The Heart of Vania
Definition of Disappointment

We were surprised by the passing of Assistant Yan's only child sister in her home area - located next to City A-and before dawn she showed her light, Sister-in-law, Assistant Yan and Mr. Sas left there.

According to the story of Kak Litha at breakfast, Assistant Yan's younger sister named Dinda, who was the same age as him and had a congenital heart defect that he was born with, at the age of five his heart was ringed. As she progressed, Dinda was autistic. Aunt Lidya - Assistant's mother Yan-was very intense in taking care of Dinda since childhood alone because her husband died when Dinda was two years old. A year ago Dinda's body condition decreased and worsened, although Aunt Lidya knew Dinda's life time would not be long, still she was devastated to leave her daughter first to face the Creator.

"Why doesn't Brother Litha come down there in condolences?" my many.

"Your brother-in-law told me to stay home until he came back. My gestational age is great, she's so worried about us."

"Surely Assistant Yan is devastated this time," Uncle Tino said.

"Surely Uncle, but whatever it is I hope he doesn't blame himself for rarely going back to Area C."

"Assistant Yan is a wise man. Things that have passed will not be able to return, regret is useless other than torturing yourself" said Aunt Rima.

"But I didn't expect at all Brother, that Assistant Yan is from Region C, close to City A."

"Yes, I didn't expect it before either, Nia. Even yesterday Mas Rayyendra took me to Puncak, his favorite place for Assistant Yan when he was not working. He loved heights because he was born and grew up living in the highlands of Region C."

"Same dong with Mom then. Is Mother's hometown also highland huh?" I asked for a quick glance at Aunt who immediately looked awkward, even so she covered with a gesture of taking the side dish to her plate.

"Where do we know, but I also like the highlands." Brother Litha replied casually.

"Mother loves the area that the river flows through."

TRINGS.

The fork and spoon fell on Aunt Rima's plate, spontaneously we all who were at the dinner table saw it, also Mr. Is who was in the kitchen.

"What's up, Auntie? Is Aunt okay?" ask Litha worriedly.

"Why does Aunt look pale?" ask me to follow you anxiously, pretend.

"Ah, ti– is nothing. Your aunt is fine," replied Uncle Tino trying to master the situation, holding onto Aunt's shoulder, "Maybe a stomachache, right, Mom?"

"Did Auntie eat something wrong last night? Or maybe it's because of Mas Rayyendra's goat roll, because Aunt who ate the most goat bolsters last night."

Allegedly Kak Litha makes me have to hold the facial muscles to not be uprooted. Pppfft ...

My memory came back last night watching Bibi as a starving person eating Big Brother-in-law's bolster goat, she said it was the most delicious food she had ever eaten in her life. Haha ...

"Can be. Bibi's cholesterol so up because of Big Brother-in-law's bolster goat" chirped me while feeding a spoonful of fried rice without seeing Aunt and Uncle.

The river? Just said the river I call Aunt is as pale as the dead. How do I add it to the Moon River? You can actually die of a heart attack.

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As long as Brother-in-law in District K, I was allowed to sleep with my brother, actually Brother-in-law's intention was to look after his beloved wife at night when she wasn't around. Fuhh ...

I was amazed to observe the spacious and very comfortable master bedroom. Everything is available here, "It's appropriate that Brother and Sister-in-law rarely leave the room. If I had a room like this not infrequently but would not go out of the room," I muttered standing beside the bed hugging the bolster pillow I brought from my own room. Although I was allowed to sleep in the main room, I was previously warned by Kak Litha not to touch the personal belongings of Brother-in-law. It turned out that the sense of belonging to Kak Litha towards Sister-in-law was very large.

"Sister, am I really sleeping with Litha tonight?" I said convincingly on the edge of the bed.

"Yes, your brother-in-law has allowed it. As long as he's in Area C, you'll accompany me to bed."

"Gaziness!" seruku was excited and immediately jumped into the bed hugging him. I miss bonding like this.

"We haven't slept together in a long time, brother. I miss it so much. I used to sleep holding Big Brother's ear, yes if I hold Big Brother's ear tonight."

