Dear The Ex
Women In The Morning

Ma is here tomorrow, yes, the children are on holiday

I clicked while reading a short message from Mas Arif

"It's been a week" I said

Either since the raid yesterday, my respect and love for her evaporated

Especially when I learned of my husband's depraved behavior outside

I have a lot of orders

That's all I'm paying for, hopefully he understands and doesn't demand that I go there again

But I miss the kids ma

Back I'm clucking

Next week alone, it's only been a week too

I saw Arif typing a message, and I waited for a reply from him

I actually miss my mom

I made my face look like I was going to vomit when I read the message

Because I was lazy to serve it, I finally got out of the What's app

I heard my phone clink again but I didn't see it at all because I was sure it was a message from Arif

As I have said, I am an online seller, especially now that there are two owners who invite me to work together to promote their sales, then now is the time for me to promote their products

And again every time I live, there are always a lot of people watching with a lot of likes and comments

So that my income increased due to the addition of two owners whose merchandise I promoted

And back this Friday, Arif sent me a message

So this afternoon you come here?

Because I had promised that this week would be here, since this morning I was ready and when 11 my two children came home, the journey that picked up came the next half hour

My two children were very enthusiastic when they met their father

Along the way they were always busy chattering about their longing for their papa and I who sat between them only smiled wryly

I went to Arif's place, Yo

I sent Mario a message, so he wouldn't get confused when I didn't send him a message in the next few days

How many days Ntan?

Sunday afternoon home

I will definitely miss you

I smiled at the message Mario sent

I will miss you Mario too, whispered my little heart

I don't know, since my return from Mario's house yesterday, our relationship has been intense and every day we always send messages

And Mario was always telling me about his activities and I couldn't even contain my feelings for him

Maybe this is how Arif felt when he often brought naughty women, maybe he fell in love with them, or maybe just love one night

But my feelings for Mario are different, this feeling is not a momentary love but an old love springing back

Especially because Mario still treats me like he used to, his attitude is still soft and sweet, and it makes me very comfortable

Four hours we passed quite tiringly, especially because the road was uphill because of the high area, and when it arrived at the market area here, I asked the travel driver to stop because I wanted to shop, and when I arrived at the local market, I asked the driver to stop, I'm sure at Arif's mas house there's definitely nothing but instant food, eleven twelve with in Mario's place

Two hours later, almost at night, because the sky was getting dark, the car stopped near the Arif service house. My two children immediately ran and shouted in excitement as Mas Arif stood in front of the door welcoming them

And I who later went down, busy dropping off suitcases of clothes and groceries, while mas Arif went straight in to guide Meka and Bobbi

I can only take a deep breath because Arif mas has absolutely no intention to help me, even though I went back and forth to take my luggage when the travel has passed

And it turns out that Arif's behavior continued when I started putting suitcases into the house, he was still sitting with Meka and Bobbi

I could only grumble in my heart to see his indifference that never helped me

"Some healthy?" asked Mas Arif while rubbing my head

I just smiled in line to answer his question

Then my two children again busy asking their papa about how his papa feels here, at home or not

I've reached Yo

I secretly sent Mario a message

Thank God, all right there

I smiled reading the message, simple but meaningful to me

"Ma, papa hasn't cooked yet"

I took a deep breath. I stood back up and walked back and came out again with a plate and spoon, as well as a bag of crackles filled with packaged rice that I bought at the market earlier

Mas Arif only smiled as I put down our dinner, until we finally returned to dinner together only after we sat outside, feeling the silence of this place

A village far from the city center, the atmosphere is cold, surrounded by hills, many vegetable gardens, very similar to the area where Mario

Mario's?

Why does my brain always remember that guy. What the hell is he doing? usually if it's night we'll video call

Is this the vibration of forbidden love?, I realize that our relationship is wrong, but I can not refuse especially because I do not love my husband anymore

Is Mario an escape from my pain because of my husband's betrayal?, no, Mario is not my escape, I really love Mario, and this love is just like my old love, when we first started

I didn't realize that my husband had been watching me daydreaming ever since, until his questions made me realize

"What the hell is ma?"

I smiled stiffly at Arif

The conversation lasted until night, until finally our two children fell asleep on their thighs, then we entered

A small official house with one room, one living room, one bathroom, and a small kitchen, good enough for the size of the Arif mas who lives alone

"We slept outside yuk ma?"

I shook my head, and chose to lay down my body near my two children

I heard a deep breath from Arif, but I didn't care. I still do not want to be approached by him because I still feel disgusted and the most important thing is that I feel afraid if later I get an illness due to the actions of my husband who often changes partners

In the morning I woke up to the sound of a knock in front, I saw a clock on the wall showing the number half six, and it was still dark outside. I immediately got up and walked out of the room, in the living room, I saw Arif mas still looks slumbering on the carpet

Slowly I opened the door

"Mas....?"

I was immediately stunned when I saw a young woman standing with a shocked face hanging her talk

"Yes?, who is it?" just suspect

The young woman looked nervous, then I looked at her hand which was like carrying something

"Search for Arif?" I asked back

The young woman smiled stiffly

"So, the person is still sleeping, tuh" I said widening the door while pointing at Arif mas with the look of my eyes

I saw the young woman looking at her head like she was looking at Arif, covered in a blanket

"Ah let it be if the Arif mas is still sleeping, I just come here to take breakfast" he said giving the package that had been held since

I received the bag by saying thank you

"Come here?" search me

The young woman shook her head quickly and I saw her face slightly stiffened

"I am Arif's wife, Maghrib, yesterday I arrived here" I continued

And again I saw the look of surprise from the woman's face, I just smiled at her glance who still looked nervous