Prison of Love
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#58

Entering the fourth day, Hengky finally let me go back to the boarding house. I breathed a sigh of relief, thank goodness lately continuing to be near Hengky can drive me crazy. The strange feeling that suddenly came every time he smiled or even just sitting next to me made me feel like I was just another person, like I wasn't.

It took me almost a year until I finally started to feel my body attracted to everything about it. I used to feel normal even though he clenched his hands on my cheeks, brought his face very close to me, even his embrace felt very comfortable. It's really just a sense of comfort, not feeling weird like this. There was no sigh that made my stomach feel amused let alone the sudden heartbeat of hunting.

But this time, every time I saw Hengky smile, my eyes always turned to her red lips. Even worse, just looking at his back from behind, it made me swallow.

*What's wrong with me? Why do I feel something like this?   *

When I was with Andy, I never felt anything like this. I can always control myself, never let go of thinking about things I shouldn't think about. Even the last time I was together was in a boarding house that afternoon (a very dark afternoon), all I thought about was that I didn't want to be here.

Then why did this strange feeling suddenly come?

Is it because of Hengky that makes me more comfortable?

Or maybe it's because my body is starting to want more?

Ah, no! I really don't want this feeling!

The supposed occurrence of that night when he forced control and entered me forcefully was enough as an excuse for me to stop this crazy thought.

But, Hengky was emotional at that time.If he did it again, he would not be like that...

My reflexes slapped my own cheeks forcing me to realize that this pain in the cheek would not be worth the inner torment and long-term effects we would feel later.

I tried to sing in my heart, trying to occupy my mind while putting clothes in the bag that Hengky had prepared. Just like that time, three days here, three days also Hengky bought a lot of clothes for me. After that, he held me accountable for bringing all these clothes home.

Geck! Geck!

“Naya, you're inside?”

Oh, that feeling again. Come on. This is just Hengky's voice. Why does my heart suddenly not fall like this?

“What's up?” I shouted from inside the room.

“Can we talk to you for a minute? In my room?”

The deg!

I won't let it. Controlling in an open space alone was already very difficult, let alone the two in the room. I'm sure my body will embarrass itself.

I walked towards the door, opened the doorknob and then turned my face. My lips were almost open, words were on the tip of my tongue but then my eyes were wide open. I closed my eyes in panic,

“Ya Tuhaan, where are your clothes?! Why dateng here just use training pants that?”

Instantly I woke up. Hengky right, I have even been used to seeing him swim just wearing very short pants, I also used to see him bare-chested, previously mediocre. Why am I becoming like this now?

“Wear your shirt! From now on, it can't be like this anymore in front of me, let alone in front of others!”

“Judah I wear clothes first. I'll wait in the room ya.” Hengky waved his hand then walked towards the room.

“Neg. Don't be in the room.”

Hengky's footsteps stopped, “Eh? Why?”

“P-anything can't be in the room!” belepotan. By closing my eyes like this my concentration is even more chaotic.

Ah, crap! I even started imagining strange things.

“But this is a very serious thing, Naya. I can't talk about it at the risk of someone else hearing our conversation.”

“Do not lie! Last night you told me about the problem near the pool. There is a lot of risk of others hearing.”

Hengky laughed, he walked closer to me, “You why the hell, Honey?”

He pulled my hand, forced me to open my eyes, “Open his hand firstwhy the hell?”

“Gak papaaa. Duh, yaudah yaudah! I'm waiting at the rooftop. Remember, put on a new shirt after me!”

“If I don't want to?” Hengky smiled idly. He was deliberately getting closer to me.

“J-don't try!!” panicked shouting. My reflexes advanced the hand as a code to ask him to stop.

Hengky laughed loudly. He rubbed my head and smiled, “Oke, wait for me on the rooftop. I'm gonna take a shower in my shirt.”

Naya, Hengky is taking a shower... Hengky mau man.

Holy jeez! This crazy thought again!

I hurried past, heading towards the elevator towards the fifth floor. I honestly held back as hard as I could to not turn my head towards Hengky.

Ah, why the hell would he have to be bare-chested like that? if I just get this way, see it, then what about everyone else?

Wh why? He wants to show off his muscular body? Or his field chest? Or the shape of his back?

No need, Hengky Widiyanto! I've memorized it out of my head!