DIARY RIRIN
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The goddess looked at the sky with a sad face. "May I tell you something?" Ask the Goddess to Nino.

"Tell me" answered Nino.

"I want you not to interrupt me" Pinta Dewi. Nino also understood.

"I used to love a man who to me he was handsome and also kind. I felt that feeling myself without anyone knowing. I always thought negatively that my love would clap one hand but fate said another he expressed his feelings and I was very happy. He expressed his feelings in front of many people more precisely in the middle school field" said Dewi reminded the memories of the two of them.

"Eh Wi, join yuk" asked Nino.

"Where are you going?" Ask the Goddess a little confused.

"You come along, I want to say something to you" replied Nino.

Has not been able to answer the hand of the Goddess has been pulled by Nino towards the field. "Why are we here anyway?" Ask the Goddess.

"Wait a minute" Nino replied and passed to the sidelines to pick up a bouquet of flowers.

"Goddess Ariestia Pratama, do you want to be my girlfriend?" Tanya Nino slightly shouted. Not a few who saw it were cheering with excitement. The Goddess nodded shyly accepting Nino.

"I want you to answer don't just shut up" Nino said, shouting.

"Yes I accept" said the Goddess shouting. They hugged ignoring their surroundings.

Nino recalled asking Dewi to be her lover and asking Dewi to give her heart.

Nino now started to feel like she was the most bastard among the bastards. "Wi." said Nino.

"I'm not finished No" replied Dewi with increasingly heavy tears.

"That day where he and I were punished by the teacher for making a fuss but because of my happiness, I don't care if I have to be punished" said Dewi while laughing crisply.

Dewi continued the story "2 years we lived the love story with full of joy and sorrow until the time came he left without the slightest news. It was the hardest time for me to be ignored by my lover. At that time I wanted to give up but there was one weak person who made me have to be strong. I saw her fall weak from losing her brother. He was sick he cried for days until finally he was a cheerful boy who had become a quiet and closed child".

"I don't know what else Wi should be. Mama hates me while brother and Chiko leave me, now I'm alone Wi" explained Ririn in despair.

"Listen to me Rin, God has a wonderful plan behind all this. I promise we will find brother Nino together" said Dewi hugging the fragile body of his best friend.

The goddess paused her speech because she felt tightness in her chest. He could not bear to remember his bitter memories with Ririn.

"You know he lives like a body without a soul when he loses people who love him. There I saw how bad he was and all that made me strong. I saw him who was about to end his life by cutting off his veins. But because of the glimmer of hope that we gave him, he began to rise again and get his life purpose back" explained Dewi increasingly feeling claustrophobic.

Unknowingly, Nino shed her tears by holding back her stuffing. "After he had achieved his wish, I began to struggle to find the man I loved so much. Until 4 years passed I did not find him until I became a sage on my best friend's relationship. I destroyed my best friend's relationship, I felt comfortable at the same time my best friend's lover until I realized that it was only a moment but it was too late because my best friend's romance was destroyed" Dewi continued her story. Nino understands what is being told by the Goddess, Dewi tells the end of Ririn's relationship with Bima.

"Wi I want us.." Nino said, The Goddess suddenly interjected.

"After that, he and I decided to keep our distance and have a friendly relationship. One night I went to a place where I last met the man I loved. I convinced myself that it was all over when he left me but it turned out that fate had once again brought me back to him and he promised never to leave me again. But somehow 4 months ago she spoke to me and ended our relationship for no apparent reason. I am really disappointed in him but it is okay for me not to have any right to decide his decision" explained Dewi.

"Wi sorry for my selfishness. I really can't choose between you and him" Nino said.

"No, we never know what other people are feeling. For us our burden is the heaviest but without realizing many people who have the heaviest burden" said Dewi calming.

"Wi why don't you slap me anyway? I'm a man so irresponsible why do you still love me?" Tanya Nino was desperate.

"You remember you said we can plan a marriage with whom but we can't plan whose love falls on whom. I love you unconditionally so I won't forget you easily. So I'll try No" replied the Goddess.

I don't know why it feels so painful to hear the statement from the Goddess who wants to forget it. "I don't want to lose you" whined Nino regretfully.

"I hope you are happy with him who is your choice. My message No. Never give any hope to him when your heart still keeps another name there. Do not let him only have your body without having your heart" the message of the Goddess strengthened his heart.

"I hope you can find a better replacement for me. Find someone who can make you happy. I just want to apologize to you. Sorry I gave you hope, sorry I hurt you, sorry because my presence made you this bad. Sorry Wi" regretted Nino.

"Everything is done No. Sorry if I ever hurt you and now I want you to be happy" said Dewi and passed away leaving Nino who was regretting her actions.

'What should I do? I love Goddess but on the other hand I have a sense of responsibility towards Elsa. Now I'm going to learn to love Elsa and forget the inner Goddess Nino. Now Nino learned a lot from all his mistakes. Now he is only able to move on with the situation and will learn from all his mistakes.