Suppose that... (Turnable Time)
Reiterated

" Hiks hyks hyx.."

Yumna who was washing dishes became surprised, because Ilmi who was just about to play suddenly came home crying.

" What's up?" Yumna asked as she saw Ilmi coming home with Galang.

Brug !!

Galang pushed Ilmi, until she fell on the bed.

" You're not so good as a mother, the child is let play up to the top boarding. Not her in teaching to read, you even enjoy sleeping." Ketus Galang's.

Yes this is repeated again, even if Yumna remembers this moment always happens when Galang who just came home found Ilmi was playing outside while Yumna was in the room.

" I'm not sleeping, I just got Akifa's sleep."

" The reason is you. Watch out if I see Ilmi play upstairs again." Ketus Galang, then immediately to the back for lunch.

Ilmi's still crying. Yumna grabbed Ilmi into Yumna's arms.

Why always blame the mother, is a mother like me really not good at taking care of children?

" Look out for you to play upstairs again." Said Galang while pointing at Ilmi before she finally returned to work.

" Learn yuk." Yumna. Ilmi shook her head.

" Oh yeah, let's go to bed."

Yumna looked at the clock, at 13:00. Yumna finally decided to sleep so that Ilmi would also sleep.

His afternoon...

" Please take care of Akifa for a while, I want to continue washing dishes and cooking for dinner." Yumna.

" You don't know if I've just come home and want to rest." Ketus Galang's.

Not wanting to argue, Yumna ended up doing the work that afternoon while holding Akifa, but she knew very well that Galang had been home since 2 hours ago. Isn't keeping Akifa not difficult?.

After dinner and after Galang just finished shower.

" Dad, let's go to the gang." Ilmi Rengek.

" You don't know if I'm tired. I want to rest. Because I have to get back to work soon. You're too much shit."

Surely the heart of Yumna was very sick to hear what Galang said, was not Galang longed for a child.

But why has Galang's attitude changed now?, has his attitude changed due to economic turmoil, or is it because Yumna who cannot give a son offspring.

Yumna remembered, Galang also blamed Yumna's birthday.

Because Yumna's birthday with Galang's birthday if combined and calculated according to Java, causing them to not have savings.

And Galang believed that because a marriage that almost turned 6 years old could never have a penny of savings.

The last few days Galang was more often angry because of his fatigue.

Working with his friend does not make Galang better, it makes things worse.

Every night, Galang always asked for a Yumna massage, if Yumna refused Galang immediately angry and said all kinds of things.

....

" Let's go to the beach." Said Galang one afternoon.

" Come on." Said Ilmi excitedly.

" Next 3 o'clock. Wait for me to finish my job."

" Ready boss." Ilmi.

After putting Akifa and Ilmi to sleep. Yumna packed up soon. Put in a change of clothes for Akifa and Ilmi. As well as cooking side dishes for their supplies on the beach later.

Drrrttt drrrttt drrrrttt

" Hello yeah?" Yumna.

" Are you ready?, the child is still asleep, is he awake?"

" Sleep still."

" Oh yeah, I'll be home soon."

" Yes." Yeah."

Shortly after Yumna turned off her phone. Ilmi wakes.

" Mom, have you come?"

" hasn't. But I'll be home soon."

" So to the beach?"

" Then dong. There wash your face.," Yumna ordered, because Yumna was busy stuffing the supply box into the bag.

" Lo, sister's awake too." Said Ilmi who just came out of the bathroom after finishing washing her face.

Akifa smiled and started crawling down the mattress to get to Yumna who was still putting the last item in the bag.

Yumna held Akifa and put her back on the bed because Yumna would change clothes.

" Temenin is his sister." Yumna told Ilmi.

" okay."

Yumna quickly changed clothes because she heard the sound of Galang's motorcycle.

And sure enough after Yumna had just finished changing clothes, Galang went into the room.

" Lo, Dad's son is up." Said Galang who directly carried Akifa.

" Bring me a change of clothes." Speak to Yumna

" Already, I just brought you pants."

" Yes, then let's go."

" Come on."

Galang first came out while holding Akifa, while Yumna carried a bag and placed it in front of the motorcycle. Then they walked to the beach not too far away.

Arriving at the beach, Yumna immediately took off the diaper worn by Akifa. And let Akifa be brought by Galang to play with water.

After making sure the bag is safe. Yumna immediately approached Galang and Ilmi who were seen having fun while playing beach water.

Yumna began to feed Ilmi and Akifa in turn.

After her food ran out, Yumna immediately returned the lunchbox to the bag. Then take a cell phone to capture the moment.

Hmm, if our family always looks this happy. My days will be much more colorful. Children are very happy, sweet attitude, surely I will not vent my frustration to Ilmi. Forgive mom, mom, you really aren't a good money mom. Inner Yumna.

