The Heart of Vania
Xena Pradipta

Today the schedule of the verdict on drug cases that were arrested a few months ago at Amore Club & Party - the night club whose 45 percent of shares belong to Sister-in-law - will be held. I whined to the local Court despite being banned many times by Brother Litha, he was afraid that my emotions were out of control and could interfere with the trial.

The atmosphere was very crowded because the three defendants quite seized the public attention, namely Renata Swastika, soap opera artist who was on the rise, Evan Dellano Kusuma, the only son of a cafe franchise owner who is going viral on social media and often endorses popular celebrities, he said, meanwhile, Lucas Riguna will not be so highlighted if he does not deal with the Pradipta Family related to the reopening of the rape criminal case five years ago.

For the first time after giving birth, Madam Pradipta left the house because she wanted to hear the judge's verdict against them, Zean while entrusted to Aunt Lidya with the stock of ASIP (Mother's Milk Dairy). In addition to Sister-in-law and the Assistant who accompanied us, there was also the Kusuma Family - the accused Evan is a cousin of Kak Ninda-and Kak Bona as the owner of the rest of the club shares joined the reporters to listen to him.

Geck. Geck. Geck.

The judge's hammer has been tapped, the verdict's mark has been dropped. Renata with a sentence of 6 years in prison, in addition to being a wearer he also invites others to wear. Evan was sentenced to 2 years and 8 months and suspended for rehabilitation and Lucas was sentenced to life in prison - charged with the harshest possible sentence - for reasons other than being the most wanted dealer in recent months, he was also found guilty of immoral crimes five years ago. Even in further investigation, Lucas Riguna was also involved in premeditated murder with a traffic accident mode that led to the death of the victim - my father - so that there were no further reports of the Kaka Tisha rape crime.

Brother Litha's tears fell, I know her feelings at this moment because what she felt was the same as what I felt, a jumble of anger, joy and haru. In contrast to my brother who reacted by crying, I instead smiled sinisterly shooting sharply at Lucas. This is the first time I've met the person most responsible for my family's destruction.

"You okay?" sister-in-law whispered hugging her wife.

Brother Litha nodded softly, "May this punishment be fair, Mas. So Mom and Dad can relax." Sister-in-law kissed the head of Kak Litha to strengthen her

When the defendant was about to be taken back to the holding car, I stepped forward quickly wanting to get close to seeing what a bang*sat man named Lucas Riguna looked like.

"BAJI*NGAN YOU'RE LUCAS! ROT IN PRISON!" I shouted loudly forward to the one with a name, deliberately provoking.

Yan's assistant directly walked up to me, blocking with his body so that I wouldn't get any closer to the venereal villain. I want to see his evil eye when he pushes Tisha's sister until she's lost her mind but Lucas doesn't mind me. His eyes and body were fixated on the figure standing at the entrance of the courtroom.

"Tisha ..." muttered Lucas softly.

My blood gasped he called my brother's name. As I turned around, a frail figure appeared standing beside a woman in a doctor's suit.

"Sir Tisha!" my yelling.

My spontaneous screams made everyone focus their attention on Sister Tisha. Without the command of me and Litha Kak compact wanted to run towards him to prevent him from meeting Lucas but we were stopped by Brother-in-law and his assistant.

"Let Tisha do what she wants," Brother-in-law said slowly.

"Sister Tisha ..." call me and Brother Litha together slowly when Brother Tisha passed us, she showed off her smile, a smile that belonged to Mother.

Yan's assistant then immediately approached the officer who was accompanying the defendants, saying that given a little time for Kak Tisha to meet face to face with the defendant whose sentence is the longest.

"How are you, Lucas?" Brother Tisha asked looking into the eyes of the man with full courage, courage facing the wounds of his past.

Lucas was so sad, so were we. Lucas' tongue was unable to speak, his voice was confined in the diaphragm. But I am sure his heart is very sore, clearly visible in both of his eyes that are so tormented. Is the curse of the Ragnaya women true? Until death he will never be able to erase the figure of my brother in his heart and soul.

His hand was about to reach Kak Tisha's body, but the officer immediately brushed his dirty hand away from my sister. What a shameless thing!

I know Brother Tisha is fighting hard against the painful shadow of her past, which has her soul imprisoned for nowhere. Even though the man's shrill and eyes were emitting incredible regret, my brother still shook with his hands clenched tightly. She was very strong against the trauma and her sense of inhibition.

