Prison of Love
Parfumes
#14
“Never dream that you can carelessly touch my body again! This time I will die or you will die!!”
I shouted threatening Andy. My voice trembled, fear still controlled me but I had little control.
Andy laughed cynically. He sat down on my bed, stroking my pillow.
“Let me guess, Hengky must have never sat here”
“Hengky is not the same as you, bastard!!”
“Hahahaha...!!” Andy's laughter grew louder, he bowed his body and stared intently at me, “All men are the same, Naya! Especially if you have seen the naked body of a woman! All the same!!”
“It's your fault why let your eyes see something forbidden for you!!” My breath goes up and down. Anger almost broke me.
“Who told you to have a very lazy body, dear Naya..” Andy got up from his seat. He walked towards me while looking at me sharply
My body defense automatically makes me retreat backwards, “STOP! Don't try to get close! Or..”
“Or what? You want to scream? You want your name to be broken because it was found in the room with me? OHHHIKK...!
Let everyone know a Naya who looks Religious is alone with a foreign man in her room!”
Andy cut my sentence. He chuckled as he continued to step towards me,
“In retrospect, I've never even seen your hair. Funny, right? Though I've seen a more sacred part of you..”.
I went back to freaking out. The shadow of that afternoon's incident flashed in my eyes.
No. gabe. I won't let it happen twice. The first time is carelessness, if it repeats itself a second time, it means I am really stupid.
I immediately ran towards my study desk, opened the drawer and pointed the kitchen knife at Andy,
“How else are you going forward, I will slice my wrist!”
Andy raised next to his eyebrows, he laughed mockingly, “Try it. I want to see how big your guts are
“I'm not threatening, Andy! I'm going to kill myself!”
“Yes...Yep...Yes..” He answered while twisting his wrist, his eyes twisting, doubting my courage.
My eyes feel hot. I want to cry but I hold on with all my might.
The shadow of Abah and Mother flashed dancing in my shadow.
I'm sorry, Abah... I'm sorry, Mother...
Quickly, I raised the knife, aimed at my wrist.
It's okay, Naya...
To die is more honorable than to give up your body.
But when the blade was about to hit my foreskin, when I had put everything in, Andy jumped at me. Throwing the knife in my hand and pulling my body into his arms.
“You are crazy, Naya!! How could you think of killing yourself in front of my eyes?!”
I broke out of his arms screaming but Andy tightened his arms.
“Ya Tuhaan's... I'm sorry to scare you... L'm... I was just bluffing you earlier.”.
I didn't answer.
I still keep hitting his arms and waist to let go of the hug.
It felt disgusting when my skin came into contact with it.
Andy took a deep breath and let go of his embrace. He looked me in the eyes and then sighed again,
“When would you like to tell me about what happened to Hengky? He deserves to know about you, Naya. That's when you really know if he really loves you or is just playing around with you.”.
“Urus is your own business. No need to interfere about our relationship!”
“Good... But don't blame me if I tell him. It hurts so much to see you now dating someone I hate so much.”
Half-running I walked towards the door, pulled the handle and stood next to the door, letting him go right now.
“Remember my words earlier, Naya.”
Whether it's a threat or just an input. I don't give a shit.
When his body just passed me, I immediately slammed the door.
Hurry to re-ignite HP, tune out loud the music sound and then scream cry as I please.
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The voice of the phone woke me up.
I fell asleep after I was tired of crying this afternoon.
I blinked my eyes when I saw the phone screen.
It's eight o'clock at night. There were 33 missed phone calls.
I let out a breath.
It's not that I don't want to see Hengky. But I don't have the guts to look him in the eye right now.
My heart always screams to realize how dirty and disgusting I am.
The phone rings again. The name Hengky reappeared on the screen.
I took a deep breath, though,
Excuse me.... Ii'm sorry...
“I heard the sound of your HP ringtone from here, Naya. Please, Naya... Open door... Oh my God, you tortured me, Nay!”
I bit my lips hard, holding back my crying voice from coming out.
“Don't beat this alone, Naya.
Let me accompany you. You can do whatever you want.
Please Naya... Self-improvement like this doesn't solve anything.”
Hengky's right. It really doesn't solve anything.
I put my head up. Take a long breath.
Alright.
I have to go back forward.
Whatever my fears are, I have to face them.
I need to be able to fight fear in order to move on.
Hengky immediately hugged me as I opened the door.
The smell of perfume calms my heart.
“You've eaten?” tanyanya after releasing a hug.
I shook weakly.
“You eat out or we order online only?”
For three days I locked myself in my room. Maybe I should go out to refresh my mind.
“We are out?”
Hengky's face immediately looked bright.
He nodded happily and walked out the door.
“I wait in the car huh?”
I nodded while trying to smile.
God, how could I possibly tell the truth to a man this good?
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