Best Teacher And Me
Unable to Speak

The atmosphere had been quiet since Kila returned from the hospital canteen. Kila also did not expect herself to be able to say such disrespectful things. He wanted to apologize, but he refused to speak. Moreover, Irsyad has not given any response from Kila's words earlier. Irsyad even helped to peel the fruit that he brought earlier to eat grandmother and Kila, a strange guest indeed.

Seeing that Irsyad was still struggling with the fruits, Kila also wanted to shift her mind immediately to eat the food she had bought from the canteen. He chewed as slow as possible because he did not want Irsyad to realize that he was eating. That he did also so that the atmosphere is not more awward.

Kila has a new skill. It can eat without sound, but does not hinder its eating speed. It was proven that he could finish his meal in five minutes. He immediately finished his meal, then drank some water. Apparently Irsyad lost quickly, it was seen that Irsyad was still busy peeling the fruit.

Grandma coded Kila to help Irsyad deal with the fruits. Kila quickly shook her head. But before long, apparently Irsyad had finished it. Complete also by preparing three servings for grandmother, Irsyad and Kila. Irsyad gave the fruit to grandma, as well as Kila.

"Come, let's eat" Irsyad offered. Kila hesitantly took it, because there were still things that had not been discussed. Yes, about the words of Kila earlier as considered Irsyad never ejected even from Kila's mouth. Irsyad behaved as usual.

Grandma understood their awkwardness, so she also kept quiet and acted as an observer. He also slightly did not understand the meaning of the words of Kila, but let him wait for Irsyad to respond willingly without being triggered by his words.

"I'm sorry, Mr. Irsyad, what I said earlier, seems to make you uncomfortable." Kila who could not stand this awkward moment finally opened her voice. Irsyad simply nodded in response and a sign that he was not bothered with it. But, Kila is disturbed and feels uncomfortable with Irsyad's whereabouts after he asks Irsyad not to come to the hospital again. He began to calm down because Irsyad had never come again, but why did he come back today? Seeing Irsyad from the cafeteria alone was already very surprising to Kila.

Kila finished the fruit that Irsyad gave her quickly. He wants to know what reasons can make him not misunderstand the arrival of Irsyad. His heart could be misunderstood and hope Irsyad in the same feelings as him.

"Sir, can we talk outside? As well as talking about tomorrow's exam, hehe," said Kila. He alluded to the word exam so that the grandmother did not suspect that grandmother could not connect with the words Kila before.

Irsyad followed, and now they were in a chair near the grandmother's room.

"Previously, sorry to offend, I asked you again, why are you here?" Kila tried to repeat politely.

"It's nothing, I just don't calm down" Irsyad replied briefly.

"What makes you feel unsettled? It's not that I asked directly for you not to go to the hospital anymore. I do so that you are calm because it is not always bothered by me," Kila responded.

"That's exactly what makes me unsettled. You unilaterally told me to stop helping you, even though I explained at that time. I know you're alone now, your parents are rare too. So, I want to help you as a good homeroom teacher. Your request at that time was so sudden, I just according to it because I think you really need it. When I'm free so think that request you do it on another impulse, right? I am so not calm to let you suffer because you are used to my presence which always takes you to the hospital even though it is only a short time and right away. I'm not calm either, tomorrow's the test, but you have another burden on me that you should also think about. You tell me, what impulse is that? Did someone tell you to stay away from me? If there is, please say. So we can both calm down." Irsyad firmly responded back.

But not with Kila, he was quite surprised by Irsyad's response. He thought that Irsyad knew everything about him, including his feelings. He could not respond again after being in that corner. He lowered his head in response to Irsyad's response earlier.

"It looks like you won't return my words. But when you're ready, I hope you can tell me. Well, at least you already know the reason why I came here. Let's go in, it's not nice to leave grandma alone inside" Irsyad concluded. He went back into the grandmother's room, while Kila was still glued to her seat.

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Long enough Kila caught up with Irsyad to re-enter the room. Because Kila had to calm down first from her chat with Irsyad earlier. He also had to prepare his heart because the conversation made his heart more misunderstood. He also bought drinks in the cafeteria to calm his mind. Now he felt quite calm and ready to see Irsyad's face again.

When she entered, Kila saw Irsyad talking while Grandma just watched. They seem to be discussing something fun.

"What did you talk about, Grandma?" kila tried to talk. He also tried to act ordinary.

"Ooh, no, this is Nak Irsyad he said during your exam will often go to the hospital to accompany grandma. You have to focus on studying for exams too, right?" replied grandma.

"Lho, no, Grandma. That's ngerepotin Mr. Irsyad. Kila is still focused on learning, really, even having to accompany grandma at the same time," Kila argued subtly.

"It's different, atuh, Kil. You learn where you can while talking. Grandma is lonely if she has no friends. So, grandma is very happy that Nak Irsyad can be a friend to chat grandma," said grandma.

"It can't be that either, oruh, Grandma. How's Mr Irsyad? He's a teacher, and again during the gini test the teacher must be busy delay," reply Kila a little pressed.

"No, I'm not busy. I also don't mind and don't feel bothered. I'm glad I could help. I talked to your grandmother when you were not in the room. The exam period is like this, not as busy as you think. It will be more flexible, because what I check is not a task that is diverse classes and various questions as I usually give. This exam I checked for homogeneous questions, so I felt more relaxed. So don't worry about that" said Irsyad interrupting.

Kila was unable to say anything more. Kila no longer wants to refuse what kind of thing, which there is a word will be turned back to him. He was silent as a sign of agreement even though not so sincere. It is difficult to argue with an Indonesian teacher. Kila was not inexhaustible, how could Irsyad propose himself to accompany grandmother when Kila had to focus on studying for her exam. Indeed, a strange man that is hard to guess.

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