Dear The Ex
Give Me a Chance

With some distress from crying I put the motor ignition key into place

Just as I was about to run the bike, the movement of my hand was stopped by Mario's grip on my shoulder

I closed my eyes as Mario sobbed and hugged me

"Don't do this to me Intan." - Mario disjointed.

I immediately turned off the bike, reassembled the standard of the bike and went down, immediately I grabbed Mario and sobbed in his arms

"Please give me a chance to prove that I deserve to be with you Mario" I said

Mario just pressed my head firmly on his chest and many times I felt that he kissed the top of my head without even answering my words

"Give me a chance" I added again as I pulled my head and held her hand firmly

"What opportunity?, the best chance is to start our new life, that's all. There's nothing else"

I shook my head

"You're sure of fate, aren't you?, if we are in any way compatible God will bring us back together, but please give me a chance to prove myself to your two sisters, if I wasn't a parasite, if I could be your wife without hitching a ride on you"

Mario shook his head strongly, and I held his hand firmly again

"Destiny is not on our side yet Yo, and if one day you find a woman who can make you love her, don't think about how I am, because as I said earlier, I'm happy to see you happy even if it's not with me"

Finished saying like that I took off the engagement ring on my ring finger then took Mario's hand, and placed it over Mario's palm

"Be assured Mario that I will always pray for the best for you" I said with a bitter smile

Mario just stared blankly at me with tears, then I gently rubbed his face and again grabbed his hand, kissed the back of his hand with reverence and smiled bitterly back at him

After that I went back up on the bike and soon passed leaving Mario who could only stare at my departure with the nelangsa

And when I got home, I went in, I saw Meka and Bobbi were already home and watching television

"Mama ride first, son" I said while rubbing my face rough

Meka and Bobbi looked at each other and could only stare at me walking up the stairs

I immediately threw my body on the bed and came back crying as I pleased

Maybe it's true what my father said, I was too quick to make decisions without thinking good and bad

I never thought if Mario's two sisters would reject me outright, I thought too much if everything was okay, until finally when reality didn't match as I expected I was sick myself

I sobbed more and more in my tears as I remembered how I had finally come back disappointed in the not too distant future

Disappointed by the betrayal of Arif and now disappointed by failing to marry the man I love

I sit down, bend my knees and cry again, somehow my face shape now because from entering the house until night I just keep sobbing

Even the call Meka and Bobbi who wanted to eat dinner was only a short speech, until finally the two children ate themselves

In the middle of the night I woke up because of a nightmare, maybe because I was thinking too much about the incident until it finally carried over to dreamland

Immediately I got out of bed, walked to the table and took the phone, opened the phone and activated the cellular data

I just took a deep breath when I saw so many messages coming in from Mario

And back my tears flowed reading the contents

"I'll also find it hard to forget you Mario, but I'm sure I can" I said as I rubbed my face rough when I finished reading the message

I put my phone back down and took a deep breath, then went back up on the bed and could only turn my body back in agitation until the sound of chicken crow rang I still could not close my eyes

My job is just to cry and cry. So many regrets in my heart that it makes me feel even more unlucky in the world

Because it was dawn I immediately went downstairs, carried out my duties and started my routine. And as usual everything went on until I finished cleaning the house

At ten o'clock in the morning I went back up to my room, took a shower and as soon as I finished changing clothes I climbed back into bed, sleeping because my eyes were heavy. It didn't take long for me to finally fall asleep

While Mario who was already in his office looked glum, many times he saw his phone, hoping that Intan would send him a message

He saw if the last Intan active at two in the morning, until now the woman he loved was not active as well.

"What should I do God?" lirih Mario while rubbing his face rough

He saw a picture of Intan's face that filled his cellphone gallery. And she smiled bitterly considering how warm their love was

"I'll keep waiting for you, Intan." he said.