The Heart of Vania
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The PoV Main Character

I came under fire from a college friend for not informing me of my engagement to Assistant Yan. Everyone was raving and protesting against me, except for Nezar. He even stayed away if I was around him.

"Kok Nezar kind of avoids me, huh?" I asked when I saw Nezar turning his bike back when it looked like he would come to us who were gathered in the cafeteria yard.

"She hurt you're already engaged," replied Anna.

"Duh, I did deliberately not tell you before. He must be mad."

"Yeee .. not angry because it was the time, Nia. He really is hurt. Your time is not sensitive, anyway? Your friendzone is too comfortable anyway," said Niko.

"meaning?"

"Nezar likes you. B-get! You are the one who is unconscious. Listen you fiancee, crying in the corner of the child," replied Niko blatantly.

Heh. Nezar likes me? Since when?

"She knows that she likes a Miss Pradipta, so she has never expressed herself to you. He told us all that he would make himself strong before he told you, but the guy he likes to hunt fiancees, the same important person in Pradipta Corp. again. The further, uh wrong, the more unreachable, hehehe ...."

I fell silent, not believing what Anna was saying. Even more ridiculous, everyone knows except myself.

"It's okay, Nia. Nezar just needs time to accept the reality" Winie said with a smile.

"I-I really didn't expect that–"

"He forbade us all to tell you. If anyone does, we won't be helped by him anymore."

"What help?" many wonder.

"All our duties are always assisted by Nezar, individuals and groups."

"What! You all are!" I swear to my friends.

"Only Nezar can we expect. Other smart students are too stingy to share knowledge" Anna said.

I gawk, sharing science? Hahaha .. who is asked for an answer or asked to write, haishh ... Many friends were so loyal to Nezar, not limited to college friends but anyone who knew him. The young man is known to be light-handed, although he has nothing material, he sincerely helps with what he has even if only in the form of energy or mind. It was also what made me happy to be friends with him, but I didn't think at all that his feelings for me were more than good friends. Jhsosha ....

"Nezar is a good man. If you were equal, without being asked I would fight you" said Winie, a fat girl.

"Well, am I not equal to Nezar?"

"It's not you who are not equal to Nezar but Nezar and all of us who are not equal to you. Even so you are not the same as the girl from other rich families who are arrogant and like to demean people. You behave and talk just like us and not stingy," replied Roni who had been silent.

"He's also one of the many people who like you other than Nezar, but he's more self-aware so he can accept the reality of your engagement" said Anna pointing to Roni with the tail of her eyes, it's obvious that Roni's in the fog.

Heh. Again I was surprised, "There may be someone like me, two more people, hahaha ...."

"Sad. This is an insensitive child liked by men almost half of campus. That's just our majors, not yet other majors and forces besides us. Hence, in a certain department you are considered a threat to the students."

"Raciation! Economic and health children are all looking at me. Often I bathe, what am I wrong and where? Turns out oh turned out–"

All chuckled except Roni who misbehaved.

"Ron, don't be awkward ah, it's normal," said Niko patted the skinny man on the shoulder.

"It could be the news of your engagement to be breaking heart news all at once, hahaha ... Miss Pradipta is looking for an equal partner, others do not care, hahaha ...."

"Hush! What the hell! You and I are all equal. I got engaged to him because of Young Master Pradipta's orders, you know, no one can refuse his orders" I said.

Everyone widened their eyes, shocked.

"Wow! Matchmaking in the rich man's neighborhood," Angel cerocos.

"Because reportedly the Young Master's Assistant is difficult to fall in love, so it is betrothed, hahaha ..." continued Winie.

"Means you guys have no feeling dong because of being betrothed. Are you happy, Nia?" asked Roni who immediately made us all speechless, especially me.

"What the hell, Ron! Just ruin the mood." Anna pinched Roni's arm.

"Eng .. You eat first. I'm looking for Nezar" I said, wearing a backpack.

"No agreement on the happy news?" ask Niko.

"Eh, you think you're just eating. Change ... find the time for me to treat. Want to eat where I leave it to you, okay? I'll find Nezar now."

"OK," they said together.

I have to find Nezar and talk to him, after all he is my main support system on campus. He helped me a lot in every project work until personal affairs, even the duck motorbike he used to drive like his own so free I borrowed.

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"ZAR, DON'T RUN AWAY!" I screamed when I saw her going away because I saw me coming towards her.

He was silent with an uncharacteristically warm look

"Zar, are we talking while we sit down? I'm tired of looking for you."

He looked at me silently then walked over to the seat that was in the suburban park of the parking area.

"Here you go," he asked, sitting down.

I nodded and sat down beside him. This place is shady, will only be exposed to heat from the sun in the afternoon.

"Congratulations" he said without seeing me.

"What?" I pretended not to understand.

"On your engagement, good luck."

He chuckled but what I heard was like an innuendo to laugh at my sentence just now.

"Hmmppffhh ...." He took a long breath.

"Zar, my friends say you like me, right?" I just want to go straight to the point.

He turned his face and looked into my bead.

"Yes." Yeah."

Lousy. I was at a loss for words to reply to one final word.

"But I'm self-conscious, Nia. Our differences are too far away. Yesterday I was so naively determined to steady myself for you. Now I realize that it can never be and I'm ashamed to have made the impossible in front of my friends."

