Forced to Share a Bed
Facing the Reality

"Don't rush to bribe him, Wi. Mas chewed it can not be as usual," protested Mr. Zulfikar.

While playing 'paper-scissors-stones, ' I lost. So, the Goddess's mother is in charge of feeding. Brother Gendis chose to go home for a while on the grounds of fear of getting old if too long in this room. Kak Gendis apparently does not like the attitude of the Goddess who according to him is stubborn and willing to win by himself.

"It's porridge, Mas. No need to chew for long."

"Sir Goddess, let me. It's pureed, but Mr. Zulfikar's just finished the operation. This still attached a drain also in his ear. When chewing must be painful," I pleaded. I don't accept Mr. Zulfikar being treated like that.

"Don't you know Daini!" he said as he offered a bribe to Zulfikar sir who spontaneously pursed his lips to refuse the bribe.

"Wi, if you don't like to feed, Mas. Why didn't Hanin do it?" Mr. Zulfikar said as he turned his face away.

"I actually like it, Mom. I just don't like having Daini in this place, now let's eat again. You have to take medicine, right, Mas?"

"Sister, I'll continue." I had to grab the tray he was holding.

"Yes already, bribe there! Your satisfaction! I'm going to take a shower first" he said. Then hurry to the waiting room.

"Huft, Goddess is not used to bribe me, if I am sick, who takes care of me bang Radit," he explained.

"Yes, you don't need to talk much, now focus on spending the porridge, yes" I said.

"Okay, honey, anything I'll do if you tell her to." I looked back and held my hand.

"Alhamdulillah, full of love, it's yes." I helped her drink and wiped her lips.

"I'll go first, sir."

"Where are you going, baby?"

"You take the medicine. After you eat, you have to take your medicine, right?"

"Don't go, baby. Drug problems, later also delivered the same nurse. Stay here, with me. I'm scared," he said.

"Fearful?"

"Dear, I'm afraid the Goddess is doing things that are not," he explained.

"Okay, I'm staying here. But Lady Goddess couldn't have hurt you, sir. He loves you so much."

"Did you forget? Have you not been hurt too?"

"Yes, I've been hurt. But I forgive him, sir. I told him because I was sure he did it out of emotion. It's not good if we talk about Miss Dewi, it's better to focus on your health." I then rubbed his hands.

"You shouldn't care about me, baby. You should just go back to Bandung. With you like this, being considerate, and seeming to like me, how could I possibly divorce you, Hanin."

"Sir, sometimes .. we have to let go of something valuable to get real happiness. I'm sure once we're apart, our lives will be even better." I pretended to be tough, when .. My heart was hurt. I can't imagine what my days were like when I wasn't with him.

"Hanin, if I'm a widower and you're a widow, please don't accept any other man besides me. After my business and the Goddess is done, I want to ask you back. I want to be a real father to my children."

"Sir, even if we're not together. These children are still your children. You can see it whenever you want."

"But .. I also want to be your husband Hanin. Wallahi, I love you so much. After meeting you, I even regretted my entire togetherness with Angel and Goddess. I also don't know why this love feels so deep. Am I being selfish?"

"Yes, you are selfish" I replied.

"Mas," suddenly the Goddess ma'am arrived. It's neat and pretty.

"Where are you going, brother?" my many.

"Not anywhere, I want to stay here to accompany my husband" he replied. Then he approached Zulfikar and cupped his cheeks.

"Wi, what do you want?"

"You kiss me, you are."

"Wi, not now" Zulfikar turned his face away. But the Goddess continued to force.

"Sister, I'm sorry, Mr. Zulfikar's still recovering." I reflexively pulled the hand of the Goddess ma'am.

"Dain! Don't be so presumptuous!" The Goddess ma'am brushed me off. I relented.

"Excuse me, there's therapy."

Thank goodness a nurse came in. He brought a trolley full of drugs. Bu Dewipun was forced to postpone his wish.

"Excuse me, this is oral medicine. There are three tablets. All drunk, sir. Then, there is the injection of antibiotics, analgesics, and vitamins. I'll inject now. I ask your permission and willingness to be injected. Dad willing?" ask sister.

"Yes, please," she replied briefly.

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"In a moment, the representatives of the quality division will come here, you are ready yes Daini," said Miss Dewi after the sisters left.

"What?" Mr. Zulfikar was shocked. I am also confused.

"Why did they get here? Didn't my papa say only Tania can come here?" protest pak Zulfikar.

"Look, I'm not going to reveal Daini's identity to them, Mas."

"But, Wi. Except for Listi, they all had the Goddess resigned. You mustn't be weird, please respect Hanin's privacy" said Mr. Zulfikar.

"Here you go, better obey. From the beginning, I had no intention of ruining your reputation. The problem of Daini's reputation, yes he himself has to be responsible."

"Wi, you---." Mr. Zulfikar looked disappointed. I immediately calmed him down.

"Sir, it's okay, I'm fine" I said.

In fact, I was really confused. What reasons will Miss Dewi say to the quality staff? For a while, I could only give up.

"I'm up to you, even if Sister Dewi wants to expose my secret, I don't care" my challenge.

"No dear, I won't let that happen." Mr. Zulfikar took my hand.

"One dorm! You suck! Oiya Mas, as long as you know yes, I plan to follow the baby tube program. If you can, just as long as you're in this hospital." I did not expect that Miss Dewi would rush to say that matter.

"What's? Don't joke, Wi. I don't want to, why are we programming baby tubes? Before we get married, wasn't your reproductive health report validated?" Mr. Zulfikar was surprised.

