The Heart of Vania
Strong Rooted

At 01.45 am I jolted waking up without cause or nightmare. My eyes opened so lightly and brought my mind to the figure of a man named Abyan Pratama who was 12 years older than me.

I also contemplated why I could not control myself when thinking about or being close to him. If I am happy, I show it very enthusiastically, and vice versa if angry or upset I lose the teachings of manners that Father and Mother always teach.

Do I like it? And I'm jealous knowing she likes someone else? Why am I so upset every time I hear that woman's name?

I realized there was something I didn't understand before. I thought it was just admiring him– admired his adult attitude in thinking and acting but it turned out that he also had a selfish and stubborn feeling like a boy.

Ironically, when his heart loves others, he is bound to a myth. Which is stronger, first love or ancestral power? Suppose he submits to the myth, am I happy? Sure didn't! Although I want it but I want to feel that it is present naturally not because of any power.

I woke up from my sleep peeking at the sky with the curtains of the bedroom window. The moon is full of yellow light, beating out the starlight around it. It felt like there was a strange feeling while observing the moon, the feeling of being hugged and caressed by Mother.

"If only he kissed me with the same feelings as me, I couldn't have been hurt ... How sad I was to experience it in my first moment, my first love and kiss. Ah, it's up to him to do anything, with anyone and anywhere, it's none of my business. I am more valuable ... I just need to turn off the taste for him that has grown unnoticed. I will learn and practice more, diligently build connections with a good image and strengthen myself more," said me monologue staring at the Moon.

Yan's assistant was the learning in my life after my father's death and Serena's bullying. I have to face it, not to run let alone give up. Father gave me the nickname Xena Aryasena not without reason but because I was a fighter since childhood, the defender of the family who advanced the front if anyone said bad.

So, no matter the truth about the curse of the Ragnaya Tribe woman, I still have to stand straight in front of her by raising my face. Showing her that even though my image is like a bad month, I never doubt myself ... I am Vania Kirana Larasati I am confident and special.

...***...

The next morning we had breakfast together at the dinner table as usual, it was just that the presence of Assistant Yan who had yet to appear resulted in Aunt Lidya's countenance becoming gloomy.

"Where's the kid?" bibi muttered softly but her voice could still be heard because there was no conversation on the dining table.

"Maybe stuck, Bi," replied Litha without being asked by wiping her big belly.

"Be careful if he doesn't come now! Aunty's coming home to Area C this afternoon."

"Aunt ...."

Kak Litha's voice gripped tightly onto Aunt Lidya's hand sitting beside her. She must be sad because she will be left behind by the figure of her mother before her delivery.

"Mas," called Brother Litha by turning to Brother-in-law. Her voice was more sad even her eyes were already glazed, asking her husband how to prevent Aunt Lidya from returning home.

"He must apologize to Miss Vania, Madam. Yesterday he did something that made Miss sad. He must be responsible for what he did."

Be accountable.

Puked.

What is the liability for forced kissing?

"But Auntie doesn't have to go, does she?" he rubbed his watery eyes.

I saw Brother-in-law grabbing the phone that was near her plate in a huff, "It's okay, Bi. Auntie, revenge for me, I'm satisfied" I said, persuading Aunt Lidya to abandon her intentions.

"Revenge? What's he doing? And what did Auntie do to him?"

" ... "

It seems that I mispronounced, Brother Litha is the best observer and analyzer I have ever met. His brain intelligence makes him always think critically even though he looks calm.

"Yan, where are you? Come here soon now! I don't want my wife to cry because Bibi wants to go home because her son ran away from responsibility. If that happens, Vivian will be fired and don't expect her to work at another hospital."

Brother-in-law instantly hung up the phone after giving the order with emotion. He was so upset to see his wife's tears fall that he even threatened to fire the woman's–.

"It's okay. Aunt will not go home ... Abyan will be here soon. Don't cry, if you're sad our baby can feel it, too" said Sister-in-law, calming Brother Litha while rubbing her stomach and kissing her forehead. Aih, seeing him makes me so envious.

My brother nodded and smiled, Sister-in-law managed to comfort him. I don't know why my mood wasn't as good as before Sister-in-law mentioned the doctor's name. Oh no! I've vowed that I'm tough in any situation, just because I hear one name, my mood gets disturbed. What kind of mental is that?

Suddenly there were fast galloping footsteps from the direction of the living room.

"You're crazy Ray! What do you mean threaten me with someone else!" he was rude as soon as he saw Brother-in-law.

"ABYAN! Keep your manners!" angered Aunt Lidya at her son who instantly made Assistant Yan speechless a thousand languages.

Silent. Everything's awkward.

"I know your sister really likes chocolate made by husband and wife Tubagus. I asked them to make it this morning as an apology for careless teaching Vania yesterday, so I'm late for breakfast," assistant Yan said giving the reason for the delay while removing a box of chocolate from the paper bag he was carrying.

