Prison of Love
Five days

#20

After the chat in the dining room, Hengky asked me to immediately return to the room and leave me alone here.

He did not answer my words earlier. He just quietly finished his meal and pulled my hand back to his room.

I kept screaming to go home He didn't mind. He is busy maintaining the ego, self-esteem and one-sided opinions that he always believes in.

Until now, he did not think what he did last night was a mistake. He thinks it's something he should do. Not because he wants to, but he has to do that.

I am tired of my mind and body. I'm tired of rearranging my heart and mind to stay sane.

My body feels stiff and stiff.

Ah, complete is everything.

Naya, a woman who is always bragging can take care of herself can be fucked by men up to twice!

I laughed softly.

What the fuck? This is not what I really want to happen!

Suddenly my memory returned to Andy's words the other day,

“When you tell it all to Hengky, that's when you really know if he really loves you or is just playing around with you.”.

And after last night, this is pretty much proof that Hengky doesn't really love me.

I don't know what will happen in my life.

Maybe I won't get married, because if Hengky, a perfect man in my eyes, doesn't take well my circumstances, then what about the others?

I took a breath and tried to close my eyes. My eyes were closed but my thoughts continued to kill my self-esteem and confidence.

Stupid Naya!

Naya Cheap!

Naya Women's Hitchhiking!

O Lord... How can I live the day if Your trials are this heavy?

It was almost four in the afternoon when Hengky opened the door and came back to see me. His face looks messy, his hair looks disheveled.

I, who was not asleep, woke up and walked up to him.

The hours left by him left me with no solution except to leave as soon as possible from here.

Get out of his house and out of his life.

"Where are things out there? Does the world stay the same?” I asked as I took her hand and pulled her to sit on the sofa.

"Are we able to talk well now?” Hengky voice raucous.

My reflexes looked towards her eyes and realized that her eyes looked puffy. I don't know how long he's been crying until his narrow eyes seem to be getting smaller.

I nodded and tried to smile.

Hengky held my hand and put it on his cheek, he was bowed for a long time, his back looked up and down, my hands were wet with tears.

“Sengky?”

I lifted her face, trying to smile while trying to make eye contact with her.

“I'm wrong, Naya... I don't know what demon possessed me last night... Oh my God. I'm sorry, Naya... Sorry me..”

Hengky sobbed, his words sounding choked due to his crying.

I sighed, finally he realized his mistake.

“You know what hurts me the most?

The fact that you, the man I trust the most, can hurt me in a way that is more torturous than ever before..

Why should you? Why should you do it?

If you can do it, then how can I continue my life?”

Hengky's crying got louder.

He changed his position, sat under me, took hold of my feet, clasped his face near the soles of my feet,

“Sorry to me, Naya... I beg... sorry for me..”.

Seeing him bow down pleading under my feet made the wound in my heart even more painful,

Sorry said?

After last night I screamed out for mercy expectant he didn't care?

“No, Naya. I will continue like this until you accept my apology”

I pulled his shoulder, forced him to wake up, “I can't talk if you're like this”

Hengky. He got up and sat down next to me.

“What solutions can you offer me at this time?” ask me after making sure Hengky is calmer.

There's no answer. Hengky was getting bowed, his crying voice was getting heard.

“I want us to break up, Ky”

Hengky quickly raised his face, “No, Naya. That's not the solution..”

"After what you've done to me, I'm not sure I can continue the day by holding your hand”

“I'll convince you back. I know it's hard for you, but.Let me have a chance..”.

“I gave you a chance last night, but you turned down that chance”

Hengky sighed. He's speechless.

“There is no more hope for us, Ky. You also know how I feel right now. I can't and I don't want to continue all this falsehood”

“But everything I give is real, Naya! I've never faked a smile, attention even love for you”

“Yes, you are right. And you shouldn't have to do something that low last night, right?”

“Can't we stop discussing last night's incident, Naya?” Hengky.

I laughed cynically, though,

“How could I possibly forget, Hengky! That was just last night! Even until time passes, until you have forgotten all that, the memory of last night's events will continue to stick in my brain's memory! Until I die, I will remember everything until I die!

Did you not understand yet?

The same incident Andy who has 8 months passed, until now still leaves a tremendous trauma, Ky!

You think I enjoy that memory?! You think I went crazy that month because I enjoyed that memory?! You also think I'm that low??!

And now, you, the man I trust, who is beginning to make me think positively of the world, can do the same?! Even your way, you hurt me even more than Andy!”

Emotionally, I stood up and walked towards the door,

“Take me home now.”

Hengky shook his head, “No, Naya. You're not going anywhere”

“What?!”

"I'll give you five days to calm down and then come back to me”

I widened my eyes in disbelief over what I heard, “You are crazy, Hengky?! Five days? And you asked me to stay here for five days?!”

“Not difficult, is it?” Hengky smiled and walked up to me.

"You crazy! I have my own life! I have parents I need to tell. They'll look for me if I don't pick up their phone more than half a day”

“Ah, so? Good.. indeed that's what I want”.

I pushed Hengky's body that was already approaching towards me, “You don't know how my parents are! They'll torture me all out if they find out I'm here!”

“Hey, we're getting married. Problem solved, right? I am very capable of meeting all your needs, Naya! You are my life, I cannot just watch you walk away from my life!”

"I DON'T WANT TO MARRY YOU!!”

Hengky smiled. He lifted my body and took me to bed, laid my body, “Then who would marry you if not me?”

“What?!”

Laughter sounded out loud from his mouth. He woke up and turned on the TV,

“You can choose any movie as you like. I'll go briefly”

Regardless of my shout, Hengky continued walking towards the door and locked the door from the outside. Leaving me with sanity that almost disappeared.

What the fuck? What the hell just happened?

I still remember clearly, just now he was crying out for forgiveness at my feet, crying for my apology, but in an instant turned into a rough and emotionless male figure?

How could a normal human be able to change personalities that quickly?

I get out of my bed immediately. At least before I leave, I have to find out what's going on and what makes it like this.

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