Become Him
Prepare for the next loss
Ivana was still silent in front of a large window. He did not move even a little from his place and still looked at Martha who was lying in the ICU room. Again, he must be prepared to feel the loss of his parents after one year ago he lost his father.
Like dejavu, all the tension was when the houseman told her that Martha was in the hospital a few hours ago. He drove his car recklessly just as he was chasing time to meet his father who had a heart attack while he was out of town.
According to doctors, Martha still responded when she arrived at the hospital. Little by little his consciousness decreased along with the amount of bleeding in his large brain. Several blood vessels in his brain ruptured, making the medical team difficult to cope with the health condition Martha, especially his age is not young anymore.
“We've been trying to stop the bleeding in his head. The patient should be performed surgery but with his advanced age and his health condition deteriorates rapidly, the biggest risk is, the patient can die on the operating table.”
Ivana could only smother her mouth as her chest cry almost broke again. The doctor's explanation a moment ago seemed to confirm that Martha's life might not be helped anymore. His life was entirely dependent on the tools attached to his body. The image on the monitor that continues to soften and occasionally fast also sounds loud with red indicator lights, as if adding to Ivana's precarious feeling.
Martha's critical condition, leads Ivana to remember all of Martha's attitude towards her and towards Brandon which often leaves Ivana hurt. But seeing that woman was helpless, what could she do. He could not even hate the woman who had given birth to him and took good care of him.
Martha with her strong and emotional disposition, often uncontrolled in both speaking and behaving. Many people are hurt by their words and actions. And she should have apologized to Rachel so that her mother wouldn't get more tormented by the pain she inflicted on her daughter-in-law who was so respectful and affectionate with her.
If Martha wanted to open her eyes, see how much effort Rachel to take Martha's heart. Rachel treated Martha like her own mother.
Many times he saw, Rachel who accidentally woke up early only to prepare water soaking Martha's legs when her mother was sick. Rachel secretly prepares warm tea for her mother before Martha goes down and has breakfast. Rachel is busiest whenever Martha is sick because Martha loves being massaged by Rachel. Rachel was so sleepy to take care of Martha all night without ever complaining at all.
Rachel also turns on the diffusser aromatheraphy so Martha can sleep well and Rachel who secretly learns to cook online in order to cook healthy food for Martha who often complains of numbness and tingling in the his left side of his body.
“Mamah why hate Rachel so much? What's wrong with Rachel as mama?” muttered Ivana lirih. He rubbed the wide glass with his trembling hands and full of tears. It felt stifling because the question had been unanswered all along.
“How mamah?” ask Nata who just arrived.
Ivana turned her head and hugged Nata.
“Mama Ta, mamah koma.” That shrill cry was clearly heard by Nata.
Nata was unable to speak. Only a suffocating breath could be heard from Nata's mouth upon hearing that reality. He stared at the woman inside the ICU and was helpless. I don't know how many tools are on his body.
He no longer talked much, he could only regret for failing to fulfill his father's request to take good care of Rachel and Martha. The two women were now feeling their pain without being able to strengthen each other. And he stood at the crossroads. He can never be firm with his mother because he does not want to hurt the old woman and because of his negligence he also let Rachel hurt by Martha's attitude all this time.
There was nothing Nata did then, other than hugging Ivana tightly. He lamented this state of affairs but he could do nothing but just wait for a miracle and prepare to face his next loss.
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