Suppose that... (Turnable Time)
Encouraging yourself

In the afternoon, as usual Yumna who had packed the house and also cooked for dinner chose to sit relaxed in front of the door of the boarding house.

By holding Akifa, Yumna rethinks how she can meet her needs and her two daughters without having to wait for money from Galang.

" Where can I get a part-time job so that I can also earn income and can meet my needs and also my two Daughters." Lirih Yumna's.

It is the umpteenth of the day that makes Yumna dizzy because of the quarrel with Galang about money.

Yumna asked Galang if he had the money to pay Ilmi's monthly dues.

But instead of answered meekly from Galang, Galang actually said the thing that made him hurt.

" I don't have any money, I have to work with how-to models again so I can earn money fast. It's the end of the month now. I don't even have enough money to pay the cost. Not to mention if you think of sangu money to go home Lebaran. At least we have to have 3 million to get home. If we don't have that kind of money then, don't expect to go home. Because it seems like at any time we will never be able to go home if we only rely on income from my work." Galang.

At that time, Yumna was silent and did not respond to the words of Galang. For if Yumna answered, it would be a quarrel again.

And Galang will definitely return to blame Yumna who does not want to work to help the family finances.

Yumna also recalled the words of her mother-in-law when Galang made a video call.

" Yes already buk, I turn it off because if too long later kouta from Bibi run out."

" It won't end, your aunt is now working at Mas Bimo."

" When do you start working?"

" There has not been 1 month anyway, but at least it would be good if your Aunt also joined the work so there are in case if it requires a sudden fee for school, good not to wait for income from her husband. Have your own money, can buy anything yourself." Speak in-laws with a loud tone.

Yumna knew that her mother-in-law had deliberately said so that Yumna would listen.

Patience Yumna, patience not to get carried away. The self-serving Yumna.

Yumna then remembered the words of mbak Ida.

Mother Ida is the cousin of Mother Yumna. But Yumna was more comfortable calling her mother's cousin sister.

Ms Ida tells Yumna to be determined to work abroad leaving Galang, waking up from a slump and rising with her own hands to support her two daughters.

" But I'm afraid that if my two children I leave it to my mother and the Galang family will take it." Yumna.

" Not to be afraid and worried. If you are successful if you can want to have your own income from hard work then your two children will be looking for you." Said Ida at the time.

" God give me instructions on what to do Should I work abroad and leave my two Daughters?. If I do that then the same thing that happened to me will repeat itself to my children. But if I wasn't determined to work abroad then my life would still be like this. This God of choice really makes me in a dilemma, on the one hand I also want to work so that I can get money so that I can meet my needs and also my two Daughters. But on the other hand I also don't want what happened to my two daughters." Lirih Yumna in prayer.

That night, when everyone was asleep including Galang. Yumna awoke in the quarter of the night and complained to the creator, hoping that he would receive guidance from God.

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The morning...

Yumna was standing in front of the mirror, looking at her old face. He has just entered his 28th year. But when compared to mama Elsa who is 38 years old Yumna actually looks older.

" May I be angry that I cannot beautify myself. Let alone to beautify yourself, to eat is still lacking. What I am less grateful for is my husband's gift of not understanding the household needs and also the needs of a wife for himself."

Yumna then closed her eyes remembering her conversation with Galang when she asked for a robe.

" Yes buy it, don't I always give you money." Galang said as Yumna informed her of her desire to buy a robe in the orange-colored app.

" Yes, but when you give me money you say nothing, doesn't that mean the person is shopping for everyday necessities."

" Yes that's just made to buy."

" When what money is needed?" Ask Yumna.

" Yes eat that dress, just like when you want a closet. Just buy it, but when the rice and others run out then do not ask for money on me but ask for the cupboard that you have bought. Or just come here to cook so that it can be full." Galang.

" Yes I already know because that's why when you give me money I'm still grateful to buy what I want."

" Yes already? that means you still have a mind if you don't want to spend the money I gave you to buy unnecessary stuff."

" But I also need a robe because many of my gamis are ugly and worn even some of them are not worth using."

" You can't ask for money to buy what you want."

" Lo, I'm your wife. You're my husband, if I don't ask for money from you then who do I ask?."

" Yes to whom."

" Don't be weird. There's no way I'm asking the next door for money."

" Why don't you try who knows they'll give him. Or have an initiative to sell what cake or work what jobs kek. So you can buy anything without asking from me."

Believe it or not, I don't think any woman would want to hear an answer like that. Instead of answering with a question that could please Yumna, Galang answered it as if telling Yumna not to ask anything from him.

" Patience to Yumna, embrace the new world you are living in. The spirit to continue to work, do not be discouraged even though he said himself did not support to write because He thought writing was just nonsense and did not produce anything. You should be able to prove to me that you can also make money writing. Yes although the results are not much, but can buy what Galang can not give to you." Yumna said to encourage herself.

Sad indeed when knowing that the husband himself never supports or encourages himself. But Yumna has to stay excited to be able to make money from writing. Although Yumna herself does not know when she can feel the income from writing.

Right now all you can do is keep writing and working.

" If my sustenance from writing then I will get it even if I don't know when it will happen. Now all I have to do is keep getting excited and working. Yes even though I know because I am not as good as other works so that no reader comes by hehe.. But I'm sure that the road to success is not easy. So I have to stay excited. The spirit to myself." Yumna said with a smile.

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