Suddenly Lucas knelt before Brother Tisha without speaking a word as he could not find a word that represented his regret and guilt at this moment other than just crying. Sister Tisha smiled bitterly at him, perhaps remembering the actions of the man she once loved wholeheartedly and hated to the bottom of the heart.

"I've made peace with myself and my past. I forgive you, Lucas ... I no longer have any feelings for you now. You're like someone else who means nothing to me. Spend that useless regret and guilt of your life in prison. It's not my punishment, but God wants to show His power."

"Ti–Tisha–"

Lucas' throat was blocked, his tears were falling. My sister gave her judgmental smile before turning around. Regardless of the call addressed to her, she kept walking closer to me and Brother Litha. Our eyes stared at each other, there was a yearning there. I didn't think my brother was cured and remembered everything, the more he was able to accept and reconcile with his past mistakes.

Lucas did not want to get out of his place, kneeling until the officers had to exert extra energy to bring him to the detention car with a thrashing motion and roaring cries of grief calling out the name of Kak Tisha. In the end, the man actually accepted his punishment.

"Sir Tisha ..." lirih Kak Litha with tears, immediately hugged Kak Tisha's thin body and spontaneously I also hugged them both.

The three of us sobbed at each other, letting out longings that had long been locked in each of our hearts. The Lord is All-Good, one by one, bringing back my dear ones.

"Sorry ... I'm sorry ..." whispered Brother Tisha slowly which made us even more hugs.

...***...

Special day accompanied by my two brothers, Sister-in-law and– The Followers - Assistant Yan-will attend my graduation ceremony at Nusa Bangsa High School Hall 2. Kak Tisha and Kak Litha are invited guests as my guardian while Ipar is the guest of honor as the main donor of the year and the owner of Pradipta Asa Foundation Foundation in collaboration with the school. Then what was Assistant Yan as? Cih, that's why I call The Follower because his job is only to follow where Brother-in-law went.

"Your name has its Pradipta in the back, why don't you call it? You shy?" asked the cynical Sister-in-law as she corrected the position of my graduation hat.

The question insinuates me sharply but the treatment of him to me is very warm, like a proud father of his daughter graduating school.

I smiled, "This time, brother. I'll take Pradipta's name later."

Frankly, I am not comfortable with the embedding of my Sister-in-law's surname in my name, especially in front of my high school students and teachers, there must be a lot of swear and malice in their hearts.

"Absolutely afraid of Serena?" ask Brother-in-law again.

I was confused not understanding what Big Brother-in-law meant, I looked at Assistant Yan next to him who instantly avoided my gaze. "I mean Brother?"

"All per–"

"It! Come on, it's about to start the show. Don't follow your sister-in-law, she will enter later into the Hall," cried Litha approached me.

I rushed though curious about Brother-in-law's broken sentence just now, "Yes Kak. Brother's done blushing?"

"Eng.nope. Payu*daraku has not been so hardened, later. I'm not comfortable blushing her here" whispered Litha as she walked into the Hall, worried that her husband would not want his wife to be in pain even if he was grimacing. Definition too bucin, huh.

I entered the Hall, all eyes centered on me. My chair is located at the very front, behind the guests of honor due to the achievement of my excellent academic grades. At a glance my retina caught the figure of Serena Wijaya. He was not as usual who often acted in search of attention, just sitting still with a straight-forward look. There is no joy in him when his value is not bad either.

"Eh, Keysha!" call me to see my roommate a few steps ahead of me, she'll already be sitting in her chair.

"It! Long time no see you," she hugged me.

"I'm sorry, I left you to sleep alone."

"Yes, your evil. It was Bu Burne who accompanied me while you were in the capital."

I was surprised, then laughed then, "Hahaha ... Oh, Key, Serena, why? Not usually quiet."

His eyes were round, "You don't know yet?"

I shook my head, he stood up and approached my ears whispering, "The rumor is Young Master Pradipta did it. You're a great Nia, have a very strong backer. Now no one dares to you."

Huh, what does that mean?

"Come, all the participants get ready. Keep your seats in an orderly manner. Don't fuss, because soon the event begins," Sabeum Dre's formal instructions. Pretty handsome too he, all this time I always saw him with sports clothes or Taekwondo training robes.

"Hush! Hush! There! Your seat's in front, not here" Keysha kicked out.

"Ck."