Brother Litha chuckled, on my cheeks uyel-uyel with gnash. "Yes, your brother-in-law doesn't do what you want with this brother of yours."

I hugged my feet with great pleasure. Then we lay flat staring at the ceiling of the room.

"Sister."

"Yes." Yeah."

"I heard that Tisha's sister's case was reopened by Sister-in-law, right?"

"He– uh."

"Aunty said, Sister-in-law has found her key witness. Big Brother-in-law's power is great, quickly finding him and making him willing to testify. If only we had known Brother-in-law that time, Dad would still be there."

"If it were often referred to by people who have not been able to accept fate, and I hope you are not, Nia."

"Don't you see that key witness?"

"No, but I've met before. She's Vivian's sister, a friend of Tisha's, who that night also did her practical report work in the lab. He is now a doctor at the hospital. Pradipt."

"Oh."

"I tell you one secret, but you don't say it anywhere."

"What?"

"Promise first!" pinta Brother Litha turned to me.

"Yes, promise. What's the?"

"Asisten Yan likes Vivian, hihihi ... "

Deg.

Instantly I was petrified. An uncomfortable feeling attacked me, very uncomfortable. Like there is a razor that scratches thinly in the internal organs. It felt sore and a little sore, but I could endure it. It did not need to be as strong as possible to hold it but it was really very uncomfortable. Is this the definition of disappointment?

"Oh, it's lucky that Kak Tisha's friend is favored by Assistant Yan," I said somewhat curiously, I hope that Kak Litha doesn't notice.

"Yes, Assistant Yan is a very good man. He never put his taste in women before, uh once fell in love with an engaged woman. Complicated right?"

"Come, but I told your Brother-in-law to make it with Assistant Yan alone."

"Sister!" Spontaneously I shouted at my brother.

"What's? My butterfly hurts you scream in my ear. My baby will be shocked, Nia," the protest rubbed his stomach.

"Son Litha is aware of it? The actions of the brother hurt the hearts of others. The Litha sister I knew never did," my story is upset. Upset because a little comfortable feeling becomes uncomfortable again. Aih ....

"Enggg .. I just want Assistant Yan to be happy to have a partner too, and Vivian's sister the first woman he likes."

"But that's not the way, brother. Whether the Physician also liked Assistant Yan or not, which was obvious if their engagement broke up due to Assistant Yan's feelings, not only was the Physician's Fiancee sick but also her parents, her family. And if Big Brother and Sister-in-law are involved, you've saved the future for you or your descendants."

I don't know why my mouth is so fluent in bringing out the theory of life until Brother Litha is spoiled by what I say. But it's true, isn't it? If that happens, it involves not just two individuals but two big families– and there is a good name there that should be guarded. In our religion we are forbidden to have a relationship with a woman who has been preached.

"Does that mean I hurt Ramona then?" Suddenly Brother Litha offended others.

"Yes, it's clearly different! Sister got married right, because of a will and she was also just the girlfriend that Brother-in-law had not loved since the beginning."

"You know where, ha?!? Your eavesdropping habit has not gone away. Tell me, what else do you hear?"

"Maha ... Brother, geez! I don't need to say from where, clearly the relationship of Brother and Sister-in-law is already God's destiny. Accept it happily, Brother ... I also want to have a husband like Sister-in-law, although she will continue to force me to make love in the car while pregnant, it's okay, I'm sincere ... "

"Nia, you are ... "

Kak Litha's face was red extinguished because of his words last night I repeated it again, pinched my stomach with all my might.

"Sister! Sakiiettt!"

"You're so disrespectful to talk to your brother. "

"Which part is disrespectful? I'm just expressing my hope, what do you say is disrespectful?"

"Not that one," said Brother Litha quietly.

"Which "lantas? Who fucked in the car meant Brother."

My brother pinched again, this time harder and– hurts more. I screamed out loud complaining of pain.

"Know what you're about to fuck! You're not old enough to talk about it yet, haven't graduated from white ashes you've talked taboo."

"Well, Brother. What time are we living in? The millennial age is over. Se*x Education is not taboo anymore. That is precisely important, so that unstable teenagers like me will not be mistaken. I know what it's lovemaking, foreplay, penetration, erection, orgasm, masturbation, masturbation, even that big sister's couch, that lovemaking couch that's viral, right? which can be used in different styles. Do I want to mention the styles?"

