Don Gabriel Emerson lantern
Eps 74 - Because of Love
Firda stepped gontai down the stairs one by one, his mind floated out of nowhere because there was too much he thought. As well as her raging feelings, Firda hoped that what she heard from Gabriel was just an illusion or a dream, which must be destroyed immediately when she is awake.
Firda tries to convince himself that all is not true, there is no way Gabriel is a criminal.
Firda recalls his first meeting with Gabriel, which followed up with his next meeting to an incident that made Firda have to marry Gabriel, even the incident did not really happen.
If what Gabriel said was the same as that incident, Firda would be very grateful.
But considering what had happened last night, the terrible incident even made Firda still tremble when he remembered it.
"What should I do now, God..." Firda muttered in his confusion.
Firda was even perplexed by her own feelings now, she was angry at Gabriel, but was also afraid of her true identity.
Firda was disappointed in Gabriel but he also felt pity.
Firda continued to step towards the exit of the magnificent mansion, a splendor that could not make her feel comfortable inside her at this moment. Firda even felt so claustrophobic, as if he was in a narrow and dark place.
Gabriel lets her go, Gabriel says he won't force Firda to be on his side, Gabriel also says he has quit the crime, for Firda's sake. But is that enough for Firda?
Then how now?
Firda continued to step like a dazed person, until his steps came to a halt exactly one step before the main gate.
"He let me go." murmured Firda again and immediately the tears just flowed back, moistening his cheeks.
Firda had the right to leave after what Gabriel said, but Firda's legs felt so heavy as to step out of the gate.
Firda also recalls what his grandfather said, as bad as Gabriel or as much as Gabriel lacked, but he was not as bad as Pharaoh. Pharaoh was still given a second chance.
But Firda was also afraid of Gabriel right now.
Firda squatted there and finally she came back crying so well. It doesn't matter how many bodyguards and servants are watching him right now.
Even Gio was watching Firda from behind the window of his room.
"Finally you know the facts of your husband" Gio muttered alone.
While Firda can only hide her face between her knees.
His mind ordered him to go, but his heart refused his raw raw.
Firda still continued to cry for a few minutes while recalling the time with Gabriel all along. Firda's back shook violently due to her cries.
Until her cries slowly began to subside, Firda tried to stand up and she was a little dazed and even almost fell, but Firda quickly balanced her body.
Gio who was still looking at him was surprised and he felt worried about Firda's state.
"Firda.." She was shrill, somehow she wanted to be on Firda's side at this time, wanted to hug her and calm her, wanted to wipe her tears and comfort her.
Firda rubbed the tears flowing down her cheeks, she took a deep breath and exhaled her slowly. Firda looked out the gate, he wanted to leave, he could not live with a criminal, even his life almost floated and at any time could drift because of his husband.
Firda was about to step out but his feet seemed to refuse to step. Firda tried to strengthen his heart and told himself that he had to go, this was already a very correct decision.
"There's no way you can live with a Mafia..."
"Your husband let you go..."
"To be on his side is to challenge death..."
The sound of the voice tried to strengthen Firda's determination but still, at the end he turned around and instead ran into the house with tears.
Gio who saw that could only smile wryly and he closed his window curtain violently.
Firda ran into the house, he climbed up the stairs impatiently wanting to meet Gabriel immediately.
Firda opened the door of his room and he found Gabriel curled up on the edge of the bed, turning his back.
Firda immediately entered and he crawled up onto the bed, making Gabriel jerk in shock and immediately turned his head.
Firda looked at Gabriel's face, tears were even still flowing in the corner of Gabriel's eyes. Gabriel cried for the first time and it made Firda's heart pinch, her chest tight at the weakness of her husband.
While Gabriel saw Firda again in disbelief and he was just stunned, thinking all this was just a dream.
Without even speaking, Gabriel raised his head and placed it on Firda's lap. Even if this was just a dream, at least Gabriel could still see Firda and inhale the scent of the wife.
But as he feels Firda clutching her and kissing her sweet potato many times, Gabriel knows this is not a dream anymore as Firda's tears fall down her forehead.
"You're back, whether it's a question or a statement, but Gabriel said so softly and full of energy. He pressed his face in the stomach of Firda and Firda held the husband tightly.
Both are the same as not talking and only the sound of crying that is getting smaller.
Firda was still holding Gabriel and still continued to shower her husband's head and forehead with kisses and kisses.
"Don't leave me.." - Gabriel finally breathed in the scent of his wife, he wrapped his hands around Firda's waist tightly.
"I love you." said Firda who made Gabriel look up straight, looking at Firda in disbelief. His pupils widened and his lips slightly opened, Gabriel felt he was dreaming or hallucinating right now. But that thought was wiped out as she felt Firda's tiny hand caress her cheek and wipe her tears so gently.
"I want to leave you, I'm afraid of you" said Firda still wiping Gabriel's tears and then stroking Gabriel's hair
"But I love you, I can't leave because I love you. I know I could've died because of you, but still my heart cries out for love for you" she said, which made Gabriel's heart seem to be leaping from its place and he was still dumbfounded, trying to digest what his wife is saying.
"And since I love you, I won't leave your side. I'll hold out as much as I can on your side, as long as you don't ever go back to that black world"
Gabriel immediately nodded his head and he pulled the hand of Firda who was still faithful to caress him, Gabriel kissed Firda's hand many times and his eyes again felt hot. Tears rolled free from the corner of her eye.
Gabriel felt stupid because now he was so crybaby and just kept crying. But Gabriel did not care, he cried out of fear at Firda's residence and he also cried because Firda did not leave him.
Gabriel had no idea why he was crying for two very different reasons.
"I love you too, don't leave me" Gabriel and Firda nodded. She looked down and kissed her husband. Gabriel closed his eyes, permeating the warm feeling that lingered in his heart because of Firda's light kiss.
"Hopefully this isn't a dream, I don't want you to go"
"I'm here, this isn't a dream"