DIARY RIRIN
10

Sandra's funeral is over, now Ririn is in her room. Ririn is still deeply saddened by Sandra's departure. Ririn stared at Sandra's photo of "mama, Ririn's affectionate with mama. Ma Ririn knows actually my dear mother is also the same Ririn even though mama often torments Ririn. Mama now Ririn is alone even Ririn has not been able to find her sister. Ma Ririn apologizes to mama because Ririn can not be a good child" Ririn said in a picture frame mending his mother.

Reno looked at Ririn with grief, Reno finally approached Ririn "Rin let's eat first, you haven't eaten in the afternoon" Reno said.

"I'm not hungry" said Ririn.

"Ririn don't because you lost your mama you ignore me as your husband. Now your responsibility is not only yourself but also that I am your husband. Now you're following me, you're eating ya" Reno said.

Ririn let out a heavy sigh, Reno is right now that Ririn's responsibility is huge because Ririn is a wife. Finally Ririn obeyed Reno's words to eat. Niken saw that Ririn was just stirring her food and was feeling sad.

"Honey eaten dong food should not just be stirred. Ririn does not need to feel alone is there mama, Reno, Bima, Dewi, bi Ijah the same other dear Ririn okay" said Niken comforting Ririn. Ririn simply nodded and ate her food.

Just 5 mouthfuls of Ririn already felt full. Finally, Ririn said to the others to go to the room "mas Reno, I went to the room first yes" Ririn permission.

"Yes no papa, later I followed" said Reno while exhaling slowly. Ririn went to the room but not her room but Sandra's. There Ririn remembers all her memories with Sandra. Ririn accidentally saw an envelope lying on the table, without waiting for Ririn to pick it up and read it.

**My last note to Ririn**

**Hi dear, you don't papa right? Don't cry mama's dong**.

**Rin when you open this letter means that your mom is not next to Ririn anymore. Rin, mama always put your letter on this table**.

**Rin mom wants you to be happy, sorry mom who always torments you. Sorry mama who always made your childhood and adolescence just shadowed with violence**.

**Ririn mama dear to you. Mama is now calm here, Ririn always doain mama yes dear**.

**Ririn must be strong even without mom or dad. Oh yeah, now mama's the same as Rin's father. We'll see you from here**.

**Ririn mama asked for help with you, please say sorry mama when you met your sister huh. My mother apologized for making him suffer. Mama apologized Rin to you, maybe this writing became an outpouring of your heart for the last time. Dear mom with Ririn**.

"Mama, Ririn is also fond of mama. Mama and I are calm there" said Ririn as she hugged a letter from Sandra. Now Ririn is on the balcony of Sandra's room while staring at the stars.

"The same old man looks so bright there. Mama I know, Ririn's fragile here. Dad, mama sorry Ririn hasn't been able to find sister. But Ririn promises Ririn will try to find her brother" said Ririn, Ririn wrote her heart in her diary

Fragile tree branches are now more fragile when they lose their life force..

It was still a warm embrace from the Sun before the black clouds removed it...

The space that glows becomes pitch black who will light it again?

Ririn sobbed back she still very much remembered how the last hug Sandra had given her.

...*******...

Reno is sitting in the living room waiting for Nino to come, as Reno gets a call from Nino saying that she is coming to her in-laws. Shortly Nino arrived at the residence of Sandra "Ren I am in mourning for the death of Lo's in-laws. I just got word from Aunt Niken this afternoon" explained Nino.

"Gak papa No, I'm also sorry not ngabarin Lo. I don't tell anyone because I have to call my wife" Reno explained.

"Yes not papa. Oh yeah, which wife is Lo?" Ask Nino.

"He went to sleep first. Maybe he's tired of not having a break this afternoon" Reno replied.

Nino was just nodding. Reno and Nino chat until it doesn't feel like the clock has shown at 9 p.m. "Yes Ren I say yes already at night" said Nino.

"Oh yes, thank you for coming" Reno said. Nino leaves the grounds of Sandra's house. Reno also intends to go to Ririn's room to see the state of Ririn. Reno entered very carefully for fear of waking up Ririn but when entering Reno did not see the existence of Ririn in the room at all. Reno went out and checked the rooms in the house.

Reno finds his wife in a room that seems to belong to Sandra. "Ririn, aren't you asleep yet?" Tanya Reno approached Ririn.

"I'm not sleepy yet" replied Ririn listlessly. "Rin it's been a cold night here, now we go in and we go to sleep" Reno asked.

"I still want to be here, here I can see mom and dad. I don't want to go in the mas" Ririn refused as she shed her tears.

"Rin if you're rich gini and your mama will not calm there. Rin you have to be strong for the sake of mom and dad" Reno advised Ririn.

"Mas I still want to be here what's wrong with me staring at the stars to lose my longing for mom and dad. If you want to sleep, you just sleep" said Ririn a little loudly.

Reno can only resign and accompany Ririn on the balcony of Sandra's room. Reno stared at Ririn's back so poignantly 'that's why Rin saw you absorb this my chest is so tight' Reno's inner self.

"Mas Reno knew that my mother never gave me the opportunity to feel the warmth of a mother's embrace, but when I began to feel it my mother went away for ever. Although my mother used to make me sick, but I know that my mother actually loves me. I used to be fragile when I lost my father because for me my father was the one who understood me the most and now I lost my mother when she started accepting me as her son. Why everything must be this painful" said Ririn poured out all her heart. Reno approached Ririn and hugged Ririn tightly and did not feel her tears coming down hearing the statement from Ririn who was so stifling.