Become Him
Good bye

“Since you made me suspicious of Rachel.” Nata's voice sounded calm as she answered Rachel's question.

Rachel scrunched her forehead not understanding Nata's words. In his mind, he did not feel that he had done something that made Nata suspicious.

“That night at the hotel, I felt a lot of things had changed in you. You no longer whine asking me to hold you so I can fall asleep. You often look shocked when I touch you and approach you.”

“I feel like you've become the one I don't know. She who gradually moved away and no longer paid attention to me. The more often I see you looking at me clingyly, the more I feel like there's a lot you want to say.”

“I also noticed you while using your hp. You always seem tense and panicked. Until then I saw, the message from the man that is often deleted. I feel you're hiding something between you and that man.”

Nata paused for a moment his sentence. He moved to sit next to Rachel and took his wife to lean back and hug her from the side.

“Not me who deleted the message mas.” Said Rachel while looking at Nata's face with her head up.

“I know.”

“That's why I asked you to change your phone. I'm sorry, because I tapped into your phone and for a while pretended to know nothing to make him show his real face. And sorry for freaking you out until a while ago."

"I was too careless to do everything without preparation first and always put forward anger. I was also a fool for making you dare not speak to me. Though I know, you must really need my help.”

Just this time Nata spoke while looking at Rachel fixedly. He felt this was the most intimate moment between him and his wife.

Since he was in the car, he felt very scared. Scared if anything happened to Rachel. Especially when Ivana cried sobbing while asking how Brandon and Rachel. His feelings are really not funny. She is made aware of the fact that she is very afraid of losing Rachel especially if something bad happens to her.

“Sorry, because I've made you anxious. Honestly, I am also afraid and ashamed to admit that all this time Brother Brams has been harassing me. I'm afraid that if I tell you, Brother Brams will turn it all around. I also don't have any evidence to suggest he actually abused me. Just today I recorded all my conversations with Brams and Ima.” I'm Rachel in earnest.

Nata tightened his embrace. He held Rachel firmly and then kissed her head.

“I should apologize for making you doubt. I also make you not believe in me.” Nata said regretfully.

In Nata's embrace, Rachel could clearly hear Nata's still fast and loud heartbeat. Like this man had not been able to calm himself.

Rachel shakes. He hugged Nata tightly as if unwilling to let go.

“Sister Ivana already knows what she has to do. We just need to support and strengthen his steps so that he does not feel alone.”

Rachel nodded in understanding what Nata said.

In her room, Ivana was still pensive looking at her wedding photo with Brams mounted on the wall. His one hand still rubbed Brandon's head gently. He no longer wanted to cry for the man. Her tears were all gone because she had listened to all of Brams' confessions to Rachel.

All that remains now is anger and disappointment. Also the only child who sleeps innocently and occasionally delirious said, “No! No! No!”

Miris, even in the dream world this child is still afraid. He did not know how to calm Brandon's subconscious, which must have been filled with a lot of fear, sadness and disappointment.

“Sorry mommy son, sorryin mom. Mami should take better care of you.” Ivana muttered regretfully.

He realized, all this time he was too much to take care of work and rely on Rachel. No, he was not relying on Rachel but rather using her. She makes Rachel feel indebted because she always treats Rachel in her best way.

Without realizing it, what Rachel needed was not just good treatment but a chance to express her feelings and desires.

For Ivana, Rachel is a good girl. Even too good. He felt very safe and comfortable leaving his son to his sister-in-law. Without ever asking, did Rachel have any trouble or not face it all. Maybe because it makes Rachel can only save the pain due to Brams treatment alone.

The sound of chatter was heard in front of his room. Ivana who heard the voice, tried to steal the hearing.

“Yes sir, they've come. Mr. Brams is also in handcuffs and will be taken to the police station.” As soon as the voice of the security officer who gave an explanation to Nata.

Not long after, there were footsteps coming down the stairs. Ivana could have guessed that Nata was going to see the police.

Again, Ivana could only fall silent. He has no desire to leave his room. He did not have the courage to see for himself the fact that Brams would indeed begin to be officially handed over to the authorities.

Ivana chose to lay her body beside Brandon and hugged the tiny body tightly. He closed his eyes and turned off his room lights. He let his tears run down both cheeks. Let's just say, it's the tears of farewell with Brams that have filled his life for almost ten years.

“Goodbye, mas.” Ivana's inner heart tightened his embrace on Brandon.

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