Become Him
Become Him

Rachel couldn't help but be curious not to re-enter Nata's study. The workspace that made Rachel in the first snapped when she had just stayed two days in this house.

At that time Rachel was about to put Nata's briefcase into the room but suddenly Nata pulled the hand of Rachel who was just about to reach the door handle.

“Do not be insolent you!” nata's loud and booming voice roared back in Rachel's ear cavity.

The pain from the back beat clearly felt punching his heart. And right now, it feels like Rachel understands why Nata forbade her from entering the study. Not without reason, but because Nata was hiding something from him.

Yeah, something Rachel didn't expect to find.

Rachel was still standing in front of the door of Nata's study. His trembling hand tried steadily to grab the door handle and turn it around until the door opened. The coldness welcomed her back, welcoming the possibility that Rachel should be prepared to accept.

The door to Rachel's study closed tightly and locked it. He walked towards Nata's desk with a troubled feeling.

He stood in front of the drawer, took a few breaths and exhaled slowly. With fear and sadness he ventured to reopen the second drawer.

Rachel's eyes immediately glazed over as she looked at the same photo she had first seen. A beautiful smiling woman. Beside him there must be someone because he saw that there was a sturdy hand that was coiling around hugging the Woman from the side. Unfortunately the photo of someone beside the woman was already in forcibly torn. It's just, Rachel recognized exactly who the sturdy hand belonged to.

Of course it belongs to Nata.

Not until there, Rachel flipped the photo and there seemed to be a line of sentences like poetry.

“Your breathing is opium, which brings my wish to freeze every time it blows in my face. Your figure is longing, which gives me direction to go home and dock.”

“You are the most perfect miracle among the many bad things that have happened to me. And you, the last direction that I will always go until time stops without permission.”

“My love, Aruni.”

"Deg!" Rachel's heart stopped beating for a while.

“Akh...” Rachel's breath felt heavy reading the line of poetry full of love that he could not breathe when he felt like there was a crushing blow that hit his heart.

Rachel's body nearly collapsed, she held onto Nata's chair which stood firmly beside her. Rachel was crying without sobbing, only her tears were dripping endlessly until her vision was very faint. Believe me, sobbing it takes strength and courage to admit that he was destroyed.

Looking at the photo, Rachel realized that, uh,

That woman is beautiful.

She looks like Marsya.

And the woman was loved wholeheartedly by Nata.

What else should he admit now? His heart is broken?

Yes, of course it was very ruined. Both of his legs were even trembling, barely able to support his light weight like cotton. Seeing this photo makes Rachel feel that her hope to be loved Nata is indeed only wishful thinking. The reason Rachel had never felt Nata's feeling of love was now clearly filling her mind and this left her claustrophobic.

“Why do you still keep your photos? Why did you hide this from me?”

Rachel asked inwardly, was this woman also the one who brought with her all Nata's love to nothing and nothing left?

Rachel was still curious about what she saw. He was looking for more facts he should know.

Accidentally, in the third drawer Rachel finds a photo album. His chest was already rustling first just because he saw the pink photo cover with a heart image in the middle. Why does Nata keep this, doesn't he hate everything that's pink?

Rachel did not remain silent. He opened the photo album one by one. He was again stunned when he saw the many photos of Nata and this woman named Aruni there.

Rachel rubbed a photo of Nata laughing wide. Beside him was the beautiful woman trying to feed the paste into Nata's mouth.

No, this woman is the one who can make her husband laugh.

On the next page, there are photos of Aruni. Her appearance was simple, her face was plain without any makeup and other beautiful things that radiated naturally.

Wait, there's something weird that Rachel found.

Rachel noticed many things from Aruni's figure. How to dress, the color of the lipstick that Nata allows to use, the height of the shoe that should not be too high, the, the hairstyle Nata likes and of course a photo of a place to eat with a menu of food that is foreign to Rachel. Right, sushi restaurant.

Nata was with the woman there. From the balloon decorations, it seemed like they were celebrating their anniversary. The candle lit between them, there was a beautiful flower bucket, a red ring box photographed in the photo Rachel saw.

While the ring is embedded in the woman's finger and the middle is kissed by Nata. A sincere and loving look, Nata clearly showed the woman who was sitting upright and could not help her smile.

Rachel immediately moved to another page. In this courtyard Rachel sees Aruni just waking up and wearing the exact same nightgown as hers. Maroon red color, Nata's favorite. The woman stretched out her arms as if welcoming Nata to come into her arms.

“Buk!”

Rachel decided to close the album. The defense is already weak looking at all the romance portraits between Nata and Aruni. She seemed to have no gaps in their relationship despite her current status as Nata's wife.

Rachel now understood, why Nata could never accept it. Rachel also understood why the items Nata had bought for her were such items.

Because, the one Nata loves is Aruni. Forever only Aruni to Nata as if to turn Rachel into Him. She, Aruni, is the woman Nata loves very much.

"Akh shit," said Rachel slowly half in despair.

At this point, Rachel could only be stunned to find the red thread she had managed to string in her mind. His body could no longer be as firm as before. Too weak to lay his body on the carpet looking at a photo of Nata wearing a suit. The teardrops kept dripping along with the wasted feeling that came as he realized his current position.

He can understand why Nata always looks tense when meeting Marsya. Of course, because of his figure that looks like Aruni and has always been the woman he loves.

Where is he now? What if then the woman comes back between him and Nata? Is it not the one that will eventually be wasted?

So, what to do now? Is it worse like this?

It feels, the position is too difficult if the rival Rachel is the past Nata is too beautiful with Aruni.

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