Savingswoman
81. Elder sister

Raisya looked at Jhonatan who was trying to step slowly. The woman's soft smile was singunggan every Jhonatan managed to take his step.

The blue-eyed man gritted his teeth firmly. The pain and pain in his feet were very disturbing. However, seeing the happy twinkle of Raisya, his loved ones, made him ignore the pain, and try to keep stepping.

Sweat as big as corn seeds seen dkening white Jhonatan. Raisya who saw Jhonatan's tremendous effort could not help but feel haru in his chest.

The woman's hand stretched out, as if welcoming the arrival of Jonathan who a few more steps will arrive in front of her.

Jhonatan with all his might tried to display a smile at the pain in his feet. However, the feeling, just before his feet stepped he stumbled with his own feet, making his body look backward and ready to hit the hard and cold of the floor.

Raisya who saw the incident quickly stepped up, reaching for the burly body, making their bodies both stick together.

Jhonatan blinked, seeing Raisya's face up close made him remember the times they were still together.

The desire to kiss Raisya's lips was gurgling. However, as much as possible Jhonatan brushed off that thought. He loves Raisya, which means, he must respect Raisya's decision to only consider him as an older brother now.

“You all right?” Raisya asked with a worried look.

Seeing Jhonatan's pale face plus the slick look there was unable to make the woman calm down. His slender hand was as strong as his strength to hold the weight of Jhonatan's body. A position that makes anyone misunderstand.

“Yes, I'm fine.” John smiled softly.

Raisya who saw that smile looked relieved. Slowly he led Jonathan to lie down in a cage. However, right after laying Jhonatan, Raisya who wanted to stand up, his body was pulled forward because of his long hair that was attached to the button of the man's shirt.

Jhonatan who saw a troubled Raisya pulling his hair took the initiative to help. The two-handed contact splashed out a stream of electricity in their hearts. Jhoanatn looked up, trying to stare at Raisya's face. However, seeing Raisya who was both looking up made Jhonatan swallow a rough saliva.

“Allowed?” Jhoantan asked with a lick of his upper lip.

Raisya frowned, trying to understand the meaning of Jhonata's words. While Jhonatan who saw the entanglement of Raisya considered Raisya to accept it. Slowly the man drew closer to his face, trying to reach Raisya's lips.

However, Raisya who then understood the meaning of Jhonatan's question looked at him, making Jhonatan's movement stop only a few inches from his face.

Raisya's hand quickly removed her hair, then angkit slightly away from Jhonatan

Jonatan who was aware of Raisya's rejection smiled wryly. Raisya really doesn't love her anymore. His heart was broken yet, he could not do anything.

“I'm sorry,” Jhonatan said softly.

Raisya is clumsy. To be honest, he misses Jhoanatan very much, his love remains the same, perhaps. However, the decision he has made makes him have to be able to maintain limits. Although he was not with Farel, he was reluctant to be with Jhonatan. It's too dirty.

“It's okay.” Raisya smiled faintly. “What still hurts?” Raisya stroked Jhonatan's feet gently.

“Thank God. Maybe this is the last time I can get here.” Raisya lowered her head.

Jhonatan who pretended to look ordinary could not help but be surprised to hear Raisya's words.

“Why?” John asked with a wounded face.

“One will replace me.” Raisya smiled gently. However, if examined deeper, there is a slight vibration within the green netra.

Raisya has spent decades with Jhoantan. Jhonatan already he considered as kaka, lover, and parents both. Everything for him. However, Jhonatan deserves his original family, with them and free from his troubles.

“Do you not love me anymore?” Jhonatan asked in a bitter tone. Staring at Raisya with a look full of wounds.

Raisya held her breath, trying her hardest to cover her chaotic feelings. “I'm sorry.” Raisya lowered her head, hiding the clear droplets coming out of her eyes.

Jhonatan chuckles tastelessly. “I appreciate your decision about our relationship. I appreciate your feelings that are no longer with me, but I can't help if you disappear from my life.”

“.....”

“As you said before. We can still be together as Big Brother. I accept, I accept everything! But why don't you torture me enough. Why do you have to torture me by staying away?” Jhonatan looked up, looking at Raisya who kept his head down.

“Jawab Raisya? Whatdoyouwd? If you heal me, then stay away from me, better, you let me die. Labih well, you let me, and do not have to sacrifice for my recovery.”

John could not hold back his tear dam. Is it not enough to hold back his feelings? isn't it enough to see Raisya being with another man? isn't it enough that Raisya just thinks of himself as a sister?

What would he live for if only to see his beloved in pain? Why would he be allowed to breathe air if only to see his lover destroy his pride? Wh-wh-what for? What would he live for if he could do nothing to help his beloved?

“Sorry, I'm sorry. Hate me as you please. I'm sorry for hurting your heart. But this is all I do for the good of all of us.” Raisya. His face looks messed up.

“What kind of a problem? What kind of immorality do you mean?”

“Sorry, you'll know later. But I beg you, don't question my reasons anymore at this time.” Raisya showed a wailing face.

Jonathan threw away his face. Reluctant to look at the face of Raisya who looks very chaotic with tears. He would not be able to see his beloved like that.

“Baikalh, don't see me again. Don't take care of me anymore. I hope you're always happy. However, you have to remember. here.” Jhonatn pointed at his chest. “there will only be your name. You must remember, I will do anything for your happiness, even if I have to pay with my life.” Jhonatan highlighted firmly Raisya.

“No, don't do that. If you want me to be happy, then you should be happy too, because it's good to see you smile, even if not with me.” Raisya tried to smile gently, but the smile that the woman let out looked pitiful instead.

“How can I be happy if my happiness is with you?” Jhonatan shone a spotlight on Raisya.

“Already, do not continue this discussion. You have to remember, I still love you, even as your sister.” Raisya smiled gently. Then his hand touched his chest. “Here is your name, especially for you, no one can enter it or have it. You have a place for me Brother.” Raisya gently rubbed Jhonatan's wet face.

John bit both of his lips. Hearing the call made him sure that Raisya no longer had any sense for him.

“If you think of me as Big Brother, then you must answer your brother's question.” Jhonatn tried to smile even though his heart was hurt.

“Yes, ask Kak.”

“Do you love him?”

“Dia?”

“Dia, Farel Wiratman.” Jhonatn suppressed the pain in her heart with all her might. Trying to be seen as a big brother who wants to know the story of his sister's romance.

Raisya held her breath. The woman looked confused as to how to answer him.

“A__”

“Already, no need to answer. Brother will always pray for your happiness.” Jhonatan interrupts the word of Raisya. The man will never be able to hear the answer from Raisya. Let Raisya love another man, as long as he never hears Raisya's love in front of him, he will feel fine.