Forced to Share a Bed
The Side of Life

Zulfikar Saga Antesana

I can't deny, all the memories of him are etched back into the memory. I hugged Anulika and kissed her head. Hanin went straight to the mushola. She was teaching while crying.

Me, the family representative and Miss Silfa will fly there. It seemed, the Goddess would be buried there. Because, Miss Silfa did not take care of her return.

"Goddess Laksmi."

I looked at Anulika who was sleeping. After I carried it while being fed formula milk, he fell asleep immediately.

"Mommy you left in a very good state. Anulika should be proud. Don't be sad, Papa will always be there for you, and you also still have a mother. There's mama Daini. He loves you very much."

I lay her tiny body on the bed. Then call the nurse to take care of her. Then return to the mosque to meet Hanin.

"Maas ...."

He's hunting my deck. Crying and calling the name of the Goddess. I can only hold it while rubbing his back.

"Dear, we'll be leaving soon. Take care of the kids."

"Yes, Mum ...."

"Anulika is calm. He's sleeping. It must have been because he felt the Goddess's departure."

"Yes." Yeah." He nodded. I tidied his face.

"But be careful. Will the Lady of the Goddess be buried there?"

"It looks like he's a darling. The guide Umrah said, before her death, Dewi showed signs hinting that she wanted to stay in Makkah forever. They learned the story from the Radit bang. Unfortunately, for now we can't contact bang Radit, Radit's condition is severe shock, dear. She lost the Goddess."

"Huks, bang Radit." She hugged me and cried on my chest.

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Mecca, Saudi Arabia

Every living creature will meet death. When the end comes, the soul will come out of the human body and prepare to enter the realm of barzakh.

In the realm of barzakh, man will be responsible for all his deeds in the world. Those who do good deeds will be placed on the best side, while those who do good deeds will be tortured and placed on the bad side.

Sometimes, the departure of the human brings deep sorrow for his close relatives and family. After long leaving the world, his figure would be missed again by them.

Yes, that longing is now felt by me. This time I missed him. Just this time there was a feeling of wanting to see his face.

"Goddess Laksmi," I murmured.

Me and the Goddess family have arrived in Makkah. Right now, I am praying at the Grand Mosque to pray for him. Yes, the Goddess may not be able to see a living person because she already lives in a different realm. However, I personally believe that he can still hear the prayers sent to him.

According to the statement of the travel agency, it is currently being taken care of a death certificate from Saudi Arabia Hospital. Because every pilgrim or Umrah pilgrim who dies, the procedure must be taken to the Saudi Arabian Hospital for an autopsy to determine the cause of death. After being autopsied by the Hospital, Dewi's family must ask for a certificate from the police.

Saudi Arabia said police certificates were needed to prove the deaths were a natural one. If his death is unnatural, then it is the police's business. But if his death was natural, then it will be continued for the funeral procession.

"You're happy, Wi. Hanin and I are envious of your death." I sat still at the location of the Fainted Goddess.

Before the deceased worshippers are buried, the Saudi Arabian Hospital will usually provide a certificate or permission for the pilgrims to be buried. After the letter is issued, the deceased will be taken to the bathhouse in the Uhud area before being buried.

Next, will be the funeral of the corpse. In this case, the funeral may be attended by the family concerned, may also not be attended. It all depends on the family concerned. I became aware of the procedure after getting an explanation from the officer concerned.

After this, I'll go to the hotel to meet Bang Radit. Had not had time to meet Bang Radit because before, he was admitted to the Hospital due to shock. The doctor said, bang Radit has not been able to accept the departure of Dewi. Yes, his lips did say sincerely. But the fact is, bang Radit is very bad.

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"Bang Radit, be patient Bang." I hugged her. My eyes circled the hotel.

"I-I can't sir. I can't lose him. I haven't expressed my true feelings yet" he lamented.

Losing a loved one to death is not easy and difficult to explain. Feelings of loss and grieving can last long enough even though a person can go about their daily activities well.

"The goddess left in a state of husnul khotimah, Bang Radit should be grateful and happy. Bang Radit can be sad, but don't drag on like this."

"Yes, I know sir. Ta-but .. difficult."

"When you lose your partner, that feeling of sadness can be very intense. But Bang, losing it's a natural part of life. So do not let Bang Radit's sadness lead to prolonged periods of sadness or depression."

"When did this sorrow disappear from my chest, sir? I feel like my chest is tight when I remember it."

"Sadness and grief will usually decrease in intensity over time, but grieving is an important process to overcome the feeling of loss. Bang Radit is in this phase."

"I want to be mad at myself, sir! I-I wasn't by her side when the Goddess left. I regret it Sir!" emphatically. The looks of regret and deep wounds that emanated clearly from the gaze of bang Radit.

"Anger is natural, Bang. But anger does not require us to be angry. Anger allows us to express our emotions and fears. It's okay Bang, it's okay." I put my arms back together and rubbed his back.

"If we return it to destiny, in fact, we never lose anything in this life, Bang. It's best if the loss will be exchanged for something much more beautiful. Sometimes, people have to get to the point of loss to understand the meaning of presence, compassion, and loyalty. Losing it will make us learn to accept and be grateful for everything we still have" I explained.

"Yes sir, it turns out .. the meaning of a new presence will be felt when loss has taken it away. When that happened, I just felt regret." He hugged his knees and went back to daydreaming.