I sat quietly but my mind was raging with what Keysha had said. What did Sister-in-law do to Serena? Did Brother Litha tell me the sad story of my school, and then she retaliated against him. Butwhat? Oh, come on, I'll ask you later. I want to enjoy my day with pride.

"VANIA KIRANA LARASATI, SCHOOLGIRLS WITH THE BEST GRADES."

My name was called the first time, "Dad, Mom, you guys must be proud of me. It's not in vain that I survive a difficult situation."

Confidently I stepped forward, going on stage to receive a replica diploma and a charter of appreciation. After receiving it and going down the stairs, I raised the award to the highest level. Showing the world that I could conquer this school even though I realized there was no way I could stand like this without the support of Brother-in-law.

My bead leads in the row of guardian invitation seats, my two brothers are so moved that I see the sparkle of their tears. I smiled happily, this was my dream even though the one sitting there was not Father and Mother. Then I walked towards Brother-in-law's seat, when standing right in front of her, I bowed my body saluting her.

Unexpectedly he stood up to me and patted me on the shoulder, "Dream high, I will always support you. My sister is great. Congratulations."

I have trouble holding back my tears. God did not give me the older brother of my parents, but it was perfect that He met my older brother-in-law who loved me as much as his own.

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Brother Litha booked a place at Fish Hut Dining House in Kota A. Named Fish Hut, because this restaurant provides a variety of processed menu of freshwater fish and seafood. This place offers a clear view of the pond with hundreds of Koi fish. There are two dining options, sitting at the table like a cafeteria and in a saung without a chair. This restaurant holds many memories for our family especially between Father and his three daughters. Dad was willing to skimp to take us to eat here.

"Sister, thanks ... I'm so happy today. Though I thought I was going through my graduation day alone, but it turned out that all my sisters were present," I said happily.

"You deserve it, Nia. You've been trying hard" said Litha, rubbing my cheek. What happiness is immeasurably, getting the usual wild attention of the people I care about.

"You are so great, Father and Mother must be proud of you," said Brother Tisha holding my hand, "But where are Aunt and Uncle? Why did they suddenly disappear? Is there anything I missed?" ask again.

I glanced towards Brother-in-law, confused as to how to answer her.

"Not knowing either, brother. The last time I met them was when they came to the Capital for my graduation and birthday, and then they were like they were lost to the earth. There was no communication after that, was it Nia? Did they ever call you?" Brother Litha added to my burden with her question.

"Eng ... not– never," I answered, turning to Sister-in-law who pretended to be busy with her phone Haishhh ... He's not helping me!

"..."

"Why did you tell him now? Did Aunt change her phone number?"

"I don't want to make you think too far. The number you used when you called me is no longer active."

Brother Litha frowned, I know for a fact that she felt that something was awkward but she deliberately did not look any further because she did not want to ruin the happy atmosphere today.

"After lunch, we will make a pilgrimage to the grave of the late Father and Madam, then we will return to the Capital immediately" Assistant Yan explained our schedule in City A today. Tonight we will return to the Capital because there are many company documents that Brother-in-law must sign.

"Ah yes, but wait for me to finish pumping ASI first," said Kak Litha.

"Do you want to pump it now? Let me accompany you there," bargained Kak Tisha pointing at the Lactation Room not so far from our saung.

"Can I do it now, Mom?"

Brother-in-law nodded, "Of course, you must have endured the pain from earlier. Don't worry, I'll eat first with Nia and Abyan."

While Kak Litha accompanied Kak Tisha to the lactation room - to pump because of the apron that should have been worn while pumping out behind in the plane - Brother-in-law welcomed me and Assistant Yan to eat because our order had already come.

Suddenly I remembered the gossip that Keysha had told me before graduation started, "Sister, did you do anything to Serena? He was not usually silent like before. Keysha said the rumor was because Young Master Pradipta did it."

Sister-in-law stopped her eating, looking at me, "Yes she said something bad about you when everyone found out that you were my wife's sister."

I still don't understand, "I mean Brother?"

"As you said, Serena told you, it's the Moon of Misery. Of course I as your brother have to act so that he knows who you are. But take it easy, I didn't tell Mr. Wijaya that he was scolding you. But everyone must understand the cause of Pradipta Corp. acquiring the Wijaya Family company because his daughter has offended my sister."

Jeez ... Sister-in-law misunderstood, I feel like I'm going to faint. I'm sorry Serena, I have no ill intentions for you.