Yes, I really like chocolate. The chocolate is named after its maker, Tubagus. Sales of chocolate they do not use ready stock system but ordered in advance newly made according to the request of the Order. *the most popular*R*equest is usually chocolate with a filling of nuts or pieces of fresh fruit.

"Vania? You greet Miss directly by her name?" aunt Lidya asked not to accept.

"He asked me to call him that. Just ask him. Is it in my mom's eyes that I'm always misbehaving?"

Dugs.

Sister-in-law clenched her hands and lightly hit the dining table, turning towards her best friend cynically, "Yan, what's wrong with you? Aunt just asked you. You don't have to answer that one."

Brother-in-law's voice turned cold. It looks like the atmosphere of breakfast this morning will be more runny if I do not mediate, especially Brother Litha looks rubbed his stomach and grimaced a little due to contractions because his mood is not good.

"You gave me chocolate? Fill what?"

"24 parts with all the nuts stuffing."

Glug.

"Nuts?" Brother Litha's voice surprised us all.

"Why?" ask Sister-in-law.

"Nia ti–"

"i like it. Thank you Assistant Yan. Sit down and spend your breakfast well because after this we will learn to drive again," I said cutting Kak Litha's sentence that if spoken will make the atmosphere become awkward again, "Oh yes, Bi. Yesterday I asked Assistant Yan to call my name directly so that I would be more familiar while studying."

"You still want to learn? Not yesterday you–"

"It was just a momentary emotion, Brother-in-law. I admitted wrong because yesterday did not focus on learning so I stepped on the pedal wrong ... I'm sorry for ruining the birdhouse and brother's car. I hope Brother doesn't ask me for compensation because I don't have the money to replace it," I said as calmly as possible, admitting wrong and apologizing doesn't mean losing.

"I'll replace him, Nia. You study seriously because you're gonna need the ability to drive a car someday."

"Don't Litha's sister challenge me to learn how to drive?" tanyaku squinted his eyes.

"Your brother opened my eyes. All this time I was afraid you were hurt and sad. I don't want to see you endure your pain and crying anymore. But I forgot that you're our tough Xena, who doesn't cry easily if it doesn't really hurt. Have the spirit to learn so that you can get your dream." said Litha gave encouragement.

I'm so moved. From the sitting position facing my older sister, I immediately ran to turn my back to Brother-in-law to hug her with a bow. This is what I need since yesterday– hugged him calms my heart, but now he is always overpowered Sister-in-law.

"Don't hold her for too long, my baby still wants to eat."

I take off my arms, "Ck, why is it so hard to hug my sister after marriage? Pawang Kak Litha is too selfish, maybe later he will also behave so my nephew," I protested as I walked back to the chair.

"NIU! Don't piss me off! Sit down and finish your breakfast" Brother-in-law said, "You are also Abyan. Wasn't tired of standing up from now on? Spend your breakfast and teach Vania properly."

Assistant Yan complied and followed behind me to sit in his chair which was on my right side.

"And Auntie, don't even think about leaving this house without my wife's consent" she said.

"Ba– is good, sir."

"Also Mr. Is," he said glancing at the Chief Servant who had devoted his life before Young Master Pradipta was born.

"Sir Is?" ask us all to be astonished.

"Do I need to take you to an eye doctor? or to an ear doctor? For the sake of a goose's heart and a snail, you close your eyes and ears until I fumble over what's really going on in my own house," insinuations Sister-in-law who immediately made Mr. Is paled with a standing position like a statue in the kitchen of the main house.

I coded Aunt Lidya from across the table, our thoughts are the same, from which this arrogant President knows.

"Didn't Brother-in-law know about Assistant Yan kissing me?" I am angry in my heart.

The atmosphere returned cold and awkward, no one dared to speak. Brother Litha is sensitive, she asks a lot of small and light things to Sister-in-law, occasionally commenting on her answer with laughter until Brother-in-law's smile expands again. We could all be relieved to breathe after a moment of stumbling.

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"Sorry."

A word came out softly from the mouth of the man who smelled mint as I was about to learn to drive. I like that fresh smell.

"Sorry for what?"

"My work yesterday."

"That's it, there's no need to talk about it anymore. I'm sorry or not, it won't change anything that's gone by. So– for the common good I will forgive even though I deeply regret it," I said flatly without looking at it.

"..."

"I dreamed of having my first kiss with the person I love and love, in order to have a deep impression. But– at least even though my dream fell I still have a deep impression ... Forced kiss without feeling."

"..."

I faced towards her who was confused in response to my remark, looking at her directly in seriousness.

God, why am I so confident?

"I like you, Assistant Yan."

His eyes widened, his body stiffened and his mouth half-opened the sign he had a tremendous shock attack.

"Haha ... You think I'll just let you go without taking responsibility for your lewd deeds? Like you said, I'm a stinking boy, but what you don't know is that my rhizome's roots aren't easily uprooted because it's deeply rooted through the rock."

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