Best Teacher And Me
Restore the Warmth of the House!

"Eat tonight, I have to talk to Irsyad. I'm the one who has to start the first step." Kila was pacing back and forth thinking about the words of his lecturer.

"Sister Irsyad," welcome Kila.

"Crazy? You waiting for me?"

"Sister, let Kila do what she's supposed to do." Kila approached and tried to restore the usual routine, crucifying Irsyad's hand. She gathered her courage to do it again after a long time of no physical contact with her husband.

"No kiss?" kila and her eyes glazed over. Not a complete routine like that, because Irsyad was reluctant to reply with a kiss on Kila's forehead.

"Sister..., there is no reply? Why not do it as usual?" kila said as she held back her tears.

"I'm afraid I don't deserve to do that" Irsyad replied briefly. He walked towards the dining table leaving Kila.

"Why? I was expecting that, brother. Kila's forehead kiss!" Kila raised her voice, making Irsyad's steps restrained. The tears fall. Many times Kila got rejected, but this is the most painful because it was rejected directly by the husband.

"I'm sorry Kila," replied Irsyad lowered his head.

"Is it hard to kiss my wife's forehead? What makes you doubt?" tanya Kila blushed in anger.

"If Kila's wrong, please tell me, sister. Kila can not know that Irsyad Giniin Kila, sister," continued Kila.

"I also thought the same thing, Kila. If there is anything wrong with my attitude, please let me know!"

How ironic. Both felt something was wrong.

"Sorry before that the volume of Kila's voice so high, sister. But let Kila first start telling me that there's something wrong with Brother's attitude." Kila started to control her anger. Her tears had also been wiped away.

"Please, I will gladly hear it," Irsyad replied. His words made Kila hot again.

"I'm pissed! Irsyad's sister sucks. Brother Irsyad must be responsible for all the tears that Kila shed because it was caused by Brother," said Kila began.

"Sister didn't wear a wedding ring, didn't talk about what was wrong with Kila's words when we argued about our relationship in college at that time. Sister Irsyad did not enter the room for prayer witir in the room, did not sleep also in the room, why kayak that? It hurt the heart of Kila who had been waiting for Brother Irsyad from earlier."

"Sister, after arguing that time Brother did not want to give his sister's hand to Kila Salim. Sister is also reluctant to pee Kila's forehead as a routine that we usually do. Kila wondered, was Kila so despicable that Irsyad refused to touch her?"

"On eating. It might be a trivial matter, but for Kila it was the most painful. When Kila wants to improve our relationship that begins to cool down, Kila cook your favorite snack as an additional lunch, in fact the food and snacks that Kila prepared wholeheartedly do not touch Brother at all. Evening, Kila had prepared dinner but Brother said he had eaten at a friend's place. Kila doesn't know why Irsyad did it because Irsyad never told Kila. Irsyad's sister who tried to promise will always maintain communication, negligent and forget that we so rarely talk since the debate at that time."

About eating, Irsyad realized his mistake after Kila said that.

"I'm sick of Brother's behavior. Every time Kila saw Brother walk into the study, it reminded Kila of Kila's grandmother and parents. Brother seemed to give reasons about piling up work, so it cannot be left behind. Sleep and prayer should be in that place. Just like Kila's parents. Whether or not they are at home is the same. About grandma, grandma may be right that Irsyad can be the right priest for Kila, but is the opposite? Is Kila the right teacher for Irsyad? Kila who always over-thinks about things that are clearly disturbing Kila, always trying to think positive but can not, always trying to understand others but instead mix with his own emotions as now. Kila tried to understand what Big Brother did to Kila, but it turned out that Kila was not that strong. That means Kila is not the right person to be Kak Irsyad's wife, to understand Kak Irsyad aja Kila can not."

"So, I'm busy with business that Kila doesn't know what it is. The workspace is a priority for my sister than anything. The warm atmosphere of the house became cold because Irsyad Sister was reluctant to come out and tell the things that befell Brother, reluctant to share stories, reluctant to share the burden with Kila. Brother Irsyad also changed, where is the warm nature of Brother? Suddenly it got cold, it wasn't the Irsyad Sister that Kila knew," Kila explained. He took a moment to look at Irsyad. Irsyad looks like a dead flea, unable to refute anything from what Kila said. Prefer to be quiet and listen.

"May Kila be honest? This speech will be very bad, Kila apologized in advance." The stunned Irsyad lowered his head trying to stare at Kila.

"It seems pointless that we live on one roof like this. Instead of getting closer, we're getting farther away. Or indeed from the beginning we do not have a match, so it should be a grandmother's will at that time ignored aja."

"Don't talk like that, Kila!" prevent Irsyad.

"Why can't you? It is the fact that it is. Staying here reminds Kila of how the condition of the house with mom and dad. Reminds Kila how grandma is so lonely when her house people are busy with their respective affairs. The thing that Grandma felt, now Kila could feel it. It feels lonely, right? Like it's never happened before, but this time it's more pronounced, Kila doesn't know why."

"I'm sorry for reminding you of that bitter moment." Irsyad approached apologizing. Wanting her to grab Kila's hand, but reminding her of what she just did to Kila made her reluctant. Irsyad knew, apologizing alone would not be enough, so let Irsyad accept everything Kila said.

"Now what does Brother Irsyad want to do? Split the house like Kila proposed?" kila said up.

"No, it's not that!" sangkal Irsyad fast.

"Continue what? The house is too cold, Sister Irsyad is also cold. Kila doesn't know if this house can be warm again for Kila to survive here, one roof with Kak Irsyad," Kila challenged.

"I don't know. Can you tell me what I need to do so you can stay with me?" Hearing Irsyad's reply, made Kila smile cynically.

"Then give it back, brother! Restore the warm atmosphere of this house. Can Brother?" Irshad seemed to think for a moment. He cannot just promise it, it is the same as making a promise. And again, Kila showed her cynical smile from seeing Irsyad whose body language said that Irsyad would not be able to fulfill that.

"Weight, right? Brother Irsyad is busy taking care of work. Moreover, it is now busy guiding its students who are more prioritized. To the extent that he forgot his wife who at that time was promised to be a private lecturer to help the difficulties in pursuing the target pass faster as Kila targeted," said Kila.

Irsyad, who had finished fighting with his mind, finally finished deciding what he should do.

"Yes right, there is nothing wrong with what you say. I'm sorry for making you suffer like this. Give me a chance to restore the warm atmosphere of this house. I can't promise, but I will try my best" Irsyad said. He knew it did not immediately dampen Kila's emotions, but he could only do that.