Become Him
The fear that is becoming

In front of Ruby's shop, someone was still silent in the car and watching from across the street. It's been two hours he's been lurking from there. Look at what Ruby did in the store and anyone who came to the store.

Nata, who was looking forward to anxiously waiting for someone he hoped would come out or enter the store.

It has been five days that Nata routinely kept silent on reconnaissance from a distance. The hours he spent aside from being pensive were also waiting for Rachel to come to the store. But not once did Rachel come to visit, making Nata even more anxious.

Another place she often went to was Eva's house. He often lurks there. Until last night, he was evicted by a citizen who was suspicious of him. Dressed all covered and stalked Eva's house. He was thought to be the stalker who was going to rob Eva's house.

“You got your mouth?!” exclaimed someone who suddenly hit Nata's back. Of course Nata leaves soon for fear of being caught by Eva and Ruby. Maybe for a while he won't come to that house.

The artist management office is also one place that is often Nata intai. They usually stay silent at the hectic hour. A lot of people come and go but Rachel was never one of them.

Rachel never showed up anywhere including Brandon's school.

Nata is getting frustrated. The place Rachel frequented wasn't much, but the few places never gave her a clue.

Sometimes he wanted to go down and ask Eva or Ruby directly. But what would he say if they asked back,

“Where's Rachel? He's not coming?”

Akh, what should he answer? Should she answer that Rachel's gone from her life and now she's out of nowhere?

It was that feeling that held Nata back from coming to see Eva and Ruby. In this passage he realized that he was a coward, just as Ivana had said. Though he really misses the figure of the owner of the face that is plastered on the board of Ruby's store. Her beautiful figure, clearly visible from the shop.

Ivana's right, Rachel is so beautiful and stupid that Nata has only realized it lately.

Nata checks his phone again, looking back at the messages he sent Rachel. It's the same, nothing Rachel has read yet. Rachel didn't call him back when she told him,

“Please contact me when you read this message Chel.” That was the eighty-twoth message she sent Rachel. But still, this message was not read by Rachel.

He shouldn't have taken off the tracking app on Rachel's phone. Nor should he stop tapping Rachel's phone, so that at any time he could know the whereabouts of his wife.

However, is it wrong that Nata regrets having restored that privacy and made their current condition even more distant?

Nata could not answer. He just leaned his body on the back of the seat, banging his head several times while closing his eyes. When he opened his eyes, he saw a shadow of himself on the visor glass with a messy look. The fine hair around his jaw and chin was getting more and more unkempt. Akh, that's so sad. Rachel's departure turned out to make Nata forget many things including paying attention to himself.

“Tring!” a message went to Nata's phone.

Nata read it immediately. He thought it was from Rachel, but it was from Ivana.

“Where are you? Here's a client you want to meet.” As soon as the message Ivana sent him.

Nata only read the notification only, not opening the contents of the message intact. To him, other than Rachel's message, the other messages weren't important.

But suddenly Nata thought of something. If she could think like that, wouldn't Rachel also probably think the same?

“Does he also consider my message unimportant?” muttered Nata while looking at her phone screen.

Thinking of his own words, made Nata even more stern. Right, what if Rachel doesn't think important about the message she's sending?

More than that, what if Rachel does not consider important anxiety and love that she shows? Doesn't this mean the chances of them getting back together, are getting smaller?

“Arkh! No. gabe. This can't happen!” nata grunts while pulling his hair rough. Ivana's words that ringed in her ear also further added to her fear.

“I'm sure, one day Rachel's taste isn't you anymore. He also feels the same about you. Then in the end you will get nothing but regrets.” Ivana said this morning.

“Akh no, I can't let that happen.” Inner Nata is getting thinner. Her nightmares about Rachel become more real and begin to materialize one by one.

Will she really lose Rachel?

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