Who Is Pregnant With My Child?
With John

I screamed loudly with my fist that was already swinging forward. If only he had been close to me, I might have punched him in the face.

His face had now turned red, at least appearing purple.

"Hey, don't be like this? What exactly is going on? Mama can hear your voice all the way through the hospital hall." Shouted Mama to me.

Mama walked into my room with a few cups of drinks and a muffin cake.

"What do you expect to happen between us? Do you think that we're going to apologize to each other and fall in love again?" I said with annoyance.

"No! But Mama thinks that you two can at least act according to your age. To think that you two are the parents of the three children horrifies Mama." Mama shook her head and put the food and drink on the table in my room.

"I'm a very good mother to my children." My speech.

"Oh yeah, Mama knows that." Mama then sat down and looked at me. "Adel, Mama didn't protest against any choice you made when you wanted to continue your pregnancy. At that time Mama thought that it was just one baby, but it's three babies..."

"I just thought that I had two babies." I reply to interrupt Mama's words.

"Mama let you do what you think is a good thing for you." My mother ignored my words. "When you want to go and stay away from home and continue your studies, Mama doesn't stop you either. Mama just said that Mama would do whatever you need her to do for you. But now, you have to listen to Mama. You and John are gonna spend the next 3 weeks alone. Mama's gonna take care of those three kids." Mama dropped a bomb on me.

After that, Mama looked back at the food that was brought.

"How much sugar do you want?" Mama asked John and me with a bag of sugar.

Mama ignored the expressions on our faces that were both surprised by the wide open mouth after hearing Mama's words earlier.

...****************...

Three days later Mama still insists on the plan 'Support John and Adel to get back together again...'

And what makes things worse is that Sofia and Justin are so busy falling in love with each other. The two of them in this situation even realize that they love each other. I didn't expect that the two of them could be like that, especially Justin. But Sofia told me that everyone deserves to fall in love.

'Ah, it sucks that both of them. I'll probably do a plan for a little retaliation to them later. Haha....'

I'm not at all angry or disappointed if they both love each other, because honestly my feelings for Justin are not love. I just love him as a friend. But still, I feel a little awkward with their current relationship.

So here I am now, seeing my Mama packing my things, like the clothes I'm going to wear for the next 3 weeks that more Mama bought with Sofia.

I wasn't allowed to look at the clothes and it worried me. However, we will be escorted by Justin's car to a place called by Sofia as a place that will be very happy and she gave the nickname of the place as 'a nest of love.'

Mama said that the place was a small house that Mama bought a few years ago. But Mama never had a chance to use the place.

"Ma, I told you that I don't want to go. John and I were gonna be there for three weeks just to yell at each other and fight." I'm upset.

"Adel, a fight will only happen between the two of you, if none of you try to make things better. Listen, Mama, if you don't want to do this for yourself or John, then think about those three kids. Think of the diamond moon and their Star has grown up without their Papa figure because of their Mama and Papa as well. That means you and John are too lazy to try to give your relationship a chance." Say Mama.

I looked at Mama in silence. My mom never spoke to me like that. At the same time, I felt that what Mama said was true. I let out a breath. Maybe we should give our relationship a chance this time. If not for us, then for the kids.

"All right, I'll try. But I don't want to promise John or anything like that, that it's gonna work." My speech.

"You know, it's very funny. Because that's what John told Mama." Say Mama.

After that my mother left my room with a suitcase that I did not know how it contained with a mysterious expression on Mama's face. I could only stare at Mama and breathe out.

That's my Mama....

I smiled and walked out of the room and followed Mama to meet the others.

...****************...

3 Hours later....

I was ready to tie John to his feet and let the animals eat him alive. We hadn't even arrived at the house yet and he was already driving.

First, he turned on the music that was his favorite music.

'I mean.... Come on. He's listening to metal music. What the fuck?'

I didn't even know that there was such a type of music and I hoped that I would never find it.

At a time like this, Sofia and Justin who were sitting on the back bench looked happy. They laughed because I was uncomfortable with this trip.

"John, can you turn off that shitty music?" My speech. "I'm tired of hearing it." Continue with a voice that sounds so upset.

"What do you mean?" John asked with a confused face.