But hope remains hope. Most of what we expect is not in accordance with reality.

Yumna who was hoping for a big change in Galang's attitude could only swallow a bitter pill. Because they are always bickering when it comes to money.

" Just yesterday I gave you money. Cook it's over." Galang.

" Dad gave me 300 grand. To buy bathing needs and Akifa alone is 100 thousand. Shopping at the market is also 100 thousand. Not yet for Ilmi, if she asks for a snack."

" oo." Galang snorted angrily while giving Yumna a red piece of money.

" Save nda. If this continues how we can save. You can't ya set aside a portion of the shopping money."

" Can, I can save. But I always use that money again when I don't have money for shopping or Ilmi's pocket money."

" Yes at Ilmi's dong jajan control. Don't lose."

" Try you if you give me the right money."

" I've been giving money to you all this time, right?"

" Yes, I mean don't half-love him. Don't wait for me to ask and then you just gave me money."

" If I don't have any money and I haven't got any money how can I give you before you ask."

Yumna chose silence. Because if continued also useless because Galang will not want to lose and not want to be blamed.

Yumna understood very well how much money Galang earned if his work was done, but Galang never gave all the money to Yumna.

For some reason but always Yumna only got a third of the results obtained by Galang. It is not enough for his life with two children.

Yumna started brainwashing, trying to surf cyberspace and find out anything that could make money.

Then, Yumna began to be interested in applications that offer a focus to those who can write or create interesting stories.

It turns out that Yumna is very difficult to get readers on the writing application in green. Be she tries writing in the blue color app. In the hope that he can produce the results of writing

" Can't I ask for money, to buy onions." Yumna said on the way to Novi's house, because Galang will be a bird race, so Yumna will accompany Novi at her house while waiting for Ilmi to come home to teach.

" Oh, what's your money running out?"

" There is, but I use it to buy vegetables."

" Well, if you've bought vegetables, then your money is up?" Ketus Galang

" Yes there is."

" Ck, do not waste if shopping, soon will be fasting months when you can not save. If this continues then we won't be able to go home later."

" I've been trying to save money but what about you?"

" I, what's wrong with me?"

" You've always been a bird race, and you've never given me enough money to shop. How can I set aside money to shop, if to eat is still less."

" Yes arranged how to be enough. Cook just three days ago I gave you 200, and now it's over."

" I bought a bath and Pampers, not a snack for Akifa."

Galang was silent because they had arrived at the place of Ilmi, after taking down Ilmi they continued the journey to the house of Novi which was not far from the new place to study Ilmi.

Ilmi no longer teaches in the mosque, because the teacher who used to teach Ilmi has changed. And Ilmi is not suitable with the new teacher who teaches because it seems firm and fierce.

" It's to buy onions."

With a jutek face and a tone Ketus Galang gave a piece of red money to Yumna.

" Don't spend remember saved." Say it again.

" Don't just take it, buy the onions later with you." Yumna said while trying to hold back her cries.

" This just take it first." Galang.

" No."

Yumna then immediately entered the house Novi, after Galang and husband Novi leave Yumna finally can no longer hold back her tears.

" Why-why?" Ask Novi.

Novi is married to Galang's friend, so Galang works together with Novi's husband in front of Novi's boarding house.

Novi already has a daughter who is 4 months younger than Akifa.

Yumna then told her what had just happened between herself and Galang.

" Ah just the same, Joko is like that too, sometimes I also do not understand what the men have in mind. They give money but do not think about the amount of needs, and also do not think about the price of needs to be purchased." Bright Novi

" Yes, I actually can't stand it. And you know if only one of my parents was right. Maybe I went home to my parents. Now, just imagine that my father is married again and the wife who is now much younger than the previous wife. Also my papa's wife said that if they came back from Malaysia would not go back to Papaku's house, but would go straight home to his wife. Although Mama. You know, my mama was very nice to her husband, but obviously her husband didn't want me anymore."

" How do you know?" Ask Novi.

" Now my mother was never again sent a living by her husband, and my sister said maybe the husband engineered a story where his mother had a fight with her own granddaughter and told her to take the suitcase that was there. Let's just think where a grandmother would argue with her own granddaughter. And my mother still believes her husband is a good man."

" It's hard, you don't know who to complain to."

" Yes, just so you know I'm sailing in the middle of the ocean, tossed by the waves. No. You have to lean the ship where, because I don't have anyone. Even though Mama said that I couldn't stand the attitude of saying I told her to go back to her house. Then, after I return to his house I will eat from whom?, I will provide for my needs and also my children money from where. I'm actually embarrassed that I also sometimes borrow money from my sister, when I'm her brother I should have given her money instead of me asking her." Yumna said with tears still flowing.

