I Love U! Husband Carried
CHAPTER 40 - Life without You

"Happy birthday, Sister Anta." My words while handing over a small gift wrapped in a pink heart-patterned paper with a blood red background.

He looked at me, smiling. His deep smile along with the glare of his eyes sparkling like stars glittering at night and as still as dew dripping from above the leaves. Then he grabbed me, then clasped my hands tightly, and said with a heavy voice.

"Thank you Kania. At my age, I am so happy to celebrate with my family. Me, you and our future child will be born."

I nodded while smiling knots.

"I am too."

"I'm also very happy that we can finally get back together. I'm grateful that you're willing to forgive my error." Her speech.

"Now open the card."

"Well," He nodded, nodding to agree. "We'll see what it is... "

He looked down for a long time then straightened his head again, staring at my face.

"Cania? this----" she said nervously.

"I found it in a suitcase over a closet. You guys look so familiar, don't you? take look! Brother family huh? sister?"

I smiled wryly, and she realized my feelings. The look on his face at this moment made me realize that he was indeed not the man I meant, the man I considered the best, with all his flaws and advantages.

"Cania---"

"Sister Anta, I think I know now what reason you want to marry me."

"Kania, it's not what you think it is..." Sergeants.

I tried to smile in front of him, but he made my chest narrow and my breath tight. She just looked at me, but I felt like I was being giggled by her. Breathing was interrupted as my throat was squeezed by his two heartbreaking eyes.

"I understand Brother Anta. It's all because of Brother sister who impregnated me, it's all about your affection for sister. Not out of pity."

Finally, although it has been painstaking to look tough. I still sobbed. She shed tears for him for the umpteenth time. I looked at him unblinking, I looked at him even while crying. And I won't lose my strength even if I now look weak with tears.

"I don't know why I'm this sick when I know everything, brother, why are you so hearty? why am I always being lied to? do you see me as a silly girl?"

A long, gray night, our meeting only contained quarrels, matched by the cold night conditions and the thunderous roar everywhere. There is no moon, no stars. Only clouds of mist filled the sky and lizards eavesdropped.

Then he who began to piqu and hold, slammed the gift. Sister Anta looked away at me sharply with reddened eyes, her emotionally inflamed side.

"Why do you think that far?!"

"But that's the truth!" My answer.

"You think the only victim here is you? you're pregnant by mistake, while I sacrifice my heart to take responsibility." Sister Anta raised her tone while pointing her index finger, pointing at my face in front of her.

I came closer to her, who was away from me. I dare to look at him again despite the tears, I dongak head looked at him arrogantly as if I was supported by thousands of subtle objects through the spiritual and I have courage because of that.

"Why are you involved in my life?"

He was silent, silent like a statue.

"Why?" I said glaring, "Why did you enter my life?" I hit his chest hard. While he just silently accepted it.

"You know best how desperate I am. Brother feels better, after seeing me slump?"

"It's over, I'll disappear from your life." He said as he pushed my body away from him.

When he was about to turn around, tried to go somewhere. Leaving me with all the hanging certainties.

"No. I can't believe a word from brother." I said a little to scream so he could hear it.

And of course it worked, he turned his head and came back to face me. Now we looked at each other, wondering what we were going to do with each other. What's gonna happen? and what will we face after this? What is the first word we will say? how we should respond.

"How about this;" he said breaking the silence.

"The Avisha----" "You're the woman I married one month and two weeks ago. But, From today, this moment... I'm Anta Reza divorcing you!"

Devastated my heart, my shattered mind flew with the stars at the top of the sleeping horizon.

AAAAAARRRRRRKKKKHHH!!!!

I shouted hysterically while slamming again all the items near me.

"I can't stand it! even imagining it I can't! Brother Anta you trapped me in the shackles of pain, tortured me deeply."

Just imagining it my heart was already this sick, it felt like I couldn't afford it when he said that farewell to me. Did ya? will we really be lucky when I talk about it. Why is life so hard-----

How should I deal with this?-------

"You're the medicine but you're also the source of my pain."

The sound of knocking on the door made me feel calm again, I took a deep breath and after feeling better I immediately headed to the front door.

The late night. I was surprised to see him appear at the door. He was silent, silent like a statue. Still wearing his police uniform. He was carrying two large plastic bags of souvenirs. He's glued up, staring at me.

"Cania.... " Remain after I open the door.

"I've come with fresh fruit and pregnant women's milk, I'm afraid it's over. Coincidentally on the trip I met fruit, pregnant women usually like. You too right? You rarely crave, don't hesitate to tell me. Or it's not time for cravings yet, is it?"

"Sister Anta?! Wh-why come here?" I answered nervously while stammering.

As soon as he found my face, he immediately placed his souvenirs on the patio chair. Then leaning his face forward frowned in front of me.

"Your eyes are red and puffy, are you crying? is there any more trouble today? tell me, who's bothering you!"

"It's nothing" I said as I looked away, but it wasn't enough to stop the curiosity of Kak Anta who kept looking for my eyes to meet.

"Hey! try to look at me. You why? who's bothering you? why did you cry? Isma? Isma bothering you again? who's? tell me.. Don't shut up like this!"

"Why is it still quiet?" He said, "You've eaten, haven't you?" he took my face and held it to talk to me.

"Don't cry--" he said, pleading with sparkling eyes, hoping that I might catch the cues and commands of his heart? "There are too many tears that you drop, the baby will cry!"

"Are you crying because of me?" Her speech.