Become Him
A tight night cover

A few months after the diner incident at the restaurant ended up falling apart due to the woman from Anand's past, Rindy still does not talk much as usual. Even Rindy gets colder on Anand after meeting Putra at a cafe that time. But Anand still tries to be a good husband without forcing his will on Rindy.

After dinner, Anand takes Rindy to the balcony of their room. Balcony with flowers that spoil the eyes. Anand and Rindy stood by the balcony railing, staring at the brightly shining moon and the stars that seemed to be strewn about.

"Rin!"calling Anand made Rindy spontaneously turn to Anand. Anand hadn't called his name in a long time. But suddenly the man called out his name.Rindy looked at Anand who was standing next to her, the man seemed to be staring at the sparkling night sky. For a moment Rindy was fascinated with a handsome face with a sturdy jaw and a sharp nose belonging to Anand. The face of the man who had become her husband looked even more handsome because of the moonlight that hit his face.

Anand turned her body to face Rindy, looking at the face of the woman he loved with a sad look, "After all these years we have lived together, do you not love me in the least?"tanya Anand stared fixed bead in his wife's eyes.

"No" replied Rindy, turning her face away.

"Why?"tanya Anand was still staring at Rindy who turned her face away.

"I can't," said Rindy without looking at Anand.

Anand smiled wryly at Rindy's reply. During this time, Anand has tried various ways to make Rindy happy and loving. But Rindy's heart was cold as the ice in the North Pole was reluctant to melt. After fighting relentlessly but still unable to melt the cold heart of Rindy, Anand finally made a decision.

"Even if you never believe, or it may be hard to believe every word I say. I'll keep saying what I want to say,"

"If I ever do the best thing in my life, it is when I give my heart to you. With you, I can't even see myself and can only see you. Maybe you're tired of hearing my words of love, and sick of seeing me. But in my heart, I still love you,"

"I don't know how you judge me, and how you feel about me. But one thing is for sure, I love you. For me, your happiness is my priority. And I want to spend the rest of my life with you. However, if your happiness is to part from me, then I will let you go,"Rindy spontaneously turned to Anand upon hearing Anand's words.

Anand turned his body again with a hand that held the balcony railing. His head looked up at the sky, "I don't want my greed to have you to make my heart and heart bleed. If I keep forcing you to be by my side, no one will be happy, be it me or you,"

"A.. What do you mean?"rindy asked with a trembling voice.

"The past is a choice we've been through. The future is a choice we have to plan for. After your unborn child is born, I'll take care of our divorce papers. Worry not! After you give birth, you can live wherever you like, including in this house. Because of this house I bought in your name.And if you don't want to take care of my son, let me take care of him,"

"You knew? A good relationship doesn't just happen, it all takes time, patience, and two people who really want to be together. But in fact, I'm the only one who wants us to be together. In the end, in whatever form I am, I can never have you completely. Have your love but can't have your body. Having your body, but not being able to have your love,"Anand smiled blandly then turned her body back to look at Rindy.

"Sleep! It was not good to sleep too late, "after speaking at length, and uttering an ambiguous sentence, Anand stepped out of the room leaving Rindy still speechless.

Hearing the words spoken from Anand's mouth made Rindy speechless. His body was stiff, his tongue was twisted and his mouth was locked.

"He really wants to let go of me? Stop fighting me? Is that right, this is what I want? Why was I sad and crying when she agreed to separate from me? Why?"rindy muttered with tears still dripping from the corner of her eyes.

Anand came out of the room he had been in for a few months with Rindy. Choosing to sleep separately from Rindy in another room. Even during their sleep together, Rindy often refuses to serve her. But Anand still tried to be patient and understand him.

But as an ordinary human being, Anand also had limits of patience and tolerance. I feel tired and choose to stop. Because it feels futile with all the sacrifices and struggles that in fact are not considered meaningful.

Anand slammed his body on the bed. Lie down in a supine position. He folded his hands and made them into pillows.

"I'm an old book you keep in an old closet. I am a pile of letters that you have never read. I'm a poem you never wrote. I remain invisible even though I am right in front of your eyes. But at least, I have struggled, even though from the beginning you have always ignored. Although in the end, it's never priceless in your eyes,"

"Anand, sorry! I don't want to force Rindy to stay with us. Because in fact, we're both not destined to have her. You have his body but do not get his love. And I have his love but can't have his body. Even after we become one, we still cannot have it completely," muttered Rio who was in the form of Anand smiled wryly while staring at the ceiling of his room.

Rindy walked slowly into the room. Slowly lay his body on the bed. Looking at the other side of the bed, where Anand used to lie. But the place was empty, where Anand was, Rindy did not know.

Time kept turning, seconds passed into minutes, minutes passed into hours. Twelve o'clock in the night, but Rindy hasn't closed her eyes yet. Anand had not yet entered the room.

"Where is he? Why didn't you go into the room?"muttered Rindy who had not been able to fall asleep.

...🌟 Although not considered and ignored, but still survive. When being shunned but still loving....

...If one day he is tired and chooses to leave, then never regret."🌟...

..."Nana October 17th"...

...🌸❤️🌸...

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To be continued