Best Teacher And Me
Seeing Grandma in Irsyad

Two months passed. Kila with sadness about the separation of his parents still trying to live the day as usual. Because UTS was close, and he was also a lecturer assistant, he became more busy with academic affairs. That's the benefit of being busy, distracting our mind and attention to something we don't want to notice and think about. Until finally UTS has been completed, and Kila's busyness is to help Irsyad check the UTS of its students.

Kila had not been home for a long time to see Riska. He only calls or sometimes video calls to ask Riska news. For monthly money, since the divorce, Kila routinely gave it once a week. Although not as big as Riska's income while working first, he felt the money he set aside was enough. Because, sixty percent of his online shop profit is allocated to Riska. Kila know, the money of the house sold and the company sold most of its shares from the proceeds for the divorce property can support Riska with great adequacy. However, so that the mother did not feel alone after the divorce, she did. Tell Riska that her existence as a child is always there.

"Sister, what about Brother's job with Nabila's mother?" Kila opened her voice as the two were taking a short break examining the UTS students. The two sat on the sofa in Irsyad's office, relaxing with a few snacks and a soft drink there.

After two months, Kila had never discussed the other party. Maybe because he had started to calm down because his UTS had finished, he wanted to open up to receive many facts that he knew too late.

"Hmm.., I no longer work with Nabila. He submitted his resignation first" Irsyad replied.

"Oohs. So, who helped Brother as his successor?"

"Mama. Instead of him not knowing what to do, I offered him this job. He said the result was enough to create a new company in addition to the money you always give every week and the money to share his property from the divorce."

Irsyad never told me about it. However, Kila did not bother about it. The thing that Irsyad did was very good, there was nothing to be concerned about. In fact, Irsyad chose not to say about his parents clearly for fear of damaging the mental Kila who was slowly getting healthy again.

"I'm sorry, Brother. All this time it was my sister who had to see Mama. Brother is also very considerate of Mama, thank you very much, yes, sister."

Kila is always asking Riska news, even though through the device. To see firsthand the situation of the mother, he asked Irsyad for help. Kila was just not ready to meet face to face, although quite often he made a video call with Riska.

"Yes, equally. After all, you still can't face to face see the condition of Mama, I understand that. Don't beat yourself up again, yeah, Kila. She looks better and healthier, even though she is divorced and living alone now. Divorce is not your fault, not because of your words about the divorce that resulted in the divorce. It's not wrong that you want them to get divorced, you only think about your happiness. After all, indeed they are only friends to get there." Irsyad replied hoping it would comfort Kila a little from her sadness.

They both relax. Kila laid her body on Irsyad's thigh. Sometimes, this makes him more relaxed because he often did it with grandma first. And after that, Irsyad rubbed Kila's hair slowly, just like the grandmother did back then in this position.

"If you can still see Papa, right?" ask Kila.

"As you said, even though Papa Gilang is Mama Riska's ex-husband, he is still your Papa. There is no such thing as a former Papa. You are free to meet him" replied Irsyad so gently and soberly.

"But, would you like to meet Kila? Kila's words at that time, did it get to the bottom of Papa's heart? Does Papa know that Kila really doesn't feel sorry for having a Papa like her?" Kila still lacks confidence.

"Let's love.., your words reach everyone, including Papa." Kila's head was rubbed gently, the words so soft it touched Kila's heart. The same treatment when he likes to tell stories to grandmothers, tell stories and grandmothers listen carefully while unceasingly rubbing the soft head of Kila. He saw grandma in Irsyad.

Irsyad was a bit surprised because her calls changed. But he's not bothered by that. Kila seemed to be more comfortable in this position, thus reminding her of the grandmother, he thought.

"When you know that everything is healthier now. Mama so not most kayak work first again, said Mama, now eating can be more regular than that time. Is Kila wrong for being happy about their separation?"

Right Irsyad's guess. It seemed, Kila was so comfortable when she told her grandmother. He said so smoothly.

"Sir.., divorce is hated by God, right? Is Kila the trigger for divorce really hated by God now?" Kila began to speak softly like a conscious person who had committed many sins.

For some reason, Kila paused for a moment from her chatter. Irsyad thought Kila was okay, until she felt her pants spilled by her tears. Kila was not okay, she was crying in silence which made people think that Kila was okay. Irsyad immediately put Kila back in a sitting position. Then, immediately rubbed his tears that constantly flowed without stopping even though he continued to wipe. Irsyad was very worried in his heart, he was insensitive to this kind of business, he did not know why Kila was so sad that he could not stop or just slow down the rate of his tears flowing.

"Sir..., why is the relationship between humans other than the same grandmother complicated? Kila just wants grandma here." Kila continued to talk again, he was as much as once in a while. Irsyad was so touched to see Kila like this. Irsyad's tears also began to overflow the eye pelupuk.

"In retrospect, the cause of Grandma's death was Kila, right? The cause of Mama and Papa's divorce was also caused by Kila. Everything Kila did was just a bad thing. Did Kila go with Grandma? Kila doesn't deserve to live." Kila's next speech successfully made Irsyad also flow tears. Kila did not see that because when in a sitting position earlier, he did not look forward and preferred to look down.

"Don't talk like that, Kila. You still have me. I need you very much to live. Don't blame yourself, Kila. You're a good person, not as bad as you think." Irsyad open the sound. Then, Kila realized, he was not talking to his grandmother. He only saw grandma in Irsyad. He then looked at Irsyad with a sad and regretful gaze, and tears that were still flowing and bothered.

"Mr..., Sister Irsyad..., why does it have to be Sister Irsyad? What a strange will! Even Brother Irsyad is too good to be with Kila. This despicable Kila is not worthy to share life with such a good person like him" Kila said staring straight at Irsyad. Irsyad was sad when she saw that Kila's eyes were shining with honesty. Has she lived since Irsyad married her? Not once did Kila complain about the same thing.

Irsyad held onto both of Kila's shoulders, looked deeply into Kila's beads of eyes and said, "Kila! Look at my eyes! Look deeply. It's me, Irsyad. What do you see in my eyes? I love you so much! Without a message from Grandma, I will definitely meet you to be my wife."

"Thank you for your kindness to comfort Kila. Big brother was so kind that he said it was just to calm Kila."

Irsyad grabbed Kila, then kissed her forehead. Showing how much he loved Kila. Hinted for Kila to believe and not say anything more.

"Crazy! Look, I'm not lying. You see any lies in my eyes? There ain't! I really said the truth. In fact, if I were to say such an honest thing, I couldn't live without you even if it sounded exaggerated."

Irsyad ended his speech by peeping Kila's forehead once again. Showing how Irsyad really loves Kila. While Kila no longer had the energy to talk, she could only cry in that increasingly tight embrace.

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