Who else can be made a scapegoat other than Serena because she has had a bad relationship with me since we met? But why also did Brother-in-law act so far only for the Sculptor. Aarrph ....

"Why? You mind? I can still forgive her treatment before you became a member of the Pradipta Family, but not after," Brother-in-law continued, after which her eyes turned to Assistant Yan, "You know exactly how I behave if anyone tries to harass my family, don't you, Yan?"

"Eh, i– yes, Ray."

"No matter who he is, no matter how bad or good my relationship with him is, I will definitely make the calculations."

Glug.

Almost got my throat caught by the thorns of the grilled fish I caught. Whatisthis? Brother-in-law seemed to be warning someone, but there was no one else here other than Assistant Yan and I.

Does Brother-in-law know that Serena didn't say it? Whereof? Oh, naw!

Sister-in-law looked back at my face, "Is there anything you want to say, Nia?"

Si*al! This face of mine cannot be conditioned at all!

Uhm ... Uhm ....

Yan's assistant cleared his throat, "Ray, let's say that person is not Serena, how is it?"

"What is how? Of course he must take responsibility for his words that have opened the old bath wounds." Brother-in-law took a deep breath, "Yan, it's not easy to deal with past traumas that have been closed. The heart feels sembilu sliced if re-exposed. Like I used to say the thousandth child and found Grandma in a coconut in the forest."

"..."

Assistant Yan's face paled slightly but what Big Brother-in-law said was indeed true. It turned out that we both had fatal wounds in the past, no wonder he understood so well what I was feeling back then.

"Sister, stop. Don't talk about it anymore" I said.

"You're impressed to protect her. Has Serena apologized to you?"

Glug.

My God, I don't know why my hunch says Brother-in-law deliberately threw a hot ball at me in front of Assistant Yan because she knew that her own assistant was the real culprit, only that she had no proof. My confession is the only proof. Brother-in-law deliberately herded my opinion until later without realizing I told all the truth.

"Sister, Assistant Yan not only licked the Moon of Mischief, but also stole my first kiss. What would you do if you found out? Your friendship is sincere, and so is his attitude towards Brother Litha. I am not until the heart breaks all that" I murmured sadly inwardly.

"It has. He apologized to me and to Brother-in-law" I said, lying again at last.

Brother-in-law silently stared into my eyeballs, looking for something there. Si*al! Sister-in-law must know I lied. My eyes are the same as his wife's eyes that can't lie even though we're good at acting.

He took out his glass full of water, then downed it in half, "Eat your meal, Nia. No more thinking ... From now on you'll never hear that nickname again. Abyan's salary guarantee, if anyone still says it, 75% of his salary will be donated to Pradipta Asa Foundation."

Abyan's eyes widened, "Why my salary? Don't be so fucking Ray!"

"Take care of it lest I hear anyone reviling Miss Pradipta. That's your new extra assignment, which will come off after she's married."

"I'm not his personal bodyguard!" assistant Yans.

I smile cynically, laugh at myself, what do you expect of him?

From a distance my two brothers towards our saung, Brother Litha has finished pumping his ASI. They talked to each other and laughed happily, knowing this I was with them just now.

"My wife has arrived. Do you need Madam Pradipta's word to do it?" The elder brother reiterated his orders.

"Assistant Yan need not do so, Brother. I can take care of myself. I will not be sad if I say it again. Having Young Master Brother Pradipta certainly made me much stronger. If you used to call me Aryasena's Xena, now you can call me Pradipta's Xena."

"My son will call you Aunt Xena" said Brother-in-law stroking my head.

"Aunt Xena? It's funny, but I like it" said Litha, suddenly she was by my side.

"But Xena is good at fighting" said Tisha.

I smiled, glancing for a moment at Brother-in-law who was trying to hide her smile. Then a glance at my eyes saw Assistant Yan was enjoying his meal awkwardly.

I can't believe my relationship with a person I once admired has become so complicated. It's complicated by the way, so remember my favorite song from Sky Afternoon ....

Understand your heart

It won't be my age enough

While this miss

The more I stab my chest

It turns out your feelings for me

Ordinary

Love is simple

That complicated you

Loving you is easy

The hard one is

Makes you love me too

I understand that your happiness is not with me

All wounds heal with time

I'm sorry I was in your life

Now I'm gone and I won't bother you anymore

I've learned to take off

You are immortal as a scar

Thank you for the love that was ever present

Even if it's not like this, I imagine it will end

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