Don Gabriel Emerson lantern
Eps 20 - Fear and Regret
With trembling hands, Firda picked up her clothes and took her to the bathroom. He quickly put all his clothes on. After that, Firda ran out and he saw his cat running towards him. Firda directly carried her cat while tears continued to flow freely on her cheeks.
"Ciu Ciu, let's go home. We go home before Ashar" said Firda in the middle of her sobs. He could hardly feel his feet anymore.
Firda came out of that magnificent hotel and he became the center of attention of the people there.
Firda hugged her cat tightly, even her tears were so wetting her cat's fur. As if to feel the pain of Firda, the cat continued to groan softly and occasionally lick Firda's hands.
"We have to get home before Ashar, Ciu Ciu.... Hix... Hisk.. Oh my god" Firda kept trying to speed up his steps until now he really was outside the hotel.
Firda stopped a taxi, inside the taxi, her cries getting broken, even involuntarily roaring. Think what he should say to his Abi, to his Ummi, his grandparents. Their jewels... Their jewels have been stained.
"I must follow Ummi's orders, don't trust him. My God, what should I do now" Firda could only regret all of it and fear was now encircling her heart.
While the taxi driver could only glance at Firda, astonished by Firda who looked very hit.
"Sir, aa... Ashar, ashar how much longer?" firda asked while trying to stop her crying and wipe away her tears.
"in 10 minutes, Non" she replied.
"10 minutes.10 minutes..." Firda muttered like a fool "Smuck, must get home before ashar" said Firda.
The driver was driving at a higher speed. And before Ashar reverberated, Firda had reached his aunt's house. Firda immediately paid for the taxi, then he ran inside.
"Firda came home." cried Firda but then he ran to his room, not wanting anyone to see his current state. Samar Firda heard her mother say Firda was gone for an hour and a half, that's her meaning, Firda was at the hotel for about an hour more.
Firda instantly locked the door of her room, released her Ciu Ciu and then she ran to the bathroom. Firda turned on the shower and flushed her body there still with her full outfit.
Firda was crying so much under the shower. It's stained, it's dirty, it's unholy. Firda has tarnished the honor of his family because he no longer has that honor.
Firda continued to cry, he rubbed his entire body violently. His body that has now been stained, his body that has been plastered by a man who should not.
Firda tried to remember what really happened, how could all this happen. But Firda did not manage to remember it. Could this all be Gabriel? Firda regrets that she ignored her mother's orders to not trust Gabriel. Now Firda can only cry roaring in the bathroom, his chest really feels so tight.
"Sorry Firda, Ummi, Abi.. Sorry" lirih Firda.
..........
"You raped her? wake, dammit. Since when did you become a venereal villain" John pulled Gabriel's blanket and shook Gabriel's body. While Gabriel continues to be shouted at by John and his body continues in his final shake awake but still seems to have difficulty opening his eyes that feel heavy.
"Wake, Gabriel. What have you done to the girl." cried John again this time he took water and doused Gabriel's face. Making Gabriel instantly open his eyes wide.
"What are you doing, Gabriel? you set him up? fuck her? do you know who he is? How can you be as beautiful as that" exclaimed John angrily.
"I... I didn't mean to do that, John" said Gabriel, and with trembling hands he tried to button up his shirt.
"But you did it" cried John.
"I.. I don't know" said Gabriel again. After putting on her shirt and pants, Gabriel immediately ran out looking for Firda and John followed her.
"The girl was gone, 20 minutes ago" John said.
Gabriel snatched John's car keys "For God's sake I didn't mean to do it" Gabriel said.
He got into John's car, turned it on and drove the car at high speed.
"I'm sorry, Fir. Sorry...."
"Please forgive me, Fir. You're so innocent, my God, I'm sorry" Gabriel kept muttering apologies even though he knew it was useless. What happened cannot be stopped.
...... ...
Meanwhile, the entire family of Aunt Firda went to the boarding school because there was an event there. Aisyah also invited Firda away.
But Firda still confined himself in his room, unable to look into his mother's eyes, unable to face her Abi. Firda felt so despicable, he again sobbed but Firda muffled her with a pillow.
"Fir, are you sleeping? don't wanna come?" yelled Aisyah from outside "We are until nightfall you know"
"FIS.... Firda wants to sleep. Later on" cried Firda with his voice that has been raucous because he continues to cry, roaring under the shower.
"Yes, I'm afraid to be home alone"
"En... Engga" said Firda.
After everyone left, Firda came back crying so she was in her room. He went back to the bathroom. He returned to flushing his body with water, hoping that a little of it would restore his sanctity but he knew that, as much as he washed it with water, it would not restore what had been stained.
...... ...
Gabriel arrived at the house of Aunt Firda, he was grateful to remember this house when yesterday drove Firda home. But after knocking on the door and even banging, no one responded. Gabriel waited for several hours, but the house was empty. Even Gabriel waited until the sun sank, the sky began to darken and still no one responded. No one even turned on the lights. A house is like a house without inhabitants.
With a troubled heart, Gabriel left the house.