DIARY RIRIN
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Sandra Ririn's mother is waiting for Ririn to come home, she is worried about Ririn's condition even though she does not like Ririn still she is her daughter. Before long the door opened, Sandra turned her head and saw her daughter taking off her shoes "you see what time it is, why just came home?" Ask Sandra emotion.

"Sorry ma Ririn came home late" said Ririn staring at Sandra tired.

"You know you're a girl don't deserve to be home at this hour. You said you work but what work until you just came home at this hour" Sandra said in a high voice.

"Mama" snapped Ririn.

"Mama thinks Ririn's working as a prostitute, just this time, won't Ririn come home tonight? Why is it that all the things Ririn does are a problem for mama? Mama thinks Ririn has no fatigue, Ririn is also human ma" said Ririn with a voice that is not less high.

"You dare to snapped mama, since when did you dare to be with mama huh?" Sandra said while slapping Ririn's cheek.

Ririn was surprised by Sandra's current treatment, as much as Sandra hated her she never hit her.This is the first time Sandra hit her. "Udah enough ma or mama still want to hit me, hit me ma if it can make mama seneng. Hit me" said Ririn full of emotion.

Sandra who was surprised by what she did to Ririn was oblivious to Ririn's words. He didn't know why he could do that to Ririn, he had never been like this before.

Ririn who saw no response from her mother went to her room leaving her mother.

Sandra who realized that Ririn had gone and dropped herself on the floor she still lamented her mistake "sorry mama Rin, sorry mama. All this because your dad if he hadn't done that to mom there's no way mom would have done this to you. Sorry mama Rin" Sandra regretted

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Ririn went into her room and leaned her body on the door "mama Ririn dear same mama why mama gini rich, what's wrong Ririn? Mama Ririn once thought that one day Ririn would get the right answer to the reason why mama hated Ririn, but now that Ririn could even slap from mama" cried Ririn because of the trials that always befall her. Now Ririn reopened her Diary.

I always expected the presence of the moon and the sun...

But all I got was dark night and black clouds..

Are dusk and rainbows no longer willing to accompany the increasingly fragile earth?

Ririn closes her book and goes back to remembering old events where Sandra always scolded her.

"Mama's Kirin doesn't want you to defy mom's orders"

"Ririn what are you doing anyway"

"Where have you been, huh?"

Ririn remembered the photo that her mother gave her, Ririn immediately took the photo in her drawer 'this man that I just hit, do I really have to choose to marry her? I have to do something that makes you happy and let go of everything, Ririn.

In Sana Ririn found her picture with Dimas and Dewi Ririn also took it "why do you guys do this to me, I believe the same you but in fact you make me this destructive. Bim we have been in this relationship for 4 years but why Bim you even cruel this throw me, is this really God's way to love me if you are not the best" ririn said in the photo. Now Ririn is faced with a very heavy ordeal in her life and even so Ririn still expects a little happiness.

Now Ririn went out to the balcony of her room and looked at the star "Dad now Ririn is an adult, Ririn is the same father. Ririn feels Ririn's life is heavy, Ririn bears the heavy burden of father" Ririn fights on the father who is gone.

Sandra who was on the balcony of her room not far from the balcony of Ririn's room heard Ririn's complaint. Sandra was devastated that she treated Ririn like her stepdaughter. "Ririn... Sorry mom yes. Mama was wrong in treating you son, mama did all that had a reason" Sandra said and was heard by Ririn.

"Mama will tell me everything. Mama used to love you before your dad changed. Your father used to hit mama, snapped mama, talked rough with mama. He only expects you and does not love your mother at all, therefore you are the victim of your emotional outlet. Sorry mommy son" said Sandra.

Ririn was surprised but before long Ririn asked "my father has gone on why mama still hates Ririn?".

"It's all because your face looks a lot like your father" Sandra replied with a heavy sigh.

"Ma Ririn accepts the person you want to be your daughter-in-law. Ririn wants to make mama happy, Ririn does not want mama disappointed. For Ririn mama is still a good mama, mama has taken care of Ririn and took care of Ririn to this extent" said Ririn sincerely, although she still doubts whether she will be able to be a good wife for her husband later.

"Ma Ririn has a request for what you want to fulfill?" Ask Ririn carefully.

"Whatever you ask your mother will follow" answered Sandra.

"Can Ririn sleep with mom and hug mom tonight? Ririn please ma" pinta Ririn.

Sandra agreed and Ririn immediately went from the balcony to her mother's room. Ririn was happy now that she could feel a warm embrace from her mother. "Ma Ririn always craved this hug from mama. Mama knows now that Ririn is devastated, now the people that Ririn believes betrayed Ririn. But Ririn was grateful that now Ririn got what Ririn expected" Ririn said as she tightened her arms.

Sandra stroked Ririn's hair while listening to her daughter's complaint for the first time, unwittingly a tear slid down her cheek. "Sorry dear mom who never understood your feelings, who never existed for you. Mama should be the place where you complain but in fact mama even makes you more devastated" said Sandra regretfully.

"But baby mama sure the same choice mama this time he's a good man dear" continued Sandra. Ririn just nodded obediently, maybe that was the path of her destiny she was unable to dodge.

Maybe God has other ways to make her happy, and Ririn is sure that one day everything will be fine. Now Ririn chooses to throw away all her bad thoughts, she wants to enjoy her mother's warm embrace that she never got before. Maybe tonight is the time for Ririn to be happy and tomorrow is the day that Ririn will have to fight again to get the next happiness.