Best Teacher And Me
Straightening Misconceptions

"Give me a chance?" batin Kila hesitated. He looked pensively thinking about Irsyad's words.

While Irsyad, he understood it would be difficult to convince Kila. It is very difficult to forgive and give a chance to the person who has already scratched a lot of wounds in his heart.

Because Kila's turn to talk was thought to have been completed, Irsyad took the initiative to start his turn to explain what happened from his view.

"Listen.., I'm having a bad temper. All this time I only thought with logic, it was difficult to involve feelings. But lately I have been trying to do both at the same time. What I've been doing lately I can't avoid, I'm trying to stay away from you. That's because I want to try to understand you, because after the debate, I had a moment of emotion. That's why I stayed away from you, not wanting to attach negative emotions when I met you. I told you, I have a bad temper. That's enough" said Irsyad. Kila heard no flinch.

"Because I felt more guilty because I had been stirred by emotions during the debate, I also decided not to mix with you first, not to sleep in the room, not to eat breakfast together. I fear that with this bad temper there will be my attitude that will hurt you more. The injury I caused during the debate at that time will be even deeper, that's what I think" Irsyad continued.

"This is my bad trait, when emotions have mastered I tend to hurt with words and attitudes. Actually I am also easily carried away by emotions, easily upset, easy to hurt others unconsciously. I'm sorry for that. I also cannot control this temperament well. This trait has been around for a long time, is difficult to change and can only be understood. I hope you can also understand my bad nature," continued Irsyad again.

It seemed that the explanation from Irsyad's view could not straighten out the misunderstanding. From both sides, it was Kilalah who indeed experienced more pain than Irsyad.

"What about food, what kind of food did Kila make? Didn't you intentionally want to eat Kila's cooking?" Kila tried to interrogate. However, his gaze was still reluctant to look at Irsyad.

"No, Kila. It's not. I did avoid you, but I did not intentionally leave the provision of that time in one piece. I am busy, until now also the busyness has not gone up. It is not just a job as a lecturer that I have to take care of, my job as an entrepreneur as well. Moreover, there was a problem that befell at one of the stores I opened. Because I do many things at the same time, I do not have time to eat" explained Irsyad.

"But at night, Sister Irsyad also did not eat dinner at home. Prefer to eat at a friend's house," challenge Kila less satisfied. He dared to raise his head.

"I can't refuse. As a new resident of this complex, I also had to be in touch with my fellow neighbors of the complex. Moreover, the frequent presence of me and him in the mosque adds to the strength of the reason I accept his invitation," replied Irsyad. It seemed like Kila was satisfied with that answer. So, he moved on to the next topic. He will ask all the things that have made him shed tears. Hearing the answer so that there is satisfaction after knowing the truth happens.

"When Kila permission to go to the beach, it's because Kak Irsyad did not want to sleep at home. Brother Irsyad to the mother's house, that's what makes Kila go suddenly to the beach. Kila was upset, Irsyad had to leave the house to avoid Kila," said Kila angry. He dared to look at Irsyad directly this time. However, it was Irsyad's turn this time who was downcast for feeling guilty.

"Yes, I can understand. I admit my mistake. I'm sorry" replied Irsyad.

"Sir Irsyad didn't take Kila to the airport. Do not ask news Kila one gets home again," asked Kila without pause.

"really. But I've been trying to say, ask how your vacation at the beach but stuck. I really can't deliver you. I'm sorry if you're tired of hearing this, the business that I have to settle cannot be left behind" Irsyad replied. Now he is re-sticking his head.

"Why did Irsyad go home to my mother? Sleeping there all of a sudden, telling me all of a sudden," asked Kila again without pause and said with one breath. Describing the part is the hurt part when Irsyad was reluctant to sleep or even reluctant to go home to avoid Kila.

"Yes, sorry. I think there's something wrong with me. Like not being able to control emotions and often upset to remember the contents of the memo and post it that you showed to me. By going home, I think it can calm me down" replied Irsyad calmly. Kila reflex retreated his steps as he was offended by Irsyad's reply. It is undeniable, memo and post it that Kila made it very interesting and inappropriate aimed at her husband despite any anger he was on Irsyad.

"again, sorry. Give me another chance to carry it out" Irsyad replied aware of his mistake.

"Sister Irsyad went with the students to the cafe near the campus, Kila saw you guys live. Irsyad didn't tell Kila about it. Kila's not Irsyad's priority!" challenge Kila again. The topic that made her feel was not Irsyad's top priority, which made her think negatively too when Irsyad walked with a woman who was not her mahram.

"True, I met a student on campus. However, it's wrong of you to think I prioritized that student over you. It's just a job. In addition to her asking for my help to see her script, she also works part-time at my shop that is affected by the problem. We often discuss how to solve the problem in that store. Not only that I met him, but several times other than that day. Sorry for not telling you about that. I cannot explain why if you yourself are busy with your own thesis. I don't want to add to the burden of your mind" Irsyad said. He lowered his voice at the end, hoping that Kila would understand and not ask about what Irsyad was doing.

"Explain what you're doing now! What befell you until you feel at home in that workspace!" challenge Kila to no avail by not ticking Irsyad.

"Sorry, I can't say. I don't want to add to the burden of your mind, in the Lord I can handle myself" replied Irsyad slowly but firmly. However, that answer actually made Kila upset.

Kila with tears ready to slide it closer to Irsyad. Staring at Irsyad's eyes with an angry and disappointed look. Then he beat Irsyad in the chest to channel his frustration. A slow blow, but long enough Kila. As for Irsyad, he just silently accepted all the annoyance Kila channeled through the punch. He did not want to open his voice again after seeing his wife again shed tears of sadness.

"Sister Irsyad is evil! Brother Irsyad is really evil! What did Big Brother do to bad Kila!" said Kila at the end of the action beating Irsyad.

"Yes, I can't deny it" Irsyad replied quietly.

Kila's punch stopped. He cried against Irsyad's chest. While Irsyad held Kila who was thought to be satisfied to hit her slowly. There was no reply from that trap. Naturally, Irsyad did not reply to the attitude of Kila who had already crucified his hand earlier.

Irsyad gently rubbed Kila's head in her arms. Making Kila's cry even more.

"Sorry," said Kila quietly in Irsyad's speech. Irsyad who was confused, looked at Kila to confirm what Kila said.

"Please apologize for the satirical memo that Kila made. Sorry for being so prejudiced. Sorry, Kila is selfish" Kila explained. Irsyad could hear it even though Kila revealed it still in a quiet voice.

"Thank you, Kila." Now it was Kila's turn to be astonished and look up to see Irsyad.

"Thank you for taking the first step to restore the warm atmosphere of this house. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to clear up this misunderstanding. And sorry for my attitude and nature that have hurt you."

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