The Heart of Vania
I Begged You, My Lord

To me, a heart is like a puzzle made of pieces. Happy will be perfectly formed if all the pieces are arranged well. The pieces reflect feelings for the life lived, ranging from spiritual, family, friendship, romantic relationships, and other social aspects. If happy then the pieces will stick and vice versa if angry, sad or disappointed then the pieces of the heart will be released again.

Like my heart, whose pieces are scattered. Father, Mother, Uncle, Aunt, Sister Tisha are all unravelled, there are only attachments from Brother Litha and God that I believe in. I am very attached to my family, where I was born and grew up warm. The abundance of affection from them made me not care about the pain I got from the outside. My family's treatment is like immunity to face real life. So there is nothing more painful if I have to part with them, ironically I experience it again now, in the middle of the night ....

"Nia, just bring your wallet and personal items that can be brought now. Young Master's man is waiting for you in the car. Come quick! You have to go to the capital now" said Ms. Burne in a quiet but clear voice, trying not to panic and not to wake Keysha.

"But why, Mom? What's up?" I was confused, seeing the unusual reaction of Bu Burne getting more afraid of bad things happening to my brother's family because he mentioned the Capital.

"Mom doesn't know exactly either. C'mon soon! You don't have much time."

So soon as possible she put on my jacket and helped me get my hair done, more or less like a mother preparing her late son. I didn't get to change clothes, though, wearing pajamas behind a jacket and carrying only a small bag containing a purse and a cell phone - as long as the female student is in the dorm all personal phones will be kept inside the safe and the keys are held by each homeroom teacher that was given by Bu Burne.

"Nia, calm down and control yourself. Don't be rash and don't think too much, okay?"

Bu Burne's last message as he and the Principal drove me into the car made my mind even more chaotic.

"Miss, we'll be there around 03:10 in the morning. As soon as she landed Miss will be delivered directly to the hospital where the Madam is being treated," said a female servant when I was welcome to sit on her private plane.

where the Madam is being treated, it means Brother Litha ....

"What's wrong with my brother?" I asked quickly before the waiter passed.

He was silent, his face confused what to say.

"WHAT'S WRONG?" my shout repeated the question with a loud thumping heart.

His mouth still didn't make a sound, only his hand picked up the phone, then opened the latest news app and gave it to me.

Live from Pradipta Hospital.

Currently there is a shooting incident on Jalan Perdangan. In our country that does not legalize firearms, of course, this news is very surprising, especially resulting in three injured victims. According to the rumors, the Pradipta Family got caught up in this terrible incident. We, journalists from various print and electronic media have been waiting for the victims on the home page sa–

"BACK OFF! BACK OFF! GIVE WAY!"

Czechoslovak. Czechoslovak.

Taps. Taps. Taps.

Czechoslovak. Czechoslovak.

From the video footage, the atmosphere was very boisterous and full of panic, a hospital crew called news reporters on the hospital page that covered the IGD door access.

One by one the gurneys from the ambulance were taken down. First, a pregnant woman who was drenched in blood, even blood was still flowing even though it had been strongly suppressed by a man whose appearance was very messy. He ran along the wheels that were pushed quickly by nurses into the IGD.

Second, the gurney filled with an old man who did not move and did not bleed too much, was also pushed quickly by the nurse accompanied by a man whose face I knew very well.

Third, a woman with a gunshot wound to her chest, but accompanying her were two police officers.

Brakes.

The Servant's phone slipped out of my grasp, instantly my legs were not strong enough to support my body's weight shaking violently.

"MISS! ... ANYONE PLEASE HELP MISS VANIA!"

Another waiter came to help me get up and sit on the plane seat, with a seatbelt attached.

My tears flowed profusely remembering the video just now. I fell off the plane without a parachute and said, I'm going to die soon.

"A– what vi– deo i– is right?" tanyaku.

"Miss, soon the plane will take off. Calm down, Miss. I will tell Miss if Miss has calmed down a bit" he said, which I heard like a buzzing.

My breath felt heavy and stinged, my vision was dark and– I didn't know afterwards.

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"Ugh ...."

"Miss, Miss is conscious?"

"A– what's wrong? I why?"

Ah, my head is dizzy and slightly spinning, lightly massaging both my temples with fingers on the right hand.

"So the lady fainted. Now the plane is flying and in about 40 minutes we've reached the capital."

I remembered, what I saw before I was unconscious, my eyes began to heat up.

"Miss, drink this tea first," he said with a cup of tea, "I will tell you about the condition of the Madam that Assistant Yan told me."

I grabbed the cup and immediately finished it in three gulps, "Now tell me!" I can't wait to hold my back.

"Tonight is a terrible night for Mr and Mrs Pradipta after celebrating the birthday of Pradipta Corp. There was a group of bad guys who didn't like Mr and Madam to harm Mrs and Mrs Sasmita after the event until he was seriously injured. Now they are being treated seriously by doctors. The madam had a deep stab wound and was bleeding so much that the Madam lost a lot of blood. Unfortunately, Madam's blood type belongs to the rare blood type, hence Miss was picked up and asked to donate her blood to Madam because Miss and Madam are siblings."

Huh!

I took my back to the back of the chair, my eyes glaring to the window, to the dark night sky.

"How's the baby?" my question is full of fear.

"The baby was not hurt because the Madam held the knife that was thrust into her stomach. But however the health condition of a pregnant woman will greatly affect the baby she contains."

My heart raged, not letting go of the window, "If only I could donate my blood, sucked up to leave my bones and skin, I would. Hehehe ..." I said bitterly, laughing at the fate that again still likes to play with me.

"Thank you for the information. Can I just leave it alone?" I asked the waiter.

