either. Women are easy, Naya. I can even get your replacement in less than a day”
He walked back to his car, opened the door and closed it hard.
The engine was on, I thought he was leaving right then and there, but suddenly he opened his windshield, pulled out his head and gave me a code to get close.
I foolishly obey.
Andy pulled my head rough and then brought his lips closer to my left ear,
“Thank you for giving me a chance to taste your beautiful body. You know if you're hot without pants?”
Blood boils. I pulled my body away from her. My teeth chattered with anger, while he laughed out loud and stepped on the accelerator and left.
My feet feel weak. I fell down.
He quickly pulled my body and hugged me.
Cry broke. The world was dark for a moment.
............................................
Andy didn't go alone.
He left with a sense of self-worth, a belief in the love of a man, and almost all of the courage I had relied on.
I was scared to death.
I'm afraid he'll spread bad news about me, I'm afraid he'll influence everyone on my true facts.
It's not a difficult thing for him. His friends are everywhere.
Everyone admired him.
If he said something, with his speech, everyone would believe.
Especially as he said back then, his friends saw me enter his Cost voluntarily.
To be honest, my courage to answer all of Andy's words was a lie.
I was scared to death.
Just looking at his eyes I dare not.
Always imagined his cynical smile, his hand grip, and also his movement.
I fear. I was afraid that it would happen again when I looked into his eyes.
But I know I can't show my fear in front of him.
If he finds out I'm scared, he'll be more willing to put a chain around my neck. Dragging me wherever he wants, treating me like whatever he likes.
Should I move college?
Or did I just quit college?
Or, am I just dead?
No. gabe.
If I choose to leave, he will be more free to say whatever he wants.
No one will struggle to clear my good name except myself.
But can I? Am I able to keep my chin up when all the glances sneer at me?
“You can do it, Naya...! I will always be next to you. We're dealing with this together”
I turned my head, looked into Shinta's eyes, looking for the truth of her sentence through the look in her eyes.
He smiled and held my hand, “We face this together. If people sneer, say you, BODO AMAT, Nay! Those who sneer will never be better than us!”
I'm down, down,
“They are better than me, Ta... they are still holy, whereas I...”.
“Who knows, Nayaa..? Are you following your life 24 hours? They may not be worse than you.
You're just apes aja, Nay.'s got you taken the same campus celeb who's a jerk like him! ”
“Same people who are cute don't apes huh, Ta?”
Shinta laughs hard, “Ya more apes dong, Naayy!”
We laugh together.
“Trust me. This problem looks heavy because you are living. But once you get through this later, you'll be proud of yourself."
I fell silent to Shinta's advice.
He's correct. Everything he said was true.
If we want a solution, then we must pass through the steep process of life.
Doesn't this problem happen because of this self-alphaan?