" Patience, who knows that someday things will change."

Yumna.

" I'm not sure, our marriage is almost 7 years old. But until now Galang still has not changed, and during that time I always succumbed. I can't even remember the last time I felt happy as a wife. Because sometimes I feel that I am a prostitute, who was given money after giving service. Not infrequently also Galang said me with hurtful words if I refused to serve him."

" I don't think at all, at most Joko will be angry with me, so the next morning I don't say hello to him."

" Hmm, I used to be too. But over time painful words came out of Galang's mouth. It's not that I don't wholeheartedly give service, it's just that sometimes my heart hurts too much even though it's actually a wife's duty. Honestly I'm so tired, I want to give up. I repeatedly asked my own heart, what more should I keep in this marriage than because of the child."

" Have you tried to speak well with Galang?"

" The galang was not to be spoken to, whenever we were in a state of peace and happiness and when I asked him to talk about something related to finances for example, or with his attitude he. It always ended with a commotion, and the next morning Gilang did not say hello. We never even say hello for 2 days because of trivial things. So what am I supposed to do?, if only I could have some income from writing. Maybe I won't count on Galang's money anymore."

" Don't you start writing?"

" Yes, it's just that the story I'm writing isn't now and as great as the other novels, maybe that's what makes my novel a scant reader. But it's okay I'll keep trying even if Galang doesn't support me to write."

" Why?"

" Because he said if I write, it doesn't make me rich and make money."

" Why is that?"

" Yes, he often said that because I was too focused on writing I abandoned the children. Though I write when I have taken care of all my children, I write in a relaxed time. Sometimes I sleep at 12 to finish my writing. Yes, I can understand because I'm a new writer not easy to get readers let alone produce brilliant story ideas."

" It's okay, just focus on writing you, and if one day your novel has made money don't ever tell Galang."

" Of course, for now I will keep the spirit of writing and will continue to write, because I believe that if my sustenance exists from me writing then I will still accept it whether it is when." Yumna said with a smile to encourage herself.

Then Yumna looked at the clock, Not feeling it was almost 6 o'clock. So Yumna decided to pick up Ilmi.

" What will be here again?" Novi asked as Yumna was leaving.

" Yes, because Galang will ride Joko's bike of course I will come back here again."

" Okay then."

Yumna then immediately put forward his motorbike by holding Akifa, when he arrived at the place of teaching, Ilmi was not out because the lesson was not finished.

So Yumna decided to go to the grocery store to buy onions and other necessities. Fortunately, Yumna still had some money to buy her needs.

And after Yumna came back from buying necessities, Ilmi was seen waiting for Yumna at the front desk of the shop at the house.

" Mom, are you home from the bird race?" Ask Ilmi.

" Not yet, so we're going to Novi's bude house to wait for dad."

" Hore, so I can play with Arumi."

After ten minutes, Galang and Joko arrived.

Galang immediately invited Ilmi and Yumna to go home because it was getting dark. And also Galang had to bathe all his birds.

At home, Yumna began to feed Ilmi and also Akifa with meatballs that she bought earlier when she came home from teaching.

After that Yumna cooked instant noodles and eggs for Galang dinner.

" It's shopping." Say Galang while giving two pieces of money in red.

Yumna accepted it and did not forget to say thank you.

In the heart of Yumna is very grateful because when the money has run out not a dime finally Galang gave him money to shop.

Yumna saved the money carefully, while planning the most cost-effective way that could be done to save money from Galang.

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" Ilmi, you don't want to study anymore?, you why be a bad boy?, why you still can't read. Later when your own school is the dumbest among your friends." Galang.

" You have a mother but you don't want to teach you how to read." Galang Imbuh.

" Well, don't always try me who doesn't teach Ilmi to learn. I will teach Ilmi to learn after Akifa sleeps, because if not active will teach and make teaching and learning becomes unsettled."

" That's just an excuse. From tomorrow Ilmi comes with Dad to work, bring books and stationery because you will study with him there. You're at home and you're not a smart kid, you're becoming a stupid kid."

Yumna fell silent, wanting to feel like she was venting all her emotions to Galang. I want Yumna to berate Galang.

Why always blame himself for the displeasure of Ilmi in reading. Yumna yelled loudly to Galang and said that she was also tired of caring for children and also doing homework alone.

But whatever the power, Yumna has not dared to do all that. I don't know what made him brave.

Yumna could only cry after Galang's departure. Lamenting his helpless stupidity.

" I have to how, what exactly is my fault. Am I a bad mother to my two children, am I not good at teaching my children? Is everything that's going on, this fight this dispute is because it's my fault?"

Yumna continued to speculate with her own thoughts without finding an answer.

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