Don Gabriel Emerson lantern
Episode 143 - The Weight of Being Don's Wife
Firda tapped his finger on the pillow, currently sitting cross-legged in the middle of the bed while thinking about Gabriel and Michael. Firda let out a heavy sigh, as if he had been mistaken for already pushing Micheal to come to his village.
"Yes it must be that Angel's sister is jealous if her son goes to her stepmother's house." her monologue.
"H wait, is he jealous or worried? Worried that I'm cruel to her son? The story that circulated was a stepmother more cruel than the capital.." murmured later.
"Oh, because of living with the Mafia I was so was was kept.." he threw his pillow and went down from the bed.
Firda came out of her room to enjoy the afternoon, the wind bought her face so gently. Firda smiles and imagines living in this village with Gabriel and their son, Firda can't wait for her life to return to normal like everyone else.
"Mr..."
"Ning Firda's..."
"What, Ummi?" firda exclaimed as her mother called out to her with an unusual call.
"Here you go, Ning..."
Firda also walked following the direction of her Mother's voice coming from her room, Firda entered and she saw her Mother who was focusing on her mobile phone.
"Astagfirullah.." cried Firda when he saw his mother watching the Mafia movie.
"Why did Ummi watch that, eh?" ask Firda grimacing.
"Gabriel's life is like this, Fir?" asked Ummi enthusiastically make Firda increasingly grimacing "So you often do meetings with the Mafia gangs? How's it feel, Fir? Tense huh? And they're indeed fierce faces like this, Fir?"
Firda could only scratch his nape, puzzled to have to answer her mother's question from where.
"Ummi, don't watch violent movies yes, no" Firda said.
"You watch it often, Fir. Though this includes 21+ you know" exclaimed Ummi who made Firda crynesan.
"Yes, now Firda has repented, with the prayer of nasuha." said Firda.
"Firda, what are you doing here?" asked her Abi who just entered her room, and saw her husband coming, Ummi Aisyah immediately turned off her cellphone which was still playing Mafia films.
"Just talk to Ummi..." Firda replied in the end and it was not a lie.
"Hem so, it's already evening. Turn on the same lights close all the windows yes, do not in the room continue.." said Abi then he took a turban hanging behind the door.
"Where are you going, Bi?" ask Firda.
"In invited Abi to Rohim's house, said his son would enter the pesantren and want slametan first" answered him and Firda just nodded in understanding.
After his Abi left, Ummi Aisyah immediately breathed a sigh of relief. Actually her husband was not angry even though Ummi Aisyah watched the movie but her usual she would be angry if the movie was watched should not be watched by Mother like herself. Ummi Aisyah will be lectured at length to watch the tausiyah, he said.
"So what, Ummi? Still wondering about the answer?" firda and her Mother asked, making Firda chuckle.
"So, living in the Mafia neighborhood is indeed tense, Ummi. Every day adrenaline was spurred on." said Firda while walking on the sofa, so it's better his story "And killing is really a very easy thing.if we are, if we are, yelling at people makes our hearts restless, unable to sleep, guilty, but if they are, Astagfirullah..." Firda rubbed his chest which shook back when he remembered the first time he had gotten an attack that almost made his life drift, then he recalled how he had killed someone while on his way to the airport. Firda bowed sadly, he looked at his two hands that had sinned by taking away one's life. His breath was stuck in his throat.
"Firda even.." he swallowed his saliva with great difficulty "Firda has also killed someone, Ummi..." tears dripped from both corners of her eyes without being able to prevent her and Firda instantly wiped her.
Maybe Firda as long as she still looks smiling at her house, still looks cheerful what else whenever her family talks about Firda's pregnancy. While Ummi Aisyah listened to Firda carefully, she saw her two red and glassy eyes.
"Every night Firda would be reminded of the man's face, Firda did not know if God would forgive Firda... Hiks..." her cries broke and Umm Aisyah immediately grabbed Firda into her arms.
"You did it in self-defense, son." comfort him but Firda still cried a mouthful.
"But Firda has slain, a very great sin.." - She was stained with bricks.
There was a sound of the door opening and slowly the door opened, which made Firda and Umm Aisyah surprised and it turned out that Abi Farhan was coming.
"Daughter of Abi." exclaimed his father and he grabbed two women who became his heart and heart. It is the source of his spirit and his source of happiness. Abi Farhan had heard Firda's story and it made her so concerned with her mere puppet princess, who used to be a cheerful, spoiled and affectionate girl even on animals though. Firda had never raised his voice out loud to anyone, including children, but now he was forced to raise his hand holding a weapon to protect himself.
"Sorry, Firda. Abi, Ummi... Maafin Firda who has committed a sin.." lirihnya, Umm Aisyah also can not hold back her tears realize the burden that is carried by her little daughter.
"Please forgive me, son.." his father said softly, "The forgiveness of God is so vast, dear. May Allah also forgive the man and place him in His heaven..." Firda could only nod weakly and he still sobbed.
"O Allah, your forgiveness is extensive. So my little light begs you, forgive me, take away my sins, accept my repentance. And ease my suffering, for it is so heavy to be the wife of a Don. Lead us out of this circle of darkness, give us Your light so that we may have a better and more purposeful life"