Best Teacher And Me
Act As Usual

It's getting dark. Riska and Gilang decided to go straight home after coming to Kila's graduation. The two people were reluctant to stay at Kila's house, surely thinking of immediately completing the work that was piled up because they spent time coming to Kila. But there are at least in untungkan Kila because Riska and Gilang do not stay overnight. Kila didn't have to pretend to be ordinary like nothing happened to her.

"Crazy, we should talk. Don't be like this, dong!" Irsyad. Because, already from earlier Irsyad and Kila arrived at home, but there is no different attitude from Kila. That's what Irsyad doesn't like. Irsyad is more hurt to be treated by Kila like this, as usual like nothing happened, because actually Kila just did it formally as a wife, not sincere as usual. After all, it was impossible for Kila to sincerely serve Irsyad while her heart was full of wounds, and the wounds were caused by Irsyad as well.

"Udah Kila said from earlier, there is nothing to talk about. We better avoid the discussion. Especially when in front of food like this." Kila replied casually. No tone of speech is rising. Trying to put himself as a good wife, not raise his voice to the husband, despite whatever the condition of his heart.

Irsyad did say sorry when they were taking photos together. However, because after that the family who had been waiting called Irsyad, before long they had to follow without continuing. Irsyad also awkwardly continued the explanation because when he headed to the restaurant, Kila turned her face to look at the car window beside him, as if saying that no one should ask him to talk first.

They finished dinner. When Irsyad wanted to help Kila to clean the dining table, Kila stayed away and chose to do the dishes. Then, when Irsyad gave the addition of dirty dishes, Kila did not let the gap to Irsyad help him wash, he deliberately widened the distance of his legs so as not to create a gap for Irsyad to enter.

"I want to help" said Irsyad because it was blocked by Kila.

"The plate is a little bit, really. Kila can finish it by herself. Brother Irsyad continued his work Brother, back to the workspace. Like a big brother's job stacked, deh, because his productive time was even spent to Kila campus because of graduation," reject Kila gently. It ended with a smile, although hesitating he still showed that smile to Irsyad.

"Kila, what's wrong with you, anyway?"

"What's the matter, brother? It's okay, it's okay."

"Something's wrong, there's pressure too, isn't there?"

"Sir.., there's nothing wrong, really. There's no pressure either."

"You try to be ordinary, you must be depressed by that. You thought about what happened, right? So.., give me explain everything, Kila."

"There is no need for an explanation. Kila understands, really. Brother Irsyad does not have to worry about the same attitude Kila, it is this, and this will continue Kila's attitude towards Kak Irsyad. Kila didn't mind that, though. And this attitude, Kila is trying to be a good wife, Kila hope Kak Irsyad understands that too."

"Kila.., again I asked. What's the matter, anyway?" Irsyad asked softly while looking deeply at Kila's bead. Find the truth there.

"All right, I understand. You want to calm down first, right? I won't bother. But I will still sleep in the room and be your tahajud priest. Kila.., if you feel calm, tell me. And give me a chance to explain the event," said Irsyad Lirih. He still looked at Kila deeply, even though Kila had turned her face away.

"Before I get into the study, I want to say something." Irsyad spoke a little more seriously, while Kila was still reluctant to look at Irsyad.

"I admit that I was wrong. I apologize to you. But that's a reason. And as for your suspicions about me that are likely double behind you, that's not true. As I explained at the time, I had nothing to do with him. He's just a part-time worker who works for me" Irsyad added. He only explained in short, because he felt that this time was not the right time to explain in full. Kila who was the victim, Irsyad as the perpetrator must be responsible for letting Kila himself first calm himself from the burdening thoughts.

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Kila was so exhausted today, both physically and mentally. After praying, he read some of the Qur'an's mushaf before ending it with Al-Mulk. That's an unusual thing Kila did. However, by reading a few pieces of the Qur'an mushaf first, the wound in his heart was more healed and felt more serene. In the Qur'an there is a true Ashy-shifa to heal, even though it is a wound in the heart.

"I graduated, I graduated. Now is the time." Inner Kila said while tidying up his prayer equipment.

"You haven't slept?" Irsyad went into the room. He saw Kila was opening her face, showing her beautiful hair that was not wrapped in hijab. The scene that made Irsyad shock upon entering the room.

"Ooh..., sorry, I went in without knocking on the door first." Irsyad was clumsy, he was directly facing the back. He gave Kila time to put her hijab back on.

Once in the sense of time given enough, Irsyad not facing back anymore. Slowly he reversed his steps, for he was afraid to make the same mistake.

Although Irsyad only saw a glimpse of his wife who was not wrapped in hijab, it made him not stop thinking about it. Thinking about how the scenery shown because of an accident earlier to last longer, see the beauty of the wife without a hijab. However, recalling what Irsyad had done to Kila today, Irsyad was tormented and felt unworthy to look at the beauty of the wife.

"I'm sorry, it seems you still need time to take care of that beautiful hair. Then I'll just go to bed first." Irsyad, who had turned her body, was made even more clumsy. The sight he saw now made him even more tormented. Kila was still combing that beautiful hair in front of the dressing table, of course Irsyad saw it clearly. As it was impossible to face back, he decided to directly lay his body on the bed. Then, the face and eyes he covered with a blanket to prevent if at all he wanted to steal a look at Kila again, who saw Kila without wearing a hijab alone was still not appropriate for Irsyad.

"Oh Allah, I have just seen an angel" said Irsyad in his heart under the blanket that covered him.

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