Savingswoman
56. Longing Cry

Raisya entered the hospital with complicated feelings. After a long debate, Farel finally allowed it. The clothes that were originally green turned blue and more covered.

Farel allowed her to leave on condition that she had to change her clothes, and wear the clothes the man had chosen.

Farel's choice wasn't bad. The blue dres with long sleeves, and the length below the knee was beautiful. Plus the long collar that covered almost his entire neck added a graceful impression to him. The problem is that he feels hot.

Which fool would choose a garment with such a collar in a summer like this. Even Raisya had already felt sultry right when he came out of that magnificent Mansion.

Green Netra Raisya gave the code to Jesika, making Jesika who understands immediately carry out his duties.

Raisya with her angular face entered the hospital leisurely. While Jesika quickly fiddled with the small screen he held, a moment later a big smile was seen from the woman with narrow eyes.

“ok, complete mission.” Jesika put his car in his pocket.

Those narrow eyes were staring around. Relieved to see some of Farel's men who were fooled by the action. Given Farel's nature, Jesika's head was off. Sometimes fear makes people lose their minds, like Farel.

Until now Farel did not allow Raisya to take the plunge without a Bodyguard. It could even be that Raisya would not be able to come out if he did not argue first, just like earlier.

In addition, Farel also made the Raisya movement more limited. He gave a new device to Raisya, but the device already has a tracking and eavesdropping device. Make Farel know who Raisya is related to.

However, the existence of Jesika is very helpful to Raisya. Making those eavesdroppers and trackers malfunction for a while is not a difficult thing.

Raisya's steps came to a halt right in front of the tightly shut door. His heart is beating faster. He only has half an hour. And in that time he must solve everything, including his relationship.

Chequek!

Raisya. Heart's pounding. His eyes looked at the figure of the man lying down by staring at the red paper with a sad look.

Guilt further undermined his heart. Is he right in making the decision?

Jhontan turned his field, trying to see the figure who entered his space. His breath was stifled to see the woman he could only hold in his dreams could now stand in front of him in a real state.

“Sayang.” Jhonatan said softly. Without being prevented the sturdy body was trying to rise. However, he seemed to have forgotten his current state. Jhonatan fell in quite a terrible condition. Trying to crawl walked towards Raisya.

Raisya's eyes faded, quickly running towards the lover. Her green eyes turned red, indicating she was holding too much longing to the point of a lump of buried tears.

“Jhonatan.” Raisya grabbed that weak body.

Jhonatan did not bia dam his leaf anymore. Without seeing the situation quickly he grabbed Raisya's body, crying in the arms of the lover.

Raisya felt his chest wet, and Jhonatan's body trembled tightening his arms.

“I'm sorry.” Raisya crying.

Jhonatan shook his hand tightly to the body of Raisya, making their bodies cling to each other. The sobs of the two couples separated by a cruel fate filled the room. Anyone who hears will feel pain, including the man standing behind the door.

“No, all my fault. If only I were stronger and had not experienced something like this, you would not have experienced__”

“Sutt, it's all over, and I don't blame you.” Raisya stared at the soft jhonatan. Her index finger was nicely clasped on those sexy lips.

“Asorry me. I'm a useless man. And now I'm disabled.” Jhontan clenched his hands tightly.

Raisya who was still lamenting her fate and trying to strengthen her heart raised her head, looking at Jhontan elaborately. The defect? He did not get such a report from Jesika.

“What do you mean dear?” Raisya approached trying to reach Jhonatan's body.

“I'm disabled Raisya, I'm paralyzed! I'm just a man who can't protect his girl, make his girl fight alone in this terrible world. I'm a sissy, I'm a coward, I'm _”

“Sut! What the hell are you saying? You remain my Jhonatan, the Jhonatan that I love with all my heart without having to see your current condition.” Raisya gripped Jhonatan's body tightly. He channeled his power from the grip.

Jonathan raised his fist. His face was a mess. Red and wet with tears.

“Do you still love me? Accept it like this?” Jhonatan looked at Raisya softly.

Raisya laughed blandly. What kind of question is that? is not the man aware of what struggles he has gone through just to save his life, even he is willing to lose his pride.

“What are you saying? I should've asked you like that. Can you still accept me. I'm not a girl anymore, but I'm a despicable woman, I'm a mistress.” Raisya cried at the end she said. Given his current status made his self-esteem and feelings hurt.

“No. You're still my girl. My holy girl, you're still the girl I've been looking after all this. You're not despicable, but you're mulya to me.” Jhonatan rubbed Raisya's face gently.

Raisya's heart was beating fast. That statement made him happy and sick. It may be easier when Jhonatan hates him, but Jhonatan's words make things look more complicated.

“Let's get up, on the floor is not good for your health.” Raista helped Jhonatan to return.

Jonathan obediently followed Raisya's orders. Heart's sliced. In the past, he would lead Raisya, but now he was led. He chuckled in remembrance of his current fate.

“Jhonatan.” Raisya called out to Jhonatan.

Jhonatan turned his gaze, looking blankly at Raisya. He felt unable to look at that face, every blue eye was met with the green net, a sense of disappointment in himself who was unable to keep the lover struck deep in his heart.

“I'm sorry.” Raisya lowered his gaze.

Jhonatan looked at Raisya confused. Why did Harsu apologize again? Isn't the apology conversation over?

“It looks like we should end this relationship.” Raisya looked down deeper but rest assured he was looking down to cover his increasingly rushing tears.

The deg!

“Why? Are you asking this relationship to stop because of my disability?” Jonathan asked with a hunting breath.

“No, it's not like that Jho. But I want our relationship to end. My status makes me unable to establish a relationship with you at this time.I am still attached to that man.” Jonathan looked at Raisya with reddened eyes. If it were not for his status and his desire to help Farel, he would not have severed his relationship with Jhonatan, much less looked at the current state of Jhonatan.

“I accept your current situation.Why do you still want to end our relationship. The problem of men is that we will find solutions together. Stay by my side, I can't live without you.” Jhonatan.

Raisya is getting pomegranate. He did not want to drag Jhonatan into his complicated relationship.

“Jhonatan, right now that's the best. I hope you can take it. Even though our relationship is over, aren't you still my sister.” Raisya tried to smile covering the bitterness in her heart.

“no. I don't want to be your sister, I want to stay your lover, your fiance, and your loved ones!”

“You are still the person I love right now Jho, but the current state cannot unite us. I don't want to hurt you more deeply if we still have this kind of relationship.” Raisya lowered her head.

Jonathan clenched his hand, feeling devastated by the decision taken by the lover. While Raisya who felt the vibrations in his dress blinked his eyes. He must leave Jonathan.

“I'm sorry, I have to go. I will visit you often.” Raisya left the room. Go without looking back just looking at the state of the man who looked at his back with nanar.

“I love you.”

“I love you.”

The same words they said, with hearts equally broken. A sentence that they only put out without being able to make it happen. A sentence they can only hold without being able to feel. They love each other, but fate makes them have to dig deeper into the meaning of love, by giving a parting word in it.

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What do you think of Raisya's attitude in this part?

The same Jhonatan?

Trus kira² who is male² who witnesses their meeting?

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