"Nezar, you're so nice to me, you never talk rudely and considerate but I didn't think you liked me one bit."

"Why? Because I don't deserve you, do I? I'm only suited to be your maid," he said scathingly.

"Zar! What the hell are you talking about! It's not a matter of merit or not being here. All this time I was insecure with myself because of my pale skin. I never expected anyone even men would like me. That's why I was so surprised to find out how you felt about me."

"Oh yeah? Is the engagement a joke?" Nezar's still insinuating me.

"What do you mean?"

"You said you didn't believe in being liked by others, but the truth is you had a serious bond and then you asked what it meant! Oh shi*t!" his mouth was full of restrained emotions.

I sighed before saying, "Zar, I am only fulfilling Young Master Pradipta's request. I respect his decision very much."

The look on his face was shocked, "What's the basis for him doing it?"

"Because my fiance has already taken my first kiss, hehehe ..." I replied grinning while trying to lighten the mood.

"What!" pekik. The look on his face was more shocking than ever .

"This is just a time of exploration, Zar. His decision remained in my hands after graduating college to continue or not. I purposely tied Assistant Yan up so that he would lose four years of his age."

"You hung his soul mate for four years. Do you know what you're doing, Nia? Obstructing a soul mate will bring your life into misfortune, except–"

"Except what?"

"Unless you actually have feelings for her too."

I breathe again, heavy.

"Maybe I used to have feelings for her but she broke my heart so many times, so now I don't know how I feel about her. I just wanted to punish him because he kissed me."

"And! Don't you realize you still have feelings for her? If not, why would you punish him? That explains his position in your heart and you're not just wasting his time but yours."

"But I am very hurt by all the names he calls me, Zar. From the month of misfortune, matre, vindictive to like that cheap woman he said so lightly."

"Do you know why you're still engaged to her? The time of the four lost years is not worth your wasted time, Nia. If only you could wait, I could just keep you steady and make you fall in love with me" she said, holding both shoulders in a trembling voice.

I shook my head and lowered his hand from my shoulder, "Be like usual. Whether or not my engagement with him has not affected me at all. It was just a status that did not know how it ended up. Now I'm focused on myself, Zar."

The atmosphere returned awkward, without him realizing my best friend expressed his feelings directly to me.

"There's something I want to tell you," I looked into her eyes with a smile, "I can't help your feelings– and if you insist on proving who you are to me, I can't ban it either. The future is a mystery, all we can do now is just do the best for ourselves."

"Does that mean you– you're still giving me a chance to get you?"

I chuckled, "I didn't say that. I just want us to be like always. Our friendship should not be affected by my engagement or your feelings, but we also cannot guess the future. Whose soul, whose soul mate ... I don't want to imagine for that ... If you still want to fight for me, I can't ban it but I can't promise anything either."

He smiled, understanding my words, "I will continue to fight for you, Vania. No matter you're engaged, I'll take your heart away at any moment. Let alone fiancee, marriage alone can be divorced."

"God! Watch what you say! It's a different story about being married."

"Whatever, I'll keep waiting for you."

"Remember, I didn't promise you anything, Nezar. Are you ready for the fate later, even if you're disappointed?"

"Yes. Whether you promise or not is none of my business. My business is just being by your side until you don't want me."

"Please, but you shouldn't close your heart to anyone else, who knows if someone might catch your attention? I don't want my life to be poor for getting in the way of your soul mate."

He shook his head vigorously, stood up and raised his hands like a prayerful gesture and turned his head to heaven, "O LORD, PUT ME WITH THIS WOMAN BESIDE ME EVEN THOUGH SHE DOES NOT WANT TO. YOU ARE ALL HEART-REVERSAL AND DESTINY, GIVE ME MY PRAYERS."

All eyes in the parking area focused on him because of Nezar's loud speech. Absolutely disgraceful!

"You want to be a bouncer?"

A very familiar voice suddenly startled us.

"I suggest a young man like you know himself. Besides she's Miss Pradipta, she's also my fiancee."

Assistant Yan immediately embraced my shoulder which I immediately brushed aside in a standing manner. "She's really been a stalker, always following me to college."

"Why are you here, Assistant Yan? Not working?" I make the sound as normal as possible.

"How can I work if my fiancee is to be taken? I guess who dares to be my rival– turns out to be just a shabby student like this."

"Stop degrading my friend, Assistant Yan! It's enough that I'm free you value." I said grumpily.

"Then take care of your attitude. Remember status! And you–" He warned me then pointed at Nezar with his sharp eyes, "You should also know your status. Making friends with Miss Pradipta is like getting a goddess of luck. Don't be greedy, Young Man!"

SIR.

I stepped on my fiancee's feet in great annoyance, regardless of her pain, I pulled Nezar's hand instead, "Zar, let's go back to class. No need to hear her words."

From the tail of my eyes, I caught the smile of Nezar's victory that was exhibited to Assistant Yan. I make sure the man with sturdy body and brown eyes must be half-dead, hahaha .... How, no pain? Your pride feels hurt, isn't it because I'd rather go with my best friend than my fiancee? Yes, yes ... I will remember my status because our relationship is just a mere status.

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