I pointed to a sofa that I had seen in the market place whose function is to maintain the harmony of married couples. The term maintaining harmony that refers to married couples, especially if not making love, hahah ....

"It!" cry Brother Litha in my ear, now he's the one shouting in my ear.

"Don't tell me you've seen adult movies." His eyes were glaring at me, but I was not afraid because I felt I had done nothing wrong.

"It was once in Keysha's house because I was curious. Why can making love make people addicted? And why make people do it by force?" I said indifferently.

Yup. I know watching adult movies is not what I should be doing at this age. But I swear that what I said just now is the truth. I just want to know, after that I'm still sane thinking which is good which is bad, which is allowed to be done and which is what sin is done. Moreover, I found the fact that in my body flows the blood of the Ragnaya Tribe with all its magic.

"Mrs ...." Brother Litha's voice swallowed.

"Dad always said, don't go near a boy friend. They will demand more. When Dad said that, what came to your mind?" my question demands an answer.

"Engg ... What is it? It might demand more answers, for example, if we study together, but in the exam he asks for answers." he replied, to which I replied with a cynical smile.

"Father wrong. Dad was never honest with all his bans, and ended up making us wonder vaguely and figure out the answer ourselves. That's what happened to Tisha. He obeyed all of Dad's orders, until he finally found an answer in the wrong place."

"Ma– you mean you blame Dad? That's so bad of you, Nia."

"For that one, yes," I replied sternly, "But I do not deny Father's extraordinary kindness and sacrifice. Just like Mom, there's a lot she's hiding from us. We deserve to know because we are Mother's children. Mother made herself suffer, she should have shared with us, her children. Aren't we used to sharing in the womb, sharing food with one placenta."

"Nia, you don't know where you're talking?" asked Litha confused.

"I'm the same, brother. I don't know because we've never been told" I replied accordingly

"Sister," he called me by hugging his arm with one hand, the other rubbed his distended stomach, "Did Brother never regret Big Brother's fate? Who is seen and who is still hidden?"

"What's the matter, Nia?" Brother Litha turned her body to me.

I shook my head, smiling and rubbing my cheeks slowly he said, "Sir, whatever destiny, that is visible or hidden. We will definitely go through it, now the choice in your hand is to accept it or not. If you choose not then your feet will be embedded there forever. I don't know what's going on with you right now, which is clear I'll always be by your side. Not just me but your Sister-in-law as well. He already thinks of you as his own sister," said Litha at length as she kissed the top of the head that I laid on his shoulder.

"I really like Brother-in-law."

I sipped the scent of his body that drugged me, making me sleepy. It's only fitting that Brother-in-law always sticks to him.

"What! Mas Rayyendra my husband, Nia. Don't fuck around!" exclaimed Brother Litha loudly then took off his embrace and pushed me away.

"God ... What do these pregnant women think? Who would tempt your husband, brother. I like it so much like I like you so much" I was astonished.

"Jiahh .. Not to like until you want to take it from you, sister. I love the way he loves Brother, all out in loving his woman. That's why I don't like to hear that there's a divorce between you guys even if you're just joking or angry."

Brother Litha smiled, "It's yuk, we're asleep. Chat before bed we end here huh. You can hold my ear to sleep."

"He– uh."

I looked for a comfortable position to sleep in, then whispered, "I love you very much, Brother and Sister-in-law. I don't want you to be the crown princess if in the end it's going to get you back to your own egos. Huayehh ..."

"What are you talking about, Nia? Let's sleep!" said Brother Litha patting my ass, just like putting a baby to sleep. This action instantly halved my consciousness.

"He– uh. Sis, it's a good thing that your curse fell on Sister-in-law, unlike Kak Tisha falling on the wrong person. If it were me, who would I curse this to? Is Assistant Yan alone? Ah ... no– he's too old for me, if only he had a younger version of him, my age, I'd surely have to deal with my curse."

"Sshh, sleep Nia ... Don't mess around" said Litha, still patting my butt and letting my finger play with her earlobes to sleep.

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