"Mas, we're husband and wife, what's the matter 'clean? Anyway, we don't have much time. If you successfully filed for divorce, how? Anyway, before the Daini gives birth, I should be pregnant already. With me pregnant, I'm sure the religious court will consider our divorce. Or maybe, don't you want to have a child from my womb, Mas?! You're evil! You're not fair!" the hardic.

Mr. Zulfikar sighed. I see, his hands are shaking. He must be depressed by the statement of Miss Dewi. But .. I can't do much. The thing they're talking about isn't my capacity to comment on it. I chose to bow down and pray that they would find the best and fair solution for both sides.

"If I don't want to have a child from you, I must use safety or never spill it in your womb. So, in that case, please don't accuse me of being unfair, Wi. If indeed you insist, I agree---" said Mr. Zulfikar in a soft and soft voice. He paused for a moment.

"Well, so dong, Mas. After all, your mom and dad must be really happy that I'm pregnant. The child from my womb is clearly an official child. Papi mami and my extended family will also be happy," interrupted Bu Dewi with a satisfied smile. He looked at me with a mocking look. I pretended I didn't care.

"But .. there are conditions," added Mr. Zulfikar.

"Condition? What conditions, Mom? Look out, don't be weird."

"If the tube baby program is successful, please bless my marriage and Hanin. I promise I won't divorce you. Let's share the bed in a fair way" he said.

"What?! I guessed! Everything you do must be end-to-end for the sake of the Daini! Tell you what, Mas. You want to join the baby tube program? Or... Am I publishing the Daini and her entire family to the public? You just choose, Mom!" emphatically. Then hurry up and say ....

"My staff's downstairs, I'm picking them up."

"Goddess, wait."

"Sir, be patient." I clasped his hand.

"How do you think, baby? What am I supposed to do? Honestly, I'm happy that Dewi is also pregnant, but .. I still doubt she can keep her pregnancy. Besides, when she was pregnant, I was afraid that my mom and dad didn't want our kids anymore. I'm worried, baby."

"Sir, I don't need a confession from your parents. Being able to conceive and give birth to a child is enough to make me happy because it means that God has perfected my role as a woman as well as a mother. If I may argue, you better just grant it."

"With Miss Dewi pregnant, I just hope that if the attitude of Miss Dewi will change in a better direction. In addition, your relationship with Bu Dewipun will definitely be better. After all, the tube baby is grounded as long as it is done by a legitimate partner. Sir, if it's a child born from my womb by your parents, it still won't change your position as the father of my children."

"Before God, they are still your children. No one can avoid and change the destiny that He has set. So, what do you doubt?" I looked at him fixedly, his sideways gaze pitying me.

"But baby, if the Goddess is pregnant, I'll be harder to divorce her. Automatic must wait for the puerperium first, right? Must take care of child custody issues as well. I'm not sure the Goddess can take care of my son." I wonder, why Mr. Zulfikar so doubt Miss Dewi?

"Didn't you divorce me and have to wait for the puerperium? Mr. Zulfikar, I'm just giving you advice, the rest .. Your decision is in your hands."

Mr. Zulfikar then sighed. His eyes stared at the ceiling.

"Hanin, well, I agreed to follow the tube baby program, but .. may I make a request for you?"

"Is this some kind of requirement?" my many.

"Yes, it could be" he answered.

"What request, sir?"

"When I've divorced you, your past is over, can you keep waiting for me, Hanin? That is, will you wait for me to finish my divorce with the Goddess? I want us to get back together, I want to propose to you and marry you like marriage in general. Can you?"

"W-what?"

My tongue was suddenly twisted. I can't possibly say yes, but .. I also hesitate to say no. Again, I could only look at her and shed tears. Even with Mr. Zulfikar, he looked at me with glazed neutrals.

"Please ...," he said.

Then kiss the back of my hand. My tongue is still thick. I want to feel I'm in his arms and express this feeling, but .. due to a mistake in the mall, I always doubt and feel unworthy to have it.

"At least, please accept me for the sake of our children, baby. I'm fine even if my love claps one hand. I don't care if you just pretend to love me. Because all I want is ... be by your side, love you, and choose you to be my heavenly angel."

"Sir Zulfikar, huuu ...."

My mind is as if it were earth. What he said made me feel like I couldn't breathe. His words about the angel of heaven were completely in harmony with the hope I had been thinking about all along. Is Mr Zulfikar really my soul mate?

"Hanin .. answered dear, just say yes or no. Don't make me more tormented. But ... Even if you say no, I still hope that you will still be willing to pretend to accept and love me for the sake of our children."

"Sir, I---."

"Assalamu'alaikuum," apparently, the quality division staff has arrived. I am also preparing to leave Zulfikar sir.

"Hanin, stay beside me," forbid Mr. Zulfikar.

He held my hand together with the opening of the treatment room door. I tried to pull my hand, but Mr. Zulfikar didn't take it off.

"I'll take responsibility" he murmured.

I was downcast, I knew that the representative of the quality division staff who was currently in the doorway, was staring in wonder at me and must have been very surprised.

What if they realize that my stomach is starting to grow. I catch my breath in the middle of a rapidly beating heart. Inevitably, I must be prepared to accept all the risks.

If Mr. Zulfikar is willing to take responsibility, even willing to sacrifice his life for me, then why am I hiding? Why should I be afraid of public assumptions? Isn't the fact that I didn't make a mistake? Right, I have to be brave. Whether there is power from nowhere, I loudly said ....

"Wa'alaikumussalaam, please come in," with my best smile.

Apparently, there was no misti among them. The Goddess Maam who was in the front row looked at me sharply while clenching her hands.

"Dain?"

"You--?"

"Sir Director?"

They're gobsmacked. Staring at each other, then looking back at me with a million questions.

...~Tbc~...