I Love U! Husband Carried
CHAPTER 32 - The Faithful Controller of Pain

I'm broken into pieces, like broken glass. Destroyed, lost like my dreams and hopes. Rambo's wheels spin like the millions of stars in my chest. For some reason, the wind rustled even more violently than usual, besieging me with a piercing chill. Anxiety overwhelmed me, throwing me between rumbling and agonizing disappointment. It was as if I was God's most sinful being because I wished for his creation which I had considered perfect.

"He got permission to go home quickly. I'm sure to spend time with you. But, instead I found you like this." Said Rambo.

If he's allowed to go home early, then why didn't he come? where did Anta go?

I turned my gaze out there, looking at the dark night.

"Sister... "

"Yes? You calling me?" Answer Rambo.

"Can you take me around for a minute? I want to spend my tears with this rain. This time, not at home anymore."

"No way, you're pregnant!" Sergey, "You're disappointed, angry and sad however, you have to be calm. You are not alone now, your body belongs to a baby who is in there."

"Watch this night all the way. Cry as much as you can, and this trip should be enough! You don't deserve to be sad for long. Let me hit him for you!"

I was filled with the sincerity of Rambo who was angry with me. Although this disappointment is directionless, and all that is murky overwhelms my feelings, a kind of heart that is not merely a word of heart, what kind of heart is so complicated, what kind of heart is it, until I can't contain all the pain of deep disappointment. Destroyed by hope and delusion.

Even though I didn't find her heart, I felt enough to be by her side for free.

The night felt so quiet. There's a flash of how many seconds at the end of the horizon there is. The moon is solitary, with no stars around it. The light is dull and moody, but still strong up there. Like a man who has to bear his own fate, his own feelings.

We were home, at 23:45 p.m. Almost an hour's drive. There is already a car Kak Anta parked in the garage of the house with the engine running. We went down in unison, me and Rambo got off the bike, Sister Anta got off the car.

"You just got home? I was just picking you up!" Sahut Kak Anta welcomed me, but I ignored it. "Why go with Rambo?"

I was still unmoved, just busy taking Rambo's jacket off my body, and then saying. "So thank you, huh?! If not without my brother, I might still be alone on the streets." I said to Rambo. "May I wash the package first? or taken directly?"

"I'll take it! You rest, don't think too much and work hard."

Rambo took his jacket from my hand, I smiled wryly, then walked towards the front door. However, suddenly my hand was pulled, grabbed by the hand that I already knew the owner well.

"Don't leave me like this, I can explain."

I immediately turned around and immediately I grabbed the face to the left of Sister Anta. I slapped his cheek a little hard. My hands were shaking because of it. I tried to understand, but tonight I was already immersed in a burning wail of disappointment.

He was silent, while I looked at him coldly.

"Cania... " Rambo said trying to get closer. However, Brother Anta is blocking with her palm.

"What's wrong Rambo! I deserve it."

The drizzle of rain accompanied me to face it. So is the wind and the moon, and God is up there. I was silent, silent only, Soluble in endless and unguided destruction.

"Why is it still silent? Wrap again!" Said.

"Come in Kania, take a shower and change your clothes. Don't get sick from the rain. You shouldn't drag on. Don't mind!" Sergey Rambo, he looked at me with a gesture that I could understand that he understood my current feelings. Venting physically alone will not make me satisfied or even relieved. No, not at all.

"Go Rambo! You are just muddying the atmosphere " said Kak Anta while looking at me and turning his back to Rambo.

Rambo raised his tone, without caring for Kak Anta. And when I obeyed Rambo, "Rambo!!!" Sister Anta shouted, barring with it a raw blow from empty and burly hands belonging to Rambo landed on Kak Anta's face, making him fall to the floor, almost helpless.

"Sister... " I was surprised and tried to approach Sister Anta to help her stand up. However, I lost quickly once Kak Anta's collar shirt was pulled by Rambo with Rough.

"Wake you!"

"How great are you, Anta Reza, to dare to hurt women?!"

One hit landed again on the face of Kak Anta, this time in another place, if it was on the left, now on the right.

"Come Kania! don't mind about this, if you have to pass physically, let me represent you!"

"Enough Kak is enough, release Kak Anta. I don't care anymore!"

"Solve this well with him! You're lucky because he still pity you! instead you don't care about him waiting for you hours until the rain. She's pregnant! why are you so brave?" Said Rambo slowly, then hit Kak Anta's body.

While sobbing I immediately ran into the house, and Kak Anta immediately rose up to follow me even with a step frenzied.

"Kania, please let me talk. I can explain."

I turned my body, with a clouded look, I looked at him with a sting.

"I don't forget our dinner, I've been given permission, and I've been getting ready for the restaurant we agreed to. But in the middle of the road all of a sudden I got a call---"

"From Isma's mother?" My serge.

"How did you know? no, I mean you already know the problem?"

"That means right, right. It's because of Isma again! Who else, brother? if not Whose sister Isma again, do you always care?" I took my hand from Brother Anta's grasp, "Pers3tan with his problem! enjoy the time you two have!"

"Cania! listen to me first!" said Kak Anta while trying to take my hand back. "Well, okay if you're disgusted to touch me. The situation was so precarious! Isma called me because she fell in the bathroom unconscious. Therefore, inevitably I turn the direction, and help mom. I wanted to call you back at the hospital, but my cell phone battery ran out. Okay?"

"Did I also have to fall in the bathroom so that my brother would think about me, even for a second?!"

I tried to be calmer, and looked at her coldly to see her reaction.

"Kania, not so. Mom needs blood, so I'm going around to help her find. Because of that, it's a bit long... "

"Do I also have to bleed out, so that my brother will put me first, even if only for a moment?"

"No, not so Kania. After all the business was done, I immediately searched for you, I searched the house because I thought maybe you had come home, apparently nothing. Just want to go looking to the restaurant, apparently you have returned home ushered Rambo. I think of you, I worry about you too."

"We're different, I'm not as good as my brother leaving anyone else alone. I'm not a disbeliever, I'm faithfully waiting for my brother there, as we promised. I kept waiting even until the restaurant closed, because I was worried that brother would come while I was home, because my phone battery was up."

Ma'am Isma, since when did it all become about mbak Isma? though he used to tell me to give distance and do not talk about his ex-girlfriend again. It turns out it was all a lie, a lie. Or if possible, he has tried to forget, but his feelings can not be lied to.

I don't know, I just saw the shadow of Rambo sitting on the patio chair. Be alert if something unwanted might happen, maybe he's ready to put on a body, just like he did for me just now...

Sister Anta fell silent, I was silent. The atmosphere became silent.