Savingswoman
54. Meaning of Love

“I will destroy whoever sets us aside. I will destroy the world. I'll make the world grieve as much as I mourn your loss!”

Raisya's throat was blocked. Her green net looked straight at Netra Farel who was highlighting her full of obsession and fear. Jesika's words were clearly ringing in his head.

“Farel, it's not love!” Raisya lowered his gaze.

“What do you mean not love?” Farel panned dislike of Raisya. He dislikes it the most if his feelings are doubtful, especially his feelings with Raisya.

“What do you think love is?” Raisya.

Farel was silent, he didn't know what love was? He only knows the fear of loss and comfort for Raisya, and the heart is pounding.

“I don't know. But for sure I was always afraid that you would walk away from me, disappear from my sight, and be out of my reach. I've always been comfortable with you, and I've always__pounding.” Farel lowered his voice as he said thumping.

Raisya nodded at Farel with raised eyebrows, but his face remained flat. Breath he let out.

“What if I don't feel like what you're feeling? How if I want to always go away from you, scared when near you, and feel uncomfortable.”

The deg!

Farel has a sharp look at Raisya. His plight clenched tightly, making blood begin to fall from there, but he bred.

“i won't let you go from me. Whatever your reasons, I'll make you always by my side, if necessary I'll break both your legs!”

Raisya stared in disbelief at Farel. You crazy man. Break leg?

“You don't love me! But you're obsessed with having me!”

“I love you, and I want to have you!” Farel gritted his teeth trying to hold back his emotions.

“If you love me, why don't you try to make me eliminate the reason for my departure! You even made up your mind by forcing me, even by firmly wanting to break my leg.”

“I love you, that's why I want to tie you.”

“But you don't think about my feelings!” Raisya looked at Farel.

Farel choked, his heart racing.

“I__ i__”

“If you love someone, then the first thing you should do is make him comfortable, love him sincerely, and not hinder his happiness.” Raisya looked straight at Farel.

Farel lowered his gaze for a moment, then looked at Raisya sharply.

“As safe as it is to make you happy by going away from me? Should I let you go? Only a fool would let his beloved go!” Farel hissing sharply.

“If it's like that, why don't you try to make me stay near you? Not by forcing me, but by trying to understand my wishes.”

Farel fell silent, he began to digest Raisya's words.

“You always want to get away from me. How should I understand it?”

“You know the reason I want to go away from you?”

“Because you have a lover. You love others.” Farel endured the tightness in his chest as he said all that.

Raisya's eyes fumbled at Farel's statement. How could Farel know he had a lover? Does Farel know about Jhonatan?

“Love?”

“Iya, I know you have a lover. You even ran away with her, and the photo on your phone explains everything. You love Zakiel Balawel.” Farel looked at Raisya with a wounded look.

Raisya who almost had a heart attack due to Farel's statement heaved a sigh of relief, but he scrunched his eyebrows, feeling confused by the misunderstanding.

Indeed, in his cellphone there was a photo of his previous togetherness with Jhonatan, maybe Farel felt the photo on his phone was Zakiel, considering the same face of Zakiel and Jhonatan only different from the color of the eye only.

“You don't have to lie! I can accept all of that as long as you stay with me, and leave that lackey.”

Raisya was more and more astonished by Farel's words. This selfish guy really.

“How can you want to live with me but let my heart live with other men?” Raisya looked at Farel in disbelief.

“I_I_ I feel you won't be able to love a man like me.”

“Why can you think like that? what kind of man are you?”

“I forced egosi, arogant. And most importantly I almost twice harassed you.” Farel said with a soft word.

“If it's like that, why don't you try to turn into a better man so that I can love you?”

Farel raised his head, looking at raisya with sparkling eyes.

“If I change, can you love me? Will you never leave me?”

“Maybe.” Raisya replied with a slight hesitation.

Farel lowered his head looking at the doubt in those green eyes.

“You have any doubts?”

“You know Farel, maybe I'll easily love you when you don't have the status of a husband.”

The deg!

The facts about his staus made Farel aware. Recall Raisya's conversation with Jesika who says Salsha cheated on him.

“Your status is what makes me never love you. I will never be with a married man. I don't want to be the cause of the breakdown of one's relationship, especially marriage.”

“Raisya___ is Salsha cheating?” Farel asked a question that went out of their way.

The deg!

Raisya looked at Farel in shock. How could Farel know that Salsha is cheating? Raisya immediately normalized her face, smiling gently.

“Considered? Is it possible that Salsha, an educated woman like her, and deeply in love with her husband cheated?”

Farel who heard Raisya's statement began to hesitate. Did he hear wrong? While he clearly heard Raisya's conversation with Jesika on the balcony of their room, but why did Raisya respond that way.

“Itu_ it is impossible.” Farel replied with a slight hesitation. Although Salsha once betrayed her, Salsha has changed. Maybe what Jesika was talking about was Salsha a long time ago.

Raisya who heard the answer from Farel tried to smile. I don't know why he felt pain hearing it. Ah, maybe the pain he felt because of his mother's taste. If Farel thought Salsha would never cheat, he would never expose Salsha's affair. Let Farel know for himself. He is enough of an observer.

“if not possible, why are you asking like that?”

“I just make sure everything.” Frel swallowed a rough saliva. Her throat was dry, especially through the unusual gaze of Raisya. Farel felt Raisya was hiding something.

“What's all for sure?”

“hmm, maybe.”

Raisya smiled faintly, then he got up leaving Farel who could only be speechless looking at him. Before that slender leg climbed up the stairs Raisya turned his body.

“I pray you quickly find out everything, and hopefully by then you're not late.” Raisya went to his kamrnya. He stepped gracefully without looking back again just looking at the situation of Farel who looked confused.

“I have to investigate everything. I think something's wrong. Is Salsha cheating? If so, then I won't have to go twice to divorce her.” Farel stared straight at the luxurious staircase sharply.

His burly hand grabs the device, trying to contact his trusted detective to investigate everything, about Salsha, especially the suspicious-looking Jesika.

“I'll soon find out the truth.”