Prison of Love
Perfect Man?

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Are you curious about the contents of Fatih's CV? Uh, should I call him Fatih because he's five years old above me?

Five years, the age gap that some of my friends think is the ideal age for a life partner. Looks more mature, more nurturing and more can make us comfortable.

However, since when is adult attitude related to age? Increasing numbers does not guarantee someone will grow up, will make it wiser or better at making people around him comfortable.

All right, back to Fatih's CV. To be honest, I can't show you the details of her CV. What is clear, no matter how great the contents of his CV, my heart does not move or shift in the slightest. There is no gap until he can shift the position of Hengky a little from the heart.

Even if he could shift it, it would be very unlikely that he could accept the real me, just like Hengky. It would look terrible if I told her my true state, when it was the biggest secret of my life and she was a stranger in my life.

If he can understand or reject me well, there's nothing to worry about. But if it turns out that the oral is not awake, will it be me and my extended family?

But thankfully, I do not need to bother thinking about any reason because in my CV it is written clearly,

Naya is a blemish woman, stained. Which even if the worst man was faced with Naya, he would think thousands of times to pledge a sacred promise or tie a promise to live on.

Of course I can't write my situation clearly to her, can I?

If I read back, the contents of his CV explained that he only continued the mandate of his parents to lead Pondok Pesantren. He hoped that his wife would be able to accompany him to continue his father's struggle and live together in the Pondok Pesantren neighborhood.

According to him, marriage is the most natural action to create stability in humans. God has created a biological impulse in us, and as ordinary people, we cannot deny that desire. The only solution to all of this is marriage.

There is an interesting story that he tucked in his CV, he said,

One day, Ibn Mubarak was on a jihad journey with his companions. He said, “Do you know what practice is better than the one we are doing?”

“We don't know,” answer them.

“What is it?” askthem.

Ibn Mubarak replied, “A noble man who guards himself from sin, earns a lawful living, who has children, who has children, he woke up in the middle of the night and saw his children sleeping without blankets and then he wrapped them in a cloth he had. That's better practice than our current practice.”

Fatih added a sweet sentence at the conclusion of the story,

Marriage for me is not just to unite the relationship of two lovebirds who love each other, not just a mere status change, let alone just to show off our partner to the world. But unite the sincerity of lovers who love God to practice His commandments.

I want to marry you not because I am in love, I want to marry you, because His heaven feels closer when you are with you.

Okay, I admit I cried when I finished reading her CV. My heart was touched by how noble he looked at a woman. How he seemed to treat a woman according to what His Majesty taught.

I glanced at her social media account name. In a hurry I grabbed a cellphone and typed his name there, my eyes were fixed on social media accounts whose followers were far more than me.

20.3 Million followers. He was a selebgram in his area.

His social media posts are filled with social activities that he does, his activities as a motivator in various schools, as well as activities that he seems to like, writing.

Looks so perfect.

How could there be such a perfect human being?

If it looks so perfect, shouldn't that be what makes me suspicious. No, no human is perfect. Behind a luxurious gilded house, always keep a dark side that we do not know.

I took a deep breath, my brain kept looking for ways, how could I refuse a man who looks perfect like this?