"Good, Miss. If you need anything, don't hesitate."I nodded, then the servant left me.

I still look at the dark sky through the plane window, a boring sight, very different if I fly in the morning or during the day.

"What is the scene after this dark life?" I murmured and began to feel the eyes that had been heating up were watery and then fell onto the cheeks. "What is this sight that Brother Litha is also seeing now?" I continued without trying to stop the tears that kept falling on my cheeks.

"Sister .. hang on, Brother. Hang in! I beg ..." I closed my eyes, but I did not stop the water from flowing, "O Lord, Thou art Most Gracious ... Beware of me a little, the orphan boy– who only has an older sister who is now struggling between life and death ... My Lord, You once said you would not give Your servant a test beyond the ability of His people, but in fact I could not if I had to lose one more family member. How can I live later, Ya Tuhaaan ...."

I sobbed violently without a sound, pounding my own chest, "I beg You, My Lord .. prolong the breath of life of Brother Litha and her baby. There is no power or effort other than to rest our lives on You."

I covered my face with both palms, pleading with the Owner of Life without ceasing, hoping God would look at me.

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As soon as I got to the hospital I immediately ran towards the operating room like Brother-in-law said on the phone. God is Good, God gave me a glimmer of hope. Brother Litha got a suitable blood donor at the right time, it was all inseparable from God's intervention.

It was unceasing to give thanks while running, until I hit someone.

Gubrakk.

"Ma– sorry," I said almost inaudibly.

Strange, the person I accidentally bumped into was a pale-faced, curly-haired young man who was glued to see me, "I'm a ghost in his eyes. Jeez .. I don't have time to serve it even though I'm wrong, the important thing is I've apologized."

Whatever .. My focus is only on Brother Litha now. I continued to run until I arrived in front of the operating room.

"Sister!"

I called out to Brother-in-law who was bowed beside the operation door. The light above still indicates the operation is ongoing.

"It!"

For God's sake, only this time did I see the desperate image of a Young Master who possessed power and glory. Not different from anyone else at all. The disheveled hair, the tired face from crying, and the blank but still hopeful eyes.

I wanted to strengthen her, strengthen each other by hugging her, but– I knew Brother Litha would not be pleased. Never mind hugging, I said I like Sister-in-law - liking as a sister-just warned her hard to keep the attitude. So, it's better we just sit side by side without any physical contact.

"What's really going on, brother?" my many.

"I'm sorry, Nia. I'm wrong I can't take care of your brother. It should have been me who drove him home, "sorry Sister-in-law lowered her head and hooked both hands on her thighs.

From the brief story of the incident, I was able to capture that there was something in the past that had not been resolved. The former Sister-in-law felt cheated on my sister so she tried to hurt Brother Litha and the baby inside her stomach. Whatever competition Mr. Sas keep Mrs Pradipta of course lost if ganged in unfavorable conditions, besides her age is no longer young. Brother Litha had a stab wound in his deep shoulder and Mr Sas suffered a severe concussion, now he is still in the ICU, critically.

"Then how's ex-Sister-in-law doing?"

"I wish he were dead!" my connection in my heart.

"He got a gunshot wound to the chest for protecting me from his father who wanted to shoot me."

"Well! Protecting? For love like that? Love what! ... Is Brother-in-law moved by his actions?" I'm getting a little emotional.

"I was very angry and did not accept his actions towards Litha, but I also cannot deny that he saved my life."

"By being such a shield. Then after he realized, he would ask for the return of the favor to marry Brother-in-law. Because of the debt of life, Brother-in-law will compensate even if he does not grant his request. But whatever it is, it's bound to hurt Litha's sister for life."

"It! Where'd you get that thought?"

His eyes were round at me. I defied the manic, "That's the most common move that toxic women like her do" I said grumpily.

Brother-in-law took a deep breath and then exhaled loudly, I knew she wanted to protest my sentence but could not reply.

"Sister, if indeed she is a good woman– who can think well. He will not involve himself in this incident. He will accept everything that God has destined. Why should he be Brother-in-law's shield? He should have been able to prevent it before the shooting. It means it's the result of his own actions."

Without letting go of the clutches of my eyes on the other person, I emphasized once again, "Must I say, Brother-in-law is negligent in looking after my brother. Sister-in-law is also still stuck memories of the former past to always hesitate to take a stance, sometimes firm sometimes soft and that is not the attitude of a real man ... Plin-plan under the pretext of not feeling good."

His eyes bulged as if to kill me, I really offended the person of a Young Master, but that was a sign that what I said just now had a point.

"Ray!"

Someone's voice shifted his desire to finish me off, I turned my gaze to see who the owner of the voice was.

"Sas' brother just died." Mr. Firza gave the sad news.

"A– what? Mr Sas– Mr Sas died? They don't give the best treatment. What hospital is this!" exclaimed Brother-in-law shocked and angry.

"You'd better go to the ICU right now, there's his sister and nephew there."

Sister-in-law worried about seeing the operating room door.

"Sister, let me wait for Brother Litha. Go there, there's a family to strengthen."

The sturdy man rubbed his face, tonight was very hard for him to pass. "I'm taking my wife, Nia. Call me right away if the doctor comes out of the operating room" he said.

I'm nodding. Although I do not know the close figure of Mr. Sas, but he is the most loyal person to Brother Litha. He was the only one from the Pradipta Family who cared and strengthened my brother when he was down. Until finally he remained faithful and was by my brother's side guarding and protecting until the end of his life.

"Anyone else can be this loyal to you, brother. Moreover, I am your only sister. I will not let anyone who has hurt you oppress you again. He'll deal with me."

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