"The music was so ugly and it broke my ears." I said slowly.

John looked at me with a surprised-looking face.

"This music is so cool. It's called classical music. How can you possibly say that music is boring and ugly." John's Protest.

"That sounds like...."

Then the journey in the car began to be quiet.

Then John turned on the radio in the car playing some other music. I looked out the window. The scenery changed from urban and now it looks rice fields and grass there are also tall trees. The clouds and blue sky were greeting along the way and it felt very peaceful.

"How long until we get there?" I asked Sofia.

"Oh it's only about 15 minutes or a little longer." Reply Sofia.

Sofia and Justin have gone there before to see the location of the house. That was why the two called the place the 'love nest.'

Twenty minutes later, we finally pulled over in front of the yard of a small house made of wood. There were trees surrounding the house and also a flower garden that was around the front of the small house.

"It's beautiful." I spoke slowly to myself, but it didn't seem too slow because John looked at me and smiled at me.

It wasn't the mocking smile she'd been giving me lately, but it was the smile she'd always given me in the past when she said she still loved me.

My heart stopped beating, seeing the beautiful smile on her lips. It made me fall back in love with him. Maybe all of these plans will work and for the first time in a long time, I hope that all of this can indeed work to improve our relationship. I realized that I was still in love with John.

A few moments passed....

I tried to be nice to John after Justin and Sofia left. But he thought that I was making a stupid plan for him. And I didn't do it. I'm just trying to make all this go well.

Right now I am sitting on the porch of this little house hoping that everything will go well. Even if I try to do all this well to her, she won't try it herself.

I mean, I might ruin the life plan he wanted. She wanted to be able to travel the world for fun with her friends instead of being stuck with our twins and she didn't like the mother of her twins either.

There was only one reason until he could sleep with me back then. And that's all because he was drunk. I look back to the past and it always shows that I found a reason why we couldn't make it while we were together in our relationship. But if that's what he wants, then fine. He can get it. I'll give him space for him to stay alone for the next 3 weeks.

I sat on the porch with tears falling down my cheeks without cues. I just wish that I could turn back the clock when everything was okay. I'll make things work out and maybe he can still love me like he used to.

...****************...

I was cooking dinner on the second night when we were forced into this place by Mama. John is out of the house. He had been going to a lake beside the house all day.

That's where he spends all his time. I kept hoping that he would come closer to me. Maybe he could see that he still loved me. But he didn't do it at all.

"Attribute!"

I heard her voice calling me from the front door. I went to see what was going on and I started laughing after seeing him.

There John stood drenched from his feet to his head which was also filled with mud.

"What happened to you?" I asked who was still laughing.

"What do I look like to you?" His voice sounded full of emotion.

I stopped laughing and even stopped laughing so suddenly. I forgot that he wasn't the old John I could still ask to joke around with.

"sorry. Dinner will be ready in half an hour, go take a shower or do whatever you want." My words were violently trying to stop my voice that sounded trembling.

I held myself back from wanting to cry. He really is a shitty guy and also a loser.

All I could do was wait until this time to end soon. I decided to go back to the kitchen, but his voice called me back.

"Do you mind helping me?" Her speech.

"By doing what?" I shouted at him in anger.

"Hmmm.... A towel might help me right now." The reply.

"It's up to you John just go get your own towel." I said with annoyance.

"Hey, I thought you'd do it. But thanks for the advice." Reply John grinned and he seemed to walk towards the bathroom which made the floor filled with mud and also water.

I went straight back to the kitchen. I was so angry that he spoke to me like that. But at the same time I tried not to cry. I miss the part of John and my relationship with him that is full of love and friendship.

In the past, he would definitely punch someone who spoke to me so rudely like that. But right now, he's the one who's talking rudely to me.

I went back to cooking dinner with tears falling on my cheeks.

"Adel?" John said slowly from the door.

My position was on her back, so I tried to quickly wipe away my tears. But I felt her hands on my waist and she immediately twisted my body.

When she saw me with my crying face, her face immediately went from confused to worried so quickly.

"What's wrong? Did you burn yourself or something?" Ask John.

I tried to push her away from me, but she held me very firmly. I don't want him to see the tears or the sadness on my face.

Seriate....