Prison of Love
Muddle

#18

“Hengky... I know.. I know this is not what we want... Pl-please... Please stop..”

I beg like crazy. My feet were on their knees begging on his lap.

No. I know Hengky very well. It's not him. It's not him...

“Why, Naya? Why would you give it to that bastard and not want to do it for me?!” Hengky voice raucous. He wiped the tears on his cheek.

I screamed in my heart. It hurts so much to see it like this.

“Honey... forgive me.. I'm sorry I couldn't try my best back then..” I grabbed her face, tried to make eye contact with her, trying to prevent the evil lust from getting over her.

“Why don't you try desperately, darling? Do you want it too?”

I shook my head strongly, “I will not fight desperately to be able to get up if it is what I want, dear. For God's sake, I'm being forced! He threatened me.”

Hengky. His eyes were straight towards my body that was no longer covered in any cloth. His sight was full of wounds.

Realizing the look in her eyes, I tried to protect her upper body with my right hand and lower body with my left hand, trying to make eye contact with her, asking her to stop, making her realize that this was not her, that this was not what he wanted.

But like possession, Hengky jumped straight at me. He was getting mad when his hands touched my skin.. He quickly positioned himself on top of my body, forcing me to stay under his control.

I fought with all my might. The punches and kicks I don't know how many times I've landed on his back. The cries kept coming out of my mouth.

Instead of stopping, Hengky was getting crazier. He increasingly plays the role of his body. Roughly he pulled both of my hands up, locking the movements of my hands with his right hand, forcefully tearing apart the last defenses of the area I was protecting so much.

But suddenly Hengky stopped his movements. He looked at me as if giving his eyes time to observe every inch of my innocent body with a gaze I could hardly understand, giving his memory time to keep every event in his mind.

With a raucous voice, he brought his lips closer to my ear, “Why did Andy first see this than me, Naya..? why did you let him touch you.?!”

Without waiting for an answer from me, he laughed, the sound of laughter full of sadness. Her tears were dripping, her eyes were red.

I began to understand, he was forced to do this, leaving me with little hope that I could revive him.

“You're different, Honey... You're not like Andy..”

“Don't mention his name in front of me, Naya!!!”

My efforts failed. My words just made him grow louder.

As it was about to run out of time, Hengky took off his belt, lowered his pants, then pulled my legs, positioning my body back right on top of it. Everything was done in such a hurry, without giving me time to breathe any longer.

My eyes widened as something suddenly burst in under there. Without warning, with very rough movements.

My brain immediately processed what was going on. Panic overwhelmingly attacked me, fear hugging me tightly.

Once it had entered perfectly, Hengky stomped his body irregularly. Emotions and anger are very clear through each movement.

I screamed crying. It's.very painful. Every inch of my body stiffened, rejecting her presence within me.

My mind kept condemning how stupid the decision I made was to cause me to end up here.

Stupidhead! Basic Stupid! Basic Stupid!

After a while, Hengky lifted my body, brought his face closer to my neck area, got down, then played a long time on two perfectly rounded mounds, his tongue was roughly playing there.

I struggled even more, screaming with all my might, forcing him to let go of my hand that was still held tightly by her.

No. gabe. I felt absolutely nothing but pain, fear and deep disappointment.

If there is someone who says that the victim of sexual abuse is enjoying it, THAT PERSON IS BIG WRONG.

I don't feel pleasure in any form right now. My body violently resisted his every touch, his every move. Every second that passed, it felt very painful.

I feel like my body is getting dirty, the more disgusting it is, the more sick I get of every breath I exhale. I can't forgive myself this time.

How could this happen again? How could I possibly be trapped a second time?

Hengky further accelerated the rhythm of his movements, his breathing more hunting, repeatedly he avoided looking at me.

Wasn't... This is not what I want...

I was willing to be honest with him because I believed he controlled his emotions well.... I trust him. I trust him very much...

Not long after, Hengky shouted along with his tensed body followed by an explosion of warm liquid that came out below.

As his body squeezed, he collapsed on top of my body.

Complete already.

My life is getting into the bottom of an endless dark sea.

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I was still frozen in my place. My body feels shaken. My mind feels empty.

My heart forced my brain not to believe what had happened. How could a perfect Hengky in my eyes do such a lowly thing...?

My body did not react as Hengky covered my innocent body with his thick blanket.

My heart is very painful. The lower body feels throbbing, the pain is incredible even when the waist is just a little.

But despite the exhausted body, something inside my heart screamed louder.

YOU'RE A FOOL, NAYA! YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE THE RIGHT TO LIVE AFTER THIS!

“Naya...”.

Hengky was already wearing his pants back. He stretched out his body and tilted his body, hugging me.

I shuddered when my skin came into contact with it. Feelings of disgust and disgust ripple out at the same time. But I found my body just silent without reacting to anything.

I feel dead already. It was so dark and I was so tired of crying.

"I'm sorry, Naya... I. I just want to be absolutely sure of what you're saying. My brain and mind refused to believe that you were no longer holy.

All I did was, I. I just made sure that you didn't lie to me or find excuses to deceive me..”.

My lips automatically smiled, my heart and body ached, yet I did not understand why I was smiling at the moment, she said,

”I don't need any reason to justify what you've done. You guys are so smart to find excuses. It is as if all the wrongs you have committed are absolute truths, as if whatever you do, it is because you have the right to do so.

Don't you guys know? I am a victim of your ego and your dirty lust? I am the victim, I am the only victim, but you always blame me first before then torturing me, always turning things around, pretending to be the victim and then killing me slowly”

Hengky came back crying. He repeatedly said sorry words while hugging my body tightly, as if trying to take every wound and pain through the embrace he gave.

Doesn't he know, there's no cure for this wound, no cure for the poison he's been spreading in my heart and mind.

Like I said, I'm dead.

I closed my eyes.

My brain kept thinking, in what way I would end my life later...

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