"Propay the Bang."

"After I've examined it, the Goddess shows signs of leaving, sir. And I .. a-I don't understand it."

"Yes Bang. It would be painful to lose someone we love. But that is not the end of everything. Although without the Goddess, Bang Radit should be able to be happy."

"I'm a pessimist, sir." Hair pulling.

"Bang Radit, happiness can come at any time and in unexpected ways. After the Goddess left, Bang Radit had to sincerely release her. The goddess was no longer in front of Bang Radit, but Bang Radit could still remember her in his heart."

"Good Sir. I-i'll do. I wish I could. Please pray," he asked.

This afternoon, after getting a funeral permit from the hospital, Dewi will be buried soon. According to his wishes, the Goddess would be buried in the Holy Land.

Looking at the Kaaba from this direction, it made me want to make a quick visit here with Hanin and the children including Anulika.

"Goodbye Goddess Laksmi. I'm happy to know you, I'm happy to have been a part of your life. There, I'm sure you're happy too" I muttered as I stared at the clothes the officer had packed.

Then look back at the Kaaba and foresee this incident. Death must happen. Basically, humans living on this earth have one thing in common. Namely, both will die. Death is the end of our life on earth, but not the end of our existence.

Death is the one thing we all fear and cannot control. But, it is part of life and we all have to be ready to deal with it.

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Radithya Wira

"Thank you for giving me so much happiness. Now I know, one form of loving you is letting go of your loss."

I stared at the vortex from a distance. Mr. Zulfikar, Ms. Silfa and others have returned to Indonesia four days ago.

I chose to remain here until the seventh day of his departure, and today is the seventh day. That means, tomorrow I have to leave it. To be honest, to this day, I still feel lost.

"Honey .., today, I want to talk about loss happily. I will not remember you as a memory. But I will remember you as a lesson. Thank you for all the experiences you created. Thank you for making me happy." I waved my hand, then my tears came back.

"Thank you for coming into my life and making me happy. Thank you for loving me and accepting my love."

"But baby, do you know my heaviest loss? My heaviest loss was the fact that I was late to make you happy, and I was late in expressing this feeling of love for you."

Maybe it's time I learned to let go, even though I still didn't realize that the source of my happiness was really gone. Go away for good.

"I'm so happy, baby. Happy at His side, in the best place. Thank you for the happiness you create."

"I promise I'll come here often to see you. In my heart will always be stored all the memories of you and our togetherness. I'm sure the farewell was created to make the reunion feel more beautiful, and I'm sure we'll see each other again. Aamiin's."

Then read the tahlil for him, and return to the hotel when it starts at dusk.

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Jakarta, Indonesia

Daini Hanindiya Princess Sadikin

Lately, my relationship with him has been difficult. In addition to Zulfikar busy sir, we are also faced with the presence of three hearts that always make me and Zulfikar sir have difficulty doing quality time.

Do we feel burdened by this? Of course NOT. Mr. Zulfikar and I are not CHILDFREE.

Childfree is a term that refers to someone who does not have children, whether biological, adoption, or others. Alternatively, the term can be used to describe someone who has chosen not to have children, but it can also be for those who cannot have children.

Yes, having children or not is a life choice and is a decision of the couple. But I think this is very contradictory to the nature of human creation.

Man is a creature in the best of form. In addition, humans are also equipped with knowledge and intellect and will, therefore humans have the capacity as a caliph on earth.

Imagine if all couples in the world embraced childfree. Humans will slowly be scarce, and the entire country will experience a crisis of the younger generation. It's hideous!

Whether you have children or not is an option. But it's not a lifestyle! It was just a short thought of a person who did not care about the survival of his nation, country and religion!

"Ready?"

I jumped in shock.

"Mas! Habits! Shocked to know!" my sentakku. Always has. He often hugged me suddenly when I was unaware of his existence.

"Haha. Sorry dear."

His hands were actively caressing my stomach. Today, Zulfikar and I are childfree. But this is childfree in the narrow sense huh.

That is, Zulfikar and I momentarily freed ourselves from the children so that we could quality time. Activities like this should be done occasionally. The goal, of course, is to maintain household harmony.

"Don't get dressed first?" my many. He just finished his bath and still wears a towel. Some of his body was even wet.

"No need, dear. 'It will also be opened again. Yes, yes," he replied. Apparently, he missed that moment a lot.

"Yes already atuh. Hayu (fuck)!" take me. Reversing the body and embracing it. He looked at me and smiled.

"Beautiful, sexy," she said.

His hands are coming here and there. To my sensitive parts. Then I couldn't get a wart anymore as he grabbed my lips while pointing me to the bed.

"Slow down, Mas" I whispered as my body was breaking down. Her overstimulating spirit frightened me a little.

"Don't worry," he murmured.

He is spoiling my body. Although this isn't the first time. But what he did always embarrassed me. Rather than look, I would rather close my face, close my eyes, or smother my own lips so as not to make a sound.

"Likes?" he whispered after successfully making my body tremble several times. I can only nod weakly while breathing.

Next, of course I should spoil him. I had to turn into a 'rogue.' woman.' I will conquer it with all my love and charm.

When our bodies intertwine, I feel like I'm not myself anymore. I became crazy made, I became a devotee, I became a 'rogue' woman who greatly valued her body.

"Im yours" he whispered.

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